Sunday, July 10, 2011

Currently: Last night was boring and today has been boring. Last night I actually got so bored that I decided to go for a long walk around the block and bought some cigarettes (which I shouldn't have done, but it's another way to pass time!) and then I came home and was finally able to watch an episode of "So you think you can dance"...and it was really good. I also decided to join Twitter, which I once vowed NEVER to do! That is exactly what boredome does to me. But I go on there mostly to follow some of my favorite reality tv celebs and musicians...it's not like I have any "real" twitter friends...and don't think i'll really seek some. *shrugs* Anyways, all of today ended up being a mere continuation of last night...minus me sipping on some tropical punch rum. I have been on twitter on and off, went out for a couple of smokes, took the trash out, watched my first episode of "Mob Wives"...which was INSANE! And have just been stuffing my face and chilling out otherwise. Tommorrow starts week 11...as well as the final countdown! *cues music*...doo-doo-doo-doo!...doo-doo-doo-doo-doo!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Currently: It has just hit me that I am missing out on 2011. We are already more than half-way through the year, and between not having a television and being so busy with school, this year is really passing me by (as the Pharcyde would say)and I am just figuring it out now..hmmmmmmmm...I'm thinking right now of all the movies that came out that I wasn't aware of, all the happenings (even here in town) that I couldn't attend...the fact that they are now playing re-runs of "Martin," "Jamie Foxx," and "The Wayans Brothers" on frickin MTV2! It's really depressing to think that 2011 is becoming the most uneventful year of my life when it really didn't have to. And I thank those scum fuckers I worked for last year at my first fieldwork affiliation. If I didn't have to re-do a fieldwork, I would have at least been able to enjoy this summer...but no, I am missing almost the entire summer. I won't be out of town until the end of this month, and that is pretty much the tip of summer, believe it or not. By the time I get to have a real vacation, folks will already be prepping for back to school and labor day weekend. Hell, even that bitch Casey Anthony will have her freedom before me! And I really wanted to enjoy this year...afterall, next year will be 2012. Now, I do not believe that it will REALLY be the end of the world, but I do believe that all of the storms that have been hitting worldwide will continue to get bigger and badder...so the Mayans were right on the money if they were thinking in that neighborhood! Anyways, so yea, I guess i'm just a little upset that I am not able to take as much advantage of this year as I otherwise would have liked to.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Currently: I got some disappointing news last night. I was talking with one of the representatives i've been keeping in touch with to help me find a job and he tells me that he thinks its best that I wait until I have taken and passed my Boards exam to even look for a job...and as much as he makes sense, I do not like that idea. I need to find a job AS SOON AS POSSIBLE not only because of the tough situation at Home (with jackass being sick and all), but also because, as I have stated many times before, it is about time that I actually started earning my own money for a change! I seriously cannot wait another couple of months to start earning real money...that is too long for me and my patience is getting thinner and thinner by the day...so I really don't know what i'm going to do. I am still talking to that Travel therapy company and have even filled out an application form for a school for Special needs children...so I guess I probably will continue with the job search anyways. See how that goes. In the meanwhile, next week is week 11 and I have a lot to do. For one, I have to start prepping for my final presentation which will be the following tuesday. I also have to get in touch with Jenn to make sure she still wants to go to Vegas with me...and if she is, we have some hardcore talking/planning to do. If she doesn't want to still go with me, i'm going to have to figure out whether I should still go to Vegas or somewhere closer to the East coast. I also have to call Time Warner at the end of the week to schedule a time for them to send someone over to (very very sadly) un-install my internet. And then next weekend I have to have a cake made for everyone I worked with at the home along with buying a thank you card for my supervisor and her COTA. It will be so busy next week that I don't think i'll be able to get any studying for the Boards in. Oh well.

2 more weeks to go

Monday, July 4, 2011

Currently: I have decided that I am definitely going to go ahead with mammaplasty (breast reduction) surgery. As I get older, my breasts just keep getting bigger and saggier...not attractive at all. I have also started experiencing upper back and neck pain. I am still unsure as to precisely when to get this done, but ideally I would like to get it done as soon as possible. I was kind of thinking that if I cannot vacation with Jenn for some reason, to just make the reduction my graduation present to myself. At the same time though, I would like to be able to go on vacation AND get the surgery done before I start a full-time position somewhere...but that may be impossible and time-consuming. I will most likely either have to not go on vacation and get the surgery done as soon as I get home and then start working...or go home, go on vacation, start working for a couple of months (or at least until i'm off probation) and then get the surgery done. I have already found a top-notch female plastic surgeon in my area and plan to give her office a call sometime soon. Man, there are so many different options...as Will Ferrell in "Step Brothers" would say; There's so much room for activities!haha Anyways, it is Independence Day here in the states, so happy 4th of July and all that good stuff...

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Currently: You see what happens when you give fucking humans chances? Last night I did that by hanging out with Sam and regret it big time. As previously mentioned, I had deleted her number from my address book but last night SHE happened to text ME wanting to hang out...I was bored out of my mind, so I figured "why not?" Well...I get over there and things are okay at first...I try not to be too friendly/enthusiastic with her as I was still mad over her comments from last weekend. Next thing you know, this bitch starts dropping offensive remarks left and right! Here's a list of just a few of her gems (if I could even remember all of them, as there were SO damn many!):
1) She made racist comments throughout the night. For one, she had the nerves to call rap music "nigger music"...TO MY FACE! And not to mention, saying that I "smell like a black girl." What the fuck does that mean, anyway?
2) She had the nerve to ask me if i'm "boy crazy" and if talking about her many conquests with men make me feel like i'm in middle school...when it is HER who's constantly bringing up all the fraternity boys she ever fucked...and seriously? Boy crazy? I have told that fucking whore NUMEROUS TIMES that I am fucking done and want nothing to do with men, but will listen to her stories anyway because they are quite entertaining. She then has the nerve to follow that up by saying that the fact that I don't like or watch any sports makes me an uninteresting person...REALLY BITCH, REALLY??? Just because she likes sports I have to follow her and not be myself to satisfy her? IDIOT!
3) Again, she frequently made comments about me having no friends and not being able to get any guys...and yet i'm the one "still stuck in middle school"!HA!
4) While on the phone with one of her many fuck buddies she refers to me as a "lesbian"...so I went from being a boy crazy bitch that's stuck in middle school to a lesbian. That makes SO much sense!
5)At one point I had stepped out to get some cigarettes and when I get back she tells me that she had had some all along.

...After awhile I had had enough of this bitch and thought of a get away plan; I would tell her that I was going out to smoke a cigarette and just leave. Well, everytime I would tell her that she would tag along with me. I would then feel bad and think "ok, i'll give her another chance...but if she says one more fucking thing i'm getting the fuck out here"...and then we would go back in and she would say another offensive thing! That cycle just kept continuing of her tagging along to smoke with me, me forgiving her, and her offending me again...until finally I am able to make my escape appropriately. She gets a phone call from her fuck buddy that I mention in #4 above and I jokingly answer acting as if I am her. I say a few silly things to him and he says to me "You are not Sam," and I hang up laughing hysterically. She then comes back into the room and he calls her back. She answers the phone and he's asking her who answered the phone previously...she answers "oh, it was just JB (her nickname to me), but she's a lesbian anyway." It then sounds as if he's kind of mad at her and she says "Fine then, I will," and hangs up; he was mad at her afterall. I ask her if I ruined her night, she answers "kinda." SERIOUSLY? It was a fucking JOKE!!!!! They are seriously going to get all angry and upset over a JOKE???? I can't with those motherfuckers. So I decided then that it was the PERFECT moment for me to make my escape. So I tell her again that i'm going out for a smoke. I slip out the back door and actually start having a smoke...but then it starts to rain a little...fuck. So I rush to finish my cigarette and try to get back inside so my hair wouldn't get wet...well, the back door, which usually opens easily, cannot open at all (a sign from above). So I actually try to call her so that she can open the door for me, but she doesn't answer. So at that point I just leave and run home before it rained any more. As soon as I get home I get a phone call from her and completely ignore it. And that was it. I seriously do not need "friends" like that in my life. Not only is she a racist whore who thinks she's better than me because of her skin color and the fact that she sleeps around (which is not even a reason to think she's better than me), but she's also the type of person who'd rather stay loyal to her dumb fraternity friends who don't even respect her than a true friend like myself. I really don't give a shit about this girl anymore. If she gets an STD or nearly OD's from one of the drugs that some of her dear fraternity friends that she loves oh so much give her...I will not feel sorry for her at all.

I have also decided; fuck that once a week rule from earlier in the year, I am never going on facebook again! Now I will only go on if somebody writes to me...which is kind of rare. I say that because I went on last night after having my already low self-esteem trampled on just to be further depressed by everyone on there bragging about the new job they got, or becoming engaged, or the great friends that they have...I just couldn't take it anymore. So that's that.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Currently: I can't help but remember the time that Jose (the 38 year-old idiot I went out on a "date" with last year) told me that "...maybe you were meant to be with a woman." Just because I "seemed inexperienced" and was defending gay rights lesbianism is in my future? This is why I fucking hate men and never want to touch one again.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Currently: Week 9; finished! And lucky for me, I have Monday off so week 10 is looking to be pretty short. That is about the only "yay" news I have. Things have been pretty chaotic at the Home mostly because we keep getting new admissions and are short-staffed...way to end an already excrutiating fieldwork.Haha Anyways, that is about all I have. Tonight (once i'm done eating) i'm going to drink some of my tropical punch Rum while watching "Basketball Wives" and "The Real World/Road Rules Challenge" and relaxing. I am not even going to try to get in touch with Sam (I actually deleted her number) after what she had the nerves to tell me last weekend. And it will stay this way until I leave this boring town of drunks. Trust.

3 more weeks to go