Friday, July 31, 2009

Currently: I met a guy a few weeks ago while I was still out of town. I met him at a Bar that same night I went out to the town block party/festival. He is biracial, looks around 23 years old, looks like trailer trash, has a girlfriend, who also looks like trailer trash, once (apparently) served some time in prison for robbery and has a little gap between his two front teeth. He hit on me...and I liked it. As I was leaving the Bar he literally ran out just to give me a hug...he also told me that if he didn't have a girlfriend, he'd be allover me. All of a sudden, he has come to mind again and I can't stop thinking about him...a bum, with a criminal record, a girlfriend and most likely no real head on his shoulders, has been on my mind for the past week. I even had a dream of him last night. This is a sign that there is definitely something wrong with me.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Currently: Today wasn't so eventful. Just stepped out for a bit to do my hair and then napped for the rest of the afternoon. I then watched the season finale of "Daisy of Love"...I still can't believe she chose London! Arrggh! Haha. And that has been it, really. It has just occured to me that maybe I should start writing again. I haven't really written anything since I started college. I did write an outline for a story that I thought I would eventually get around to writing...but of course, that didn't happen. I don't know what has happened to me. I used to be such an avid writer and now i'm just too lazy to pull even a little poem out my ass. Sad. *sigh* I don't know, maybe another time. For now, i'm about to brush my teeth, wash my face and go to bed. Tommorrow is another dry and boring day at work...hooray!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Currently: It is a beautiful day today. I just stepped out to get some cigs and go to the bank. And here I am now. I'm way too tired to take advantage of this nice day...so i'm most likely going to spend today in bed and doing whateverelse. I know, what a waste, but oh well i'll live. Hopefully next weekend it will be just as nice and I can go out to the city and do something fun. I really hate to waste any good day but when i'm not in the mood i'm REALLY not in the mood.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Currently: So I am obviously back at home. But it hasn't been bad. I am really hoping that the rest of the summer is like this. Anyways, right now I am just relaxing and listening to some salsa/bachata music...I really should continue researching laptops too...

Monday, July 20, 2009

Currently: In a few hours I will be on the Greyhound and going back home. Bleh. I really don't want to go back. Just when I got used to having my peace of mind, I will be back to being in chaos and misery all over again. This sucks. This weekend went really well. The thursday before sister weekend, my friend and I went to a festival around town. It was a lot of fun. I got to see Brett Michaels in person and got to see some other really good artists perform. It was very relaxing and enjoyable. Once the festival was over we went to a couple of Bars and I had a mighty lot to drink...I didn't get sick though, thank god. I spent the remainder of that night dancing the night away and bumping into some interesting characters, of course. We ended that night with a nice trip to McDonalds.Haha. You know I had to. Then that friday we embarked on Sister Weekend. It actually wasn't as unbearable as I thought it was going to be. As usual, I didn't try extra hard to "mingle" with a lot of the girls, but I tried hard enough. The only down side was having to sleep in a tent for one night. It took me forever to fall asleep and then I woke up with my neck and back hurting. It could have been worse though. We spent all of saturday participating in the activities that most of our sister weekend dues went towards. My group first went horse back riding. Going into this whole thing, I thought that the horses would be the least of my worries, but it was actually quite scary. I had thought that they would just take us around a flat track on the horses for maybe half an hour and that would be it...but that wasn't the case at all! They had us going up and down really steep hills on these horses, and i'm not going to lie, I thought that my horse was going to lose it a couple of times. I also panicked a little whenever my horse would take me through tree branches and bushes. Thankfully, I wasn't knocked out of the horse...did have a few close calls though. Three of my sisters fell off their horses, one right in front of me and the other literally bucked off her horse. Scary shit, to say the least. Once we were done with it I breathed a big sigh of relief. But the fun and games didn't end there. After stopping at a Diner to eat, we then went canoeing. I'm not a big fan of being on a body of water at all, so just the thought of barreling down a river in a small boat sent me into a silent panic. But luckily for me, my canoeing partner is a lifeguard and seemed to really know what she was doing. Our canoe did get stuck on a few rocks, but the adventure otherwise went well. After canoeing, we all met at our one sister's house, reflected on our experience a bit, and then me and my friend came back here. Last night I was able to go out with a few of my sisters once they had returned from sister weekend. It was actually a good time. Of course, I once again had a crap load to drink, but it felt great!Haha. I also got to hear some behind the scenes gossip about my sorority...so much drama and controversies! I couldn't believe my ears!haha. We went out to a karaoke Bar before driving back home. I went to bed last night at 4:00 am. And here I am now. I am still tired, believe it or not, but what can I do? I am so not ready to be on the road for 15 hours, but as usual, I have to just suck it up and get shit done. I have a lot to do once I get home, like beginning to find a laptop that I would like to purchase, saving money to buy it and getting into contact with a children's hospital for my fieldwork placement next summer. Bleh again.

Wednesday, July 16, 2009

Currently: Still out of town, waiting for Sister Weekend to begin. This past weekend went pretty well. I was at my friend Cara's place out in the 'ole country.Haha. Gotta love it! I've been here at my school's town since monday. I am staying at Cara's temp. apartment while she is at another Residence Hall for the week because she is a camp counselor and they are all required to stay at said place during the week. It has been nice. The weather here has been holding up and it's nice and peaceful where I am...totally opposite of when I am home. So needless to say, being here has given me a good break from all the chaos at home. And speaking of home, father dearest called me last night and this morning to let me know that he finally got a locksmith to un-jam my car wheel. He says that everything seems to be working fine. That is good news for me because 1) I'll definitely be needing the car when I get back home to go to work and taking the bus can be tiring, and 2)The car is at least in good shape in case I want to sell it. I still hadn't completely made up my mind yet on whether or not to sell it. I mean, I love my car, it is my pride and joy and SO much went into purchasing it. Not to mention, it has been a great help for me with getting to work and running errands. At the same time, there's a part of my heart that is telling me that selling it will be in my best interest. I don't know what to do now at all. I guess i'm just going to have to wait and see when I get back home. In the meanwhile, though I am enjoying the serenity here, it has been quite boring. All my friends here are either out of state or out of town, and Cara's too busy to hang out, so I haven't been doing much but watching movies all day and all night. It was cool at first, but now it is getting really repetitive. Hopefully Cara will be able to hang out tonight, but i'm not going to guarantee myself that.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Currently: I am leaving town in a few hours. Ever since I lost a bunch of my shirts early in the summer, i've been very paranoid about taking the Greyhound. To rest assure, I purchased a lock for my luggage from the Dollar Store. To this day I am still puzzled and saddened over the mystery of my shirts...though I'm still questioning whether or not my fat fuck of an ex-roomate may have stolen my shirts at the last minute. She is bitchy enough to pull such a petty trick. Either way, I am hoping that this trip goes well for me. When I get back home it will be back to work for me. I have to put my car up for sale as well as purchase a new laptop. Those two things will definitely be my priority for the remainder of the summer. At least I don't have to worry about the Collections Dept. or receiving my semester Bill anymore. And speaking of school, I also have to make some calls to some children's hospitals in my area to see if they'd be able to accomodate me for my fieldwork placements next summer. I always forget about that. But this time, I won't! I promise this to myself. So...i'm off! I may not have internet where i'll be, so this will be my last update for awhile.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Currently: Right now I am debating whether or not to sell my car. If one hadn't guessed already, it has been giving me A LOT of problems lately and I don't like giving up on anything, but life's too short for me to be stressing myself over a vehicle all the time. Right now it is sitting in front of my house, wheel still jammed, taking up space. And worst of all is that father dearest hasn't said a thing about how he would like to help me with it in days. I have no time to waste here! So what I would like to do is once the car is eventually fixed, sell it and make as good a profit I can from it. I purchased the car for $3,000, so I doubt i'll make that much from it, but it'll at least be something. I'm not too crazy about driving anyway, and that's mostly because of the shitty drivers around here, so i'm thinking it's not even worth my time or effort. But at the same time, I really like my car and worked very hard just to get it, and selling it would feel like time and effort wasted for me. I would also miss my car a lot and selling it would probably worsen my depression. *sigh* I really don't know what to do. I probably will end up selling it, but it's going to suck hardcore, i'm not going to lie. Letting go of something is truly difficult.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Currently: Whew, first late night entry in awhile. I was just sitting in the basement smoking and thinking. I've noticed lately that i've been at a loss for words...not really knowing what to say or what to think and that is really odd for myself. I really wish I could know what tommorrow, the day after and the next month brings, but I honestly have no idea. Nevertheless, I must charge on as always. I'm leaving town on friday to go to Sister Weekend. I'll be out of town for almost a week and a half. I should have compiled a list of the things i'll be needing to pack tommorrow night but of course I didn't. Oh well. I guess I can do all of the above tommorrow night. For now, i'm just going to go on facebook a little bit, brush my teeth, wash my face and go to bed.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Currently:So what did I do today? Got up, went to work, took the bus home, watched "HawthoRNe" and now here I am. I am so incredibly tired right now. I'm just going to brush my teeth, wash my face and go to bed...and then start anew tommorrow! Yay! Gotta love the sarcasm in this post.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Currently: So I was just on facebook looking at my "friend facts" and apparently some guy I don't even really know that well was asked if he thought I was a good kisser and he answered "no." Haha. 'Gotta love those wtf? moments.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Currently: This year's 4th of July was actually quite decent for me. My mother and I decided to go out to the city yesterday evening to get away from all the drama for a change. We first went by TGI's to eat. I had a cheeseburger, fries and a glass of Mai Tai.Haha It was delicious! After that, we went by a Cuban Bar where I had two drinks, a jack and coke and a cranberry vodka. After that, we went to another Bar where I had a pretty big glass of long island ice tea. After that, we went to the movies to see "Public Enemies." Unfortunately, I was so tipsy by then that I ended up zoning out through the entire movie. The only things I even remember from the movie are blasting machine guns and Jonny Depp making some really funny wise ass comments. Haha. That's what I get for drinking before I go see a movie i'm actually interested in. Jonny Depp is my "Hollywood Soulmate," afterall, and that shouldn't have happened! Oh well. Today was okay. I've been tired all day cause I went to bed late last night. Despite that, I still took a trip to the mall, where I got my friend Cara a few gifts for her wedding shower, my mother a few things for her birthday (which is Tuesday) and two DVD's for myself. And that has been it. Right now, i'm going to my room to listen to some music and relax a little. I may also catch an episode of "Daisy of Love" later on. And that is all, for now.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Currently: So, today's the first day of July. Hopefully this month will be better for me.