Tuesday, Feb. 14, 2012

Currently: Today I took my NBCOT Boards exam for the second time...and I feel A LOT more confident this time around in reguards to passing! For one, I didn't take nearly as long to answer questions, which makes a HUGE difference. Also, though I didn't do as much studying this time around, I feel I was more in tune with the material. Even when I first took the exam the material wasn't really an issue. I had to work on my time management skills, and fortunately I did an excellent job of doing so today. So anyways I shall see whether I passed or not...but I really have a good feeling that I did. In other news, i've just been in this mood to shop a lot lately. When I say "shop" I don't mean going on a million shopping sprees...I mean purchasing random items that I want little by little. Like dedicating one evening or weekend to purchasing one type of item, and then waiting the next weekend or next available evening to purchase somethingelse...still with me?haha As a matter of fact, next friday i'm planning on going to Kings Highway (an area in Brooklyn with FAB accessory stores) to pick up a bag, shoes, a scarf, or a hat...I really hadn't figured out what yet.Ha Once i'm there i'll make up my mind for sure. With all that is going on, i'm still trying my hardest to save up for vacation. And while i'm on that topic, my cousin from Connecticut over the weekend expressed interest in vacationing with me...so I may have a partner in crime!haha Hey, if all else fails I was going to settle with my mother anyways (as awkward as that is), because either way I MUST have another vacation by the end of this year!

Sunday, Feb. 5, 2012

Currently: I have scheduled to retake my Boards exam...I will be taking it on Valentine's Day. Hey, might as well be doing SOMETHING on the worst, most depressing day of the year! It is a good day to take off work, so why not? Anyways, I hope things go well this time around...otherwise i'll be working Nursing Homes for the rest of my life...not that I mind that. I am also beginning to plan out my mammaplastly. I called my Health Insurance carrier on Friday and was told that it is best I get a refferal from the plastic surgeon to be approved for surgery. Since I have already found a reputable surgeon in my area, I plan to call her office tommorrow to ask some questions and see if I could make an appointment for a consult. I am more than sure that they'll approve me. Not only has my upper back and neck been hurting, I have also acquired a mass of dark marks under my breasts. As soon as Insurance sees pictures of those disgusting marks, they BETTER NOT disapprove me! In the meanwhile, I still haven't really decided where i'd like to travel to next. Currently I am deadlocked between Punta Cana, DR, Miami, and Vegas. I feel like at this point I will most likely go to Vegas since it is the cheapest and easiest to save up for. I shall see about that, I guess. For now first thing's first...I have to retake that bullshit test.

A Rant on Lust

I'm not going to lie, not being in a relationship has made my tendency to dream and lust after people I don't even know very frequent. My current "target" is a man by the name of Michael B. Jordan (not the famous Basketball player). He's in a new movie coming out called "The Chronicle" and one currently out called "Red Tails." There's just something about him...his skin, his smile, his LIPS! I haven't been so in lust in so long. This morning on the train I was fantasizing about the things I would do to Michael...I blew my own mind; I would eat him alive for real. I would wear very little but still something cute and seductive; something that would accentuate me and my body type. I would then start off by kissing his lucious, full lips uncontrollably and then biting them...the latter would most likely lead to some sort of lip licking and or biting on his part...and that would also be precisely the time that I would go wild. We would then proceed to some feeling, rubbing and grabbing and clothes would start to come off for sure. He would most likely then let out a grand pant and lift me up furiously, thrusting my body onto his. I would kiss his neck and lick and nibble his ears. I would then make my way down to his pants, lifting his shirt and rubbing on his abdomen along the way, and very swiftly unzip...I would then proceed to suck him off with all my might. Hearing his panting and groaning would not only empower me, but would also strengthen my sexual intensity. At this point we would have to put the radio on and turn up the volume so that nobody in the surrounding area would hear my screams. And then about two hours later I would let out one last big sigh...and it would be over. Yup, that's what I was thinking about on the damn Subway this morning. It's a good thing I didn't miss my stop!haha. But now that I have actually detailed the entire fantasy itself, I feel a lot better. : )

A Saturday night Rant

Hello all! *crickets*...Anyways...I am currently enjoying a nice glass of Kikkoman Plum Wine and figured "why not just make an entry for my favorite Blog that I always seem to forget?"Haha To be honest, I really don't have anything really important to say...I AM happy though that I was able to go to the Hair Salon today and get light brown (or gold) Highlights put in my hair! I'm telling you, I look SO fab! I really wish my camera had batteries, so that I could take a pic of how it turned out and post it here!...but of course, my camera has no battery so...Needless to say though I feel amazing!...It is really interesting how something as simple as a nice hairdo can turn one's entire day around. Another thing I wish is that I had money to go out and show off my new hair...well, technically I DO have the money but would rather save it for things like Bills, Tests, vacations, and emergencies. To me those things are more important than a night out on the town...especially considering how ridiculously EXPENSIVE one drink in New York city costs! Besides, on the 4th of next month (which is a Friday) I will be attending a dinner with my co-workers...so that could count as an "outing" of some sort, if you will...and it's FREE!Haha. So for the remainder of this Saturday night I guess i'll be spending it drinking my wine, watching music videos, going on Twitter, and listening to music...and I wouldn't have it any other way. ; )

Monday, Jan. 2, 2012

Currently: So we have hit the New Year! To me a New Year doesn't necessarily mean a 'new beginning,' as I find every year to be a repetition of the previous...basically, to me REAL change takes more than just one year to accomplish...but that's just me. Damn, I should have made this a 'Dani's Rants' post.Haha But anyways, its 2012 and all I can say is that I hope I can accomplish a few things this year...notice I say 'hope to accomplish' and not 'change my entire life around.' The first and foremost thing I want to accomplish is to pass my Boards exam so that I can get an even better paying job...not going to lie though, I am pretty content with what i've been getting paid. But I do have my Masters and can be getting paid A LOT more than that, so why not go for it? I also want to make it out to the Dominican Republic this summer...and that is really it. For the rest of the year I just plan to continue carrying on and hustling...haha. As long as I accomplish my top two goals, I am pretty much fulfilled for the year.

Dani's Rants: How can I make my life more exciting?

I always thought that once I started working life would be a lot more fun and exciting...unfortunately, that is far from the truth. Sure working at least keeps me busy and occupied with something...but I think that's the only added Bonus to it. I still don't have a lot of friends so during the weekends I don't go anywhere or socialize...and even if I were to find someone to go on the occasional outing with, i'm always tired from work by the time weekends arrive! On top of that too you have Bills, bills, bills; i've already begun paying off my loans. So how do I even save up enough money to go out? I'm starting to feel that that's what life itself is; completely boring. People are so busy with obligations and personal matters, it's hard to find time for the more enjoyable things in life. Even when I do try to find ways to amuse myself, nothing seems to fulfill well enough. I feel like in order to fully enjoy life, one must have a job that requires them to travel a lot; at least you get to change settings and experience different worlds. I would love to do travel therapy...only problem though is i'm the type of person who has an attached type of personality...meaning once I grow used to a place I can never leave it. I hate that about me! For example, i've been in New York all my life and though I find San Francisco, California to be a lot more breath-taking and fun to live in, I STILL don't want to leave New York! I think apart of it is fear and being in a new setting all by myself. But i'm also the type of person who LOVES having something new and exciting to look forward to. That's why it has also been so hard trying to figure out my next vacation. One minute I want to go to Punta Cana, DR, next minute I want to visit Hollywood...then the next minute I want Mexico or Vegas...I want to be everywhere!haha But it is hard too to get to those places without money...and I haven't even started saving up to retake my Boards yet. But anyways, at the end of all of this is the question; why does life have to be so boring? Why can't simple things like waking to a beautiful day (which it really is) fulfill the soul enough? Or going to the Salon and getting a new hairdo? Why can't things like that keep me going for an entire day? Maybe i'm the only one that feels this way...but I doubt it.

Dani's Rants part 3: Jason

I have an imaginary boyfriend named Jason. He is 26, from a well-off family in an upscale suburban town. He is also a law student and former lifeguard with a bright future. His zodiac sign is Cancer. He treats me the way I deserve to be treated. He sends me flowers at work when he doesn't have to. He says "I love you" everytime we speak. He isn't ashamed to say that I am his. He posts countless photos of he and I together...a couple in which he is kissing me. He lets me fall asleep in his arms at night. He listens to the hip hop and r&b music that I like...but isn't afraid to throw in a little punk and alternative into the mix. He drives a stick shift and isn't afraid to take me anywhere I want. He takes me to his Cabin Upstate on some weekends so we may both escape from real life and just spend some quality time together. He has never once mentioned his ex-girlfriend eventhough they were together for a long time. He loves his family and will do anything for them...but will still stand up for me if they attempt to trample on my name. I practically live with him eventhough he technically lives with his childhood best friend and I still live at home with my parents. He hates to see me cry or upset. He knows when to be playful and when to be serious. He is not afrraid to think outside the box. He may be imaginary, but it is He that keeps me sane.