Monday, Dec. 8, 2008

Currently: Didn't have such a great weekend. Failed my lab practical on friday again and my professor wants me to meet up with him sometime this week to practice and then to re-take the test. If this were one of those situations where I didn't study and fucked up everytime I practiced, I would understand, but this is just the opposite. I studied my ass off and practiced my ass off with him, my friend Hillary and my lab partners Kate and Kelly, and every practice session went just fine, and yet I take the lab practical and STILL fail????!!! This has all led me to believe that that bastard of a professor is doing this on purpose because he does not want me to succeed. No, he wants me to keep repeating labs and spend more and more of my tuition money until I decide to just give it up. I know people, I know what he's thinking and he's being really shady right now. Nevertheless, I was angry all weekend, but did a pretty good job of masking my anger. And it wasn't even just the lab-thing that got me all emotionally screwed up. I started thinking about other things in my life that was and still is going shitty, and i'm not going to lie, all of that put together really screwed up my mood. I don't know anymore. Life is just so cruel...and I know life is cruel to everybody, but sometimes I feel like it is most cruel to me. I could be wrong. Anyways, still at work. I did some studying for my Medical Science final which is on thursday. I also looked over my powerpoint presentation for tommorrow's Medical Science class. Right now i'm trying to get my psych/soc. final paper started...but I just can't. I don't know if it's because the damn thing is so long or that i'm still depressed, but right now I have no ambition. I'm going to try though to atleast start it. Once i'm done here i'm going straight to my apartment and crash for like an hour and then get back up and continue to study for finals as well as try to continue on my psych/soc. paper. My body hasn't been feeling too well lately. Sometimes when I walk I feel woozy and get the feeling that i'm going to collapse at any minute. This morning while walking over to work, in particular, I couldn't even look down the block without feeling nauseous. Needless to say, all of this stress is really killing me. I must keep pushing on. I have a week and a half of this semester to go.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To get work done and feel better.

sunday, dec. 7, 2008

currently: i don't know. i'm too upset to study.

Friday, Dec. 5, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library now. Just came from cashing my check and had to walk through the crappy snow. This all makes me regret that I didn't apply to go to school in Miami.=( But anyways, about to continue studying for my big final Kinesiology lab practical, which is in two hours. Last night I met up with my lab partners and went through everything and it was a successful meeting, so hopefully today I won't fuck this up like I did the last time. Anyways, after that one of my lab partners plans on treating me and our other lab partner to some Chinese, so i'm mucho excited about that. It is, afterall, amongst my all time favorite foods. After that, I guess i'll be back at the apartment crashing for a good while. I was invited to a ZBT party, so I may go tonight. Haha. Isn't it sad that i'm 21 years old and still am willing to go to frat parties? Haha. I guess i'll never get sick of them until I leave college...or until I start seeing way too many freshman who are seemingly decades younger than me and decide to call it a day. Haha. So yea, those are my plans for today. Wish me luck!

Mood: Tired...I could just feel my body giving up.

Want of the day: To do well on that lab practical and earn a Chinese lunch and a night of partying!Haha.

Thursday, Dec. 4, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library right now. I decided to skip out on a little review session that my Medical Science teacher is currently having for our final next week. I mean, to me it's pretty pointless because she already told us all that's going to be on the test, and I feel confident that i'll know all this material well enough to get a decent grade on the test. So, there you go. In a few i'm going to get something to eat and since we don't have any psych/soc. lectures from here on in, i'm going straight to my apartment afterwards. While there, I plan on studying and reviewing for my kinesiology practical as well as a statistics quiz that i'm having later on. Last night I was able to practice and go through all that will be on the practical tommorrow, so for now I think i'll be fine in that arena. Anyways, tonight I plan on getting together with one of my lab partners, who happens to live right in my apartment building (how convenient!)to do a last minute run-through of what we need to know. I plan to do that after statistics. So, other than all of that, there (thankfully) isn't much more planned for me for today. I'm winding down, ya'll!!! And thankfully, my stress level is decreasing more and more everyday.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: To get a good amount of studying done and be confident that I will do well tommorrow afternoon.

Wednesday, Dec. 3, 2008

Currently: So i'm sitting at work, minding my p's and q's when all of a sudden this ugly bitch with an accent walks in and demandingly asks me to drop a book off at some lady's office in the back. So I walk over to the back to see if the lady's there and lo and behold, her door is closed. I do not have the keys or the right to break into the woman's office, so I go back out and tell ugly bitch that the lady is not there and that there was no way I could drop the book in her office for her. As I say this, she gets this nasty look on her face and demands to speak to somebodyelse. So I go back and get one of our technicians out to talk to her and as soon as he appears ugly bitch is all of a sudden pleasant and politely asks him if he would be able to drop the book off at the lady's office. He says that he is able to, and after all is said and done she thanks him and says nothing to me. Discrimination, much? PEOPLE!!!! And all of this over a stupid book. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! But anyways, about to leave work soon. Getting something to eat and then crashing a little bit, then going over to my friend's apartment to do some practicing for the Kinesiology practical on friday. Gag me, please?

Mood: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Want of the day: To have a productive night.

Tuesday, Dec. 2, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library right now. Thankfully, I was able to finish up part 6 of the Medical Science paper and turn that in. But unfortunately, I now have a part 3 of the Kinesiology paper to worry about on top of all the other papers and studying. I'm going to have a busy weekend, needless to say. But anyways, after this i'm getting something to eat and then going to psych/soc. lecture for about 15 minutes. The only reason i'm required to be there today is because a girl from the other lab is doing her presentation and needs people there for it. After that I have Service Learning part 3. I'm not really in a social, be friendly sort of mood today, so i'm most likely going to sit back and observe for this one. To be honest with you, I really don't care and would rather be working with the children like we did last time. But oh well, can't always get what I want so I have to deal with it. After that i'll be back at the library typing up my Service Learning journal and then I have statistics to go to. After statistics i'm going to open lab. Hopefully this open lab session will be worthwhile, cause I really need to pass this practical on friday. After that, i'm going to the AST house for our Christmas dinner tonight, and then after that i'll be back at the apartment studying and doing whateverelse.

Mood: Whatever.

Want of the day: To get a lot of important things done...and have a successful Service Learning experience.

Monday, Dec. 1, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now. Trying oh so hard to work on my Medical Science paper, but i'm so easily amused that it is very hard to concentrate. Oh well. On the bright side, I did get an A on that Kinesiology paper that I did at the last minute. That made me happy. But I must finish this damn paper!! Haha. It is due tommorrow, afterall. Anyways, after work I am probably going to the library to complete the paper. Hopefully I won't be over there until well into the night, like I was practically every night two weeks ago. After that i'm going back to the apartment to study for the Kinesiology lab practical. And after that i'm just calling it a night. We are officially in the Christmas season!!! I'm not that big a fan of this holiday (or at least not as big a fan as I used to be), but I have the sudden urge to bust out some christmas music, namely the jingle bell dogs song! Haha. Music always brightens up my life.

Mood: Tired and distracted (not a good combination).

Want of the day: To get this paper over and done with and study well tonight.