Saturday, Jan. 31, 2009

Currently: Last night was long, but not so bad. Did Rounds with the girls practically all night. Afterwards, I went back to my apartment and at the very last minute (like at around 1 in the morning) me and the roomie stepped out to the Bar. It was cool. I had a glass of jack and coke and three kamikaze shots in a row...and believe it or not, I didn't even get tipsy...I did get sleepy though. So needless to say, once we got back to the apartment, I brushed my teeth, showered and crashed. Today is day one of my menstrual cycle, so I woke up this morning with a bitch of a cramp below my belly. Thankfully, after walking around a little bit outside, it has gone away. First thing I did this morning after leaving the apartment was attend an open lab session to practice material for my Neurorehab lab practical on tuesday...the practice today went pretty well, I can say. After that, I got some brunch and now i'm at work being bored. FUN!!! Not. Haha. For some reason, the other girl that usually works with me on Saturdays isn't in today...oh well, since i'm totally by myself, that means I can goof off without worrying about anyone spying on me.Haha. Anyways, once i'm done here at 6, i'm going over to Van's to practice some more for the Neurorehab practical. After that, i'm going back to the apartment and crashing. No partying or going out for me tonight, sorry. Besides, I will be going out again tommorrow evening in lieu of Super Bowl Sunday, and it's going to be a blast!

Mood: Happy and relaxed.=)

Want of the day: To have another successful practice round, and get some good sleep tonight.

Friday, Jan. 30, 2009

Currently: Bored, Bored, Bored! Is what I am right now. Took that Research test bright and early this morning...I feel I did decently on it...it was definitely harder than I thought it would be...but I think i'll be fine. After that, I picked up my check and cashed it, then went over to the Dollar Store and got a few things that I need, then to the corner store for some cigs...and now I am in the library not knowing what to do with myself...will probably go get something to eat at around 11:20-ish and then head out to work. I work today from 12:00 to 2:00. After that i'm meeting with Van to practice material for my lab practical on Tuesday. After that, I will probably go back to the apartment to relax a little and then get ready for sorority Rounds tonight. I will be doing Rounds with the girls from 6:00 to about 10:30 tonight...yea, it's going to suck pretty bad. But i'm hoping to find something to do tonight. Though this weekend is TRULY no booze or boys (I mistakenly thought last weekend was, but it evidently wasn't), i'm hoping that some older girls from my class who I have recently aquainted myself with call me to go out with them tonight...cause there most likely won't be any of my sisters hanging around whichever place they choose to hang out. My fingers are crossed for that. I'm still unsure though, cause they may leave to go out at around 10-ish and I don't know if we'll be done with the Rounds by then or not. Ahhhhhh...complications! Don't you love them? Otherwise, that's pretty much it for me. As usual, I really don't know what will become of me later on. We shall see!

Mood: Restless and Bored.

Want of the day: To find something fun to do later on.

Thursday, Jan. 29, 2009

Currently: Just sitting around, watching "Annie Hall." I'm trying to stay concentrated enough to finish studying for my Research test which is tommorrow morning. Blah. Studying for a subject as dry as Research is ridiculously unbearable and beyond boring. Someone shoot me, please? Haha. I kid. I kid. Today has been fine, otherwise...no complaints here. ...which means, well...i'm outie! Nighties!

Mood: Unbearably bored.

Want of the day: To finish studying Research without pulling the hairs out of my scalp.

Wednesday, Jan. 28, 2009

Currently: It is snowing like hell outside and that is not settling with me. Sitting at the library right now. I'm just going to type my "Sister Info." sheet and study a little bit, until one o'clock, when I get an official yes or no as to if i'll be observing children at the Achievement Center today. I really hope I don't have to, cause it's bad enough i've been out in this damn snow all morning. I hate snow like no other. And I don't know, for some reason today I feel pretty poopie...once again, I have no idea why...maybe it is just the snow? Whatever the case, I just want to feel better and get through this day. It is only wednesday and already I am doing a hardcore countdown to Sunday...when i'll actually be able to go out and drink. I know that that's not a good thing to be looking forward, but 1) that is all that there is to do around here in this boring butt-stain of a town and 2) That is all that there is for ME to do PERIOD! It's not like I have a whole lot of friends who I can do things with...or better yet, a guy that I can waste texts on. That is how boring my life in general is, so all that there is for me to do is drink. That is actually the one thing right now that I can do to make myself feel better...or to drown all my sorrows out, whichever is best I guess.

Mood: Crappy, Blah...and any other adjectives that fit the aforementioned.

Want of the day: To feel better.

Tuesday, Jan. 27, 2009

Currently: First let me explain yesterday's little entry. See, I get another e-mail saying that my Medical Forms aren't set for my Fieldwork 1 rotations, when I had taken care of that insurance card thingy since Friday. I was just pissed because I have been working so hard at getting absolutely everything I need in, and these people are making it seem like i'm slacking. NO!, lady, YOU'RE slacking! So I sent my teacher a pretty angry e-mail message and she replied and told me to go speak to our Department Secretary...so I did first thing this morning. She must have known about my e-mail, cause she was acting a little condescendingly towards me this morning...but I didn't care, I spoke my mind. I told her that I don't want it to be Wednesday (or tommorrow) at 4:00 (an hour before all fieldwork info. is due) and for there to still be a claim that my Medical Forms are missing, when they have been in since LAST SEMESTER! Do your fucking job, lady! Anyways, she said that she will be getting my form from the Medical Records lady (which she should have gotten since FRIDAY anyway) today...let's hope she did that, cause if she didn't I WILL flip my shit on somebody. Anyways, today has been good, otherwise. Had work from 8 to 9 this morning, and then went to Neurorehab lecture immediately following. After that, got something to eat and stopped by the library for not too long, and went straight back to Neurorehab Lab. Lab was pretty busy today. We didn't learn anything new, but we did a lot of practicing on things we're going to need to know for next Tuesday's lab practical. And here I am now. Right now, i'm going to go take a little nap, then get up and do some studying...and whateverelse. And that is all.

Mood: Tired...a little.

Want of the day: Ahhhh...whatever.

Monday, Jan. 26, 2009

Currently: I'm fucking pissed off. Enough said.

Sunday, Jan. 25, 2009

Currently: Though the weekend started out kinda slow for me, it ended with a bang! Haha. Yesterday, I first had work all damn day long...as usual it was boring and very quiet, but I at least got to watch some music videos on You Tube! Woohoo! After that, I met up with my friend Van and hung out at her place for a little, then we went out and saw "Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist." It was a cute movie...I liked it anyway. Luckily, as we were going to go see it, we ran into some of my sisters who were also in attendance. After the movie was over, we dropped Van off at her place and then I went with the girls to one of our other sisters apartments. While there I took some jello shots, drank some Beer and drank some Wine all while playing a nice game of Apples to Apples. It was a good time. Following that, we went to the Pike party and by the time we got there I was WASTED. My entire body felt heavy, my head was half-way spinning, and I don't know, I just felt like I was in another world. Haha. Needless to say, I was pretty comfortable with myself and outgoing, which made for a lot of interesting moments. Haha. The downside to that though, was the fact that I kept spilling wine allover myself and stained my shirt pretty bad. Haha. Sloppy drunk, much? Anyways, after that we went to this party at someone's apartment (which, for some reason, is only known as "the 333"). I had a great time over there as well. Most notably was when I met up with a guy who has classes with my roomate and as soon as I tell him that I room with her, he gets all excited and picks me up and whirls me around the place like a crazy man...he then goes on to call her and leave a message stating that he and I are partying together.Haha. And then later on, aforementioned guy and one of my sisters start to flirt with each other hardcore as I am sitting next to them on a couch...next thing you know, they are making out, and he starts grabbing my leg and arm and insinuating that I join in...and interestingly enough, eventhough I was pretty wasted, I still wouldn't settle for a threesome. Haha. Instead I just looked my other sister in the eye and said "help me," in a very muffled, puppy in headlights-type voice.haha. Interesting, nevertheless. Sadly though, because her partying ways of the night got the best of her, my sister who had been making out with said guy ended up puking her brains out by the end of the night. I stayed by her side and rubbed her back to make sure that she was okay. After all of the chaos simmered some, we crash at said sister's apartment...I slept on the couch. What's funny though is, after I had drifted off to sleep, I had a dream that I was throwing up profusely on her couch and really messed it up...I thought it was real too. I was mortified and scared that she would be really upset at me...but then I wake up and there is no puke anywhere on the couch. Weird. Anyways, woke up this morning at 9:00 AM and went to a little breakfast gathering that one of the Pike brothers (who wants to be our sweetheart) was having for us. It was good. At least I got to eat something following my chaotic night out. Haha. Anyways, after that I went by my sister's apartment to pick up my bag that I had left over there, and then came right back to the apartment, where I took an hour nap. After my nap, I got back up, got ready and went to dinner. After dinner I went to the AST business meeting and here I am now! Right now i'm going to try and get some laundry done, all the while studying some. Back to the grind!

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To keep being me.=)

Friday, Jan. 23, 2009

Currently: Today's been okay. Had Research class bright and early this morning and immediately thereafter went by the lady who handles Medical Records to show her my insurance card and sign a form for my Fieldwork 1 placement. After that, I was supposed to go to open lab for my Neurorehab lab, but there were no rooms available for us to use, so it was cancelled. So now i'm at the library, just hanging out. At noon i'm going to work and will be there until 2:00. After that, i'm probably just going to hang around some until 4:00, when I have a meeting for work to attend to. After that i'm going straight back to the apartment to do whateverelse. I'm most likely going to go see "Nick and Norah's Infinite playlist" tonight...that is, if I have anyone to go with. If not, then i'll just be hanging around the apartment some more. Since this weekend is a no booze or boys weekend, I may try to find an off-campus party to go to...we'll see, but for now I don't know. And that is all.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To continue being me.=)

Thursday, Jan. 22, 2009

Currently: Today has been so. Worked from 8:00 to 9:00 this morning and then went straight to Neurorehab lecture. After that I went to go help my sisters sell coupons for a fundraiser and then went to do my eyebrows. After that, I got something to eat, stopped by the library to run some errands and came right back to the apartment. Once I got back here I took an hour nap. And now here I am! Hooray! Haha. I guess once i'm done here i'm going to do a little bit of studying and getting done whateverelse there is to be done. And that shall be it.

Mood: Bored...but good.

Want of the day: To continue being the little star that I am.=) Haha.

Wednesday, Jan. 21, 2009

It has been a good day.=)

Tuesday, Jan. 20, 2009

Currently: Today has been today. Worked from 8:00 to 9:00 this morning. After that, had Neurorehab from 9:30 to 10:50. After that, had a SOTA (student occupational therapy association) meeting and got to have some delicious pizza. That made me happy. Immediately after that, I had Neurorehab lab. Today we worked a lot on getting patients from lying down to sitting, from sitting to standing, and from a bed to a wheelchair. It was tough on me only because i'm a weakeling and had a hard time getting people up on my own...i'm also still a little uncomfortable with being *that close* to people. I will get this all eventually, though. Anyways, since it has been determined that i'm weak as hell, I decided I should get a little protein in my system...so I just ordered 25 barbecue wings. Haha. And NO! it's not gross! When a girl is hungry, she's hungry!...especially me. DAMNIT!Haha. And that is all.

Mood: ?????

Want of the day: To enjoy my poultry.=)

Monday, Jan. 19, 2009

Currently: Last night started out well, but then ended rather strangely. After the AST business meeting, I decided to venture out to the Bar to meet up with some of my sisters. The walk over there was once again hell, but it was all good once I got into the Bar itself. So I get in, drink like four (or five) Jack and Cokes and just talk to my sisters for awhile...until the DJ starts playing some music and more girls I know show up. As soon as this happens, I get up and start dancing like there's no tommorrow!haha. It was so much fun...at that point I could just feel the adrenaline rushing throughout my body...it was just so euphoric. But then, all of a sudden and unexplainably even for myself, I start to feel really down and abruptly stop dancing. I go sit by the Bar by myself and start thinking about random things...I then go to the bathroon stall and start crying...a lot. For what reason? I still have no idea. How does one go from feeling so great to feeling like a complete piece of shit? I really don't understand. But nevertheless, I spend the remainder of the night moping to myself and blowing my money away on shots...it was really bad. I was literally buying shot after shot after shot and slowly but surely running out of money. I finally ceased assasination of my wallet, because I finally realized that I was about to walk away from this Bar DEAD BROKE. But anyways, the Bar finally closes at around 2:00 AM and I walk back home with some of the girls. There were a few other interesting moments from last night...like when this girl, who was a complete stranger to me, tries to get me to sign up for the "best rack" contest by grabbing one of my boobs...and during the "best rack" contest, when I got to witness one of my sisters, topless, dancing suggestively atop a pool table. It would have been a really great night for me and was at first, but I just don't know what the fuck happened. I do blame myself for this too. I mean, I had no reason in this world whatsoever to be crying...but NO! I just had to go and ruin a potentially incredible night for myself. *sigh* I don't know anymore. Anyways, today has been just that. Didn't really do much besides get something to eat, watch music videos, organize my schedule, do some laundry and remake my bed. Once i'm done with the laundry, i'm hoping that i'll be able to get around to studying a little bit. I just hope that all my pondering about last night (which I have been doing all day) don't compromise my studying.

Mood: Confused.

Want of the day: To be able to gather myself mentally to study.

Sunday, Jan. 18, 2009

Currently: So last night me and the roomie actually had a blast! Who knew, right? First we head out in a fucking blizzard and walk all the way to the Bar. At that point I was thinking to myself "Oh great, this is going to turn out to be one crappy fucking Saturday night," but when we finally get inside, I calm down a little bit and order my first drink of the night; jack and coke. Once I get my drink we find a booth and sit and talk a little...as i'm slowly but surely finishing up my mixed drink.Haha. As we were sitting and talking and what not, the movie Spiderman was playing on the Big Screen, and what's funny is, the more drinks/shots I finished, the funnier that movie appeared to me!haha. I swear, I could not stop laughing at it for awhile. Of course, at the same time that i'm laughing at the movie, i'm dancing (while still seated, mind you) to some of the music the DJ was playing...he played some really good music last night! I just felt great at that point, which also led me to feeling more confident in myself...which then led me to being approached by a *GASP!* attractive, cool, All-American guy! Who fucking knew? Little 'ole me? Really? But yea, it happened. He just came out of nowhere and asked me for a cigarette and then we got to talking about music, parties and school...he then volunteers to buy me and my roomate shots! Yours truly actually got an attractive guy to voluntarily buy her shots...SCORE! That is one for the team, zero for you! Haha. I know...I sound like a big goofball, but just thinking about it all is so exciting, especially considering that guys his type usually don't even acknowledge my existence...how sad. But anyways, he unfortunately decides to part with me because his friends were waiting for him to go to another party, so we say our goodbyes and from there I decide that it's the perfect time for us to head out to a party of our own...the ZBT "circus" party!Haha. As we were walking over to the ZBT house, my roomate was saying that she really felt that that guy (his name was AJ, by the way) really liked me, and that when I briefly stepped away from our table to go use the bathroom, he kept asking for me and then took the seat next to mine, and she seriously thought that he was going to make some move on me...like a kiss, or something sweet like that *blush*. I was ALL smiles at that point, especially considering I was already quite liquored up. But anyways, we arrive at the ZBT house and are greeted by some friendly party goers that I have never seen over there before...but they were cool. From there, we go down to the basement, where some of my sisters (whom are also the boys "sweethearts") give me a wholehearted greeting...in the middle of a game of beer pong, of course.Haha. We stayed at the party for awhile. While there I pretty much just talked to people, listened to some music, laughed at the ridiculous behaviors of some of the brothers (what a sight they were) and smoked one cigarette. My favorite moment from last night's ZBT excursion was when one of the brothers just bursts in out of nowhere from a long night of drinking and celebrating in lieu of his 21st birthday, and is just barely coherent and quite comical looking, and then is finally taken upstairs to the restroom before he wets his pants...which is supposedly something that he does whenever he gets really really drunk...I just couldn't help but laugh at that moment altogether. We stay a little while after the "Brother's Circle" and then embark back to thee 'ole apartment. On our way back, my roomate told me that it had been one of the funnest times that she had ever had...that made me happy. As much as she gets on my nerves sometimes, I really do like when i'm able to do something for her that she can appreciate. I am also glad that she didn't have one of her attitude attacks at all last night. Can I get a HALLEJULIAH!?haha. Anyways, once we got back in the apartment, we stayed up, talked a little and then went to bed. I woke up pretty early this morning, checked my mail online...and then went back to bed. I woke up again at noon, brushed my teeth, got dressed and got something to eat. After that I picked up some cigs and then finished up my article review for the paper...and here I am now! Haha. right now i'm just fooling around and may attempt to study, until around 6:00 o'clock, when I have my first sorority meeting of the semester to go to. After that...not too sure of what i'll be doing...but anything's possible in my world. =)

Mood: Great.

Want of the day: For more fun and unimaginable things to happen!=)

Saturday, Jan. 17, 2009

Currently: Had a pretty decent time last night. First went to the Bar and had a pint of long island, and then to the club. The club was pretty packed last night. I had about five shots of a bunch of different drinks. I also danced a little and observed...what I do best!haha. The one real highlight of last night was getting to meet a guy named Christian (who was also our designated "coat watcher" for the night). He is so adorable and sweet...I just couldn't resist. So I told my friend Cara about how I felt and she insisted quite aggressively that I go talk to him immediately. I'm a pretty shy person (though not as shy as I used to be), and was a little hesitant to go speak to him at first, but once I realized how wasted he was, I proceeded. He's a pretty cool guy. He even remembered the fact that we were in a class together freshman year! Ha! He knows of my existence! SCORE! It was a good time. After awhile, Cara and I decided to head back to her place. I spent the night over there and woke up at around 10-ish this morning and headed on back to the apartment. As soon as I got there, I just had to go on facebook and do a little investigative report on my buddy Christian...well, turns out he is indeed in a relationship. FUCK! FUCKITY FUCK FUCK FUCK! So...yea, yet another good guy taken by some girl who's clearly luckier than me. Expected. But anyways, i'm at work right now and it's pretty creepy because no one's here but me and another work study. It's very eerie and quiet too. I almost don't know what to do with myself...and what sucks is i'll be here until 6:00. Once i'm done sitting all day in this lonely abyss of an office, i'm going straight back to the apartment. Much later on, I plan on going out to the Bars again...with my roomate (Bleh). I really didn't want to go with her, but she's all like "waaa, waaaaaaahh I wanna go to the Bar with you!" So I gave in so that she'd shut the fuck up. I know I sound like a big fat fucking bitch right now, but I have every reason to be! If you don't recall, towards the end of last year, whenever i'd take her out to a party, she would out of nowhere get really quiet and then give me attitudes if I ask her what's wrong...and this year I would really rather not go through that. And to add to that, let's not forget the attitude she gave me and my mother on the very first day that I arrived back on campus...and her little stupid juvenile "rule" to call her whenever I bring someone over...and the many times she has said shit to me just to make me feel stupid. If anything, I should have given her yet another excuse not to take her out with me, but for some reason I am giving in...i'm asking for it, aren't I? Anyways, we'll see.

Mood: Bleh...and bitter...a little.

Want of the day: To drink like a lush tonight...and thus get over my one night crush on Christian the right way. Haha.

Friday, Jan. 16, 2009

Currently: Jesus Christ, it is freezing like icy hell over here! I swear, my fingers are crying right now. Anyways, just came from my Research class. Thankfully, that is the only class I have today. After i'm done typing this up, i'm going to pick up my check and cash it, then most likely grab something to eat. After that, i'm going to work from 12:00 to 2:00 and then straight back to the apartment for my daily afternoon nap. After that i'm gettting back up, doing some homework and working on my article again. Last night for some strange reason, I spent an hour and a half straight reading about exploitation movies and B movies. For some reason now, I find them really interesting...so hmmmm, maybe I could continue with that little excursion tonight? Haha. But it's also friday night, meaning I should find something to do or somewhere to go. The Pikes are having a "Welcome Back" party tonight at 7:00, so I could maybe go to that? Of course, i'm also thinking of going to the ZBT house and the Bars as well...ahhhh, options, options.

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: To find something fun to do later on.

Thursday, Jan. 15, 2009

Currently: Bleh, i'm bored. Haha. Only had work and Neurorehab lecture today. Spent the rest of the day napping...and whateverelse. I know that my life sounds completely boring right now...and i'm not going to lie, it IS pretty damn boring right now, but i'm sure after next week I will be back to stressing out and complaining...you know, business as usual. Haha. But since this week is syllabus week, it'll be a little slow for me for awhile...not like i don't like it!haha. It's a good thing that i'm getting all the rest I need now before I start having mini-heart attacks again.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To maybe, just maybe...find something interesting to do?

Wednesday, Jan. 14, 2009

Currently: Had a pretty good day today. First had research class, which lasted two hours, then psych/soc. 2 lecture. After that, I went and got something to eat and went back for psych/soc. 2 lab. We did an interesting but kind of sad activity today. After that, I went straight back to the apartment and took a nap. And now here I am. For the remainder of this evening, i'm going to do some research on "Awards Season" for an article that i'm writing for the paper, and then watching The Real World: Brooklyn tonight at 10:00. As soon as the show is over, i'm brushing my teeth, showering and going to bed.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To continue being me.=)

Tuesday, Jan. 13, 2009

Currently: Bleh. I'm so tired. Woke up bright and early again this morning to go to work. Today at work, they had me doing paper routes (delivering papers to different printers that need them) and boy was that tiring. Luckily, I only worked for an hour today, so it wasn't that stressful. After that, I went straight to Neurorehab. It was a good first class. We didn't get that in depth into anything difficult, so I liked that. Right now i'm just hanging around the library until a quarter to, when I have to go back for Neurorehab lab. After that, i'm getting something to eat, making a front and back copy of my CPR card, and then heading straight back to the apartment. Once i'm back at the apartment I will most definitely take a nap. I'm so tired right now, it's not even funny. After that, i'm getting back up to do whateverelse until tonight at around 10:00 when I go back to sleep again.

Mood: Tired and Bleh.

Want of the day: For something interesting to happen in lab (i'm not getting into that now.haha.)

Monday, Jan. 12, 2009

Currently: Last night was okay. Got to go out to the Bar a little with Kristin. We each only had one drink and did a lot of girl talking, so it was eventful. I went to bed mighty late because of it, though. Haha. But today has been pretty good. Woke up bright and early this morning to go to my first class, which was Research. My teacher for that class is a ridiculously boring doofus...but i'll deal. After that, I had psych/soc. 2 in the same room. I think i'm going to like psych/soc. 2 a lot more than psych/soc. 1 cause in this class, we'll actually be getting into the different mental disorders and what treatments are proposed for people with those disorders...I can't wait!!! After that class, I went to the bookstore and purchased all of my books. I then went over to where I work to confirm my schedule for this semester...this time around, it is allover the place! I work tuesdays 8:00-9:00, thursdays 8:00-9:00, Fridays 12:00-2:00 and Saturdays 12:00-6:00, meaning i'll be working four days a week!!! Craziness. Anyways, after that, I went to the library to print off a few things, then got a bite to eat. After that, I came back to the apartment and took a nap...a long one. Haha. After i'm done typing this up, i'm going to start reading for my Research class. After that, I may go to the paper meeting...but not sure yet. I would much rather stay in for the rest of the night than go back out in the freezing cold and snow. *shrugs* We shall see. I'm outie.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To continue having a good day.

Sunday, Jan. 11, 2009

Currently: Back at school. I was so worn out from my 15 hour trip last night that I took a quick nap. After that, I ventured out to the bookstore to see if it was open...and lo and behold, it wasn't! Grrrrrrrrr! Which means that tommorrow in between classes I have to go back over there to purchase hopefully all of my books for this semester. I also have to meet with my new, "temporary" work supervisor to see if he can squeeze in two additional work hours for me so that I have 10 working hours per week. Fun stuff, heh? Blah. For now, i'm just going to hang out and try to relax, cause I know tommorrow's going to hit me like a tidal wave turning into a tsunami. I'm going to try and see if I can hang out with my sister Kristin tonight at the Bar, as well. Back to stress-mode! Hooray!...Not.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To get some good stress relief tonight.

Saturday, Jan. 10, 2009

Currently: So I will be leaving home in about an hour. Blah. I really don't feel like taking this little raod trip all the way to school in this crappy weather...but I have to do, what I have to do, so I guess that means I should shut my mouth and suck it up right about now. Didn't do much today, though. This morning I went to the smoke shop to pick up some cigs for tonight's adventure and then I put my car back in the driveway. I then took an hour nap. In a few, i'm about to get dressed, put a little bit of makeup on, and then finish up on packing...and i'm on my merry way. Is it me, or was this break ridiculously fast?...and boring? That really saddens me, as i'm not too sure how ready I really am to be stressed out everyday again.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To have a smooth trip back to school.

Thursday, Jan. 8, 2009

Currently: I had a horrible day yesterday. I did get to hang out and talk to those AST sisters from my local chapter, but it wasn't that eventful. *shrugs* Atleast I tried, right? Anyways, this week is winding down and i'll already be leaving on saturday, and still haven't done anything great. And it really doesn't help that i'm broke and can't go shopping.=( Bummer. And to add to that mess, I don't think my best friend is in much of a good mood, cause i've been trying to get a hold of her and she "...isn't accepting calls"...so, meh, I digress. Looks like i'll be just hanging around until I go back. Luckily for me though, sunday evening when I get back, me and my sister Kristin plan on having a little outing at the Bar, so at least I have that to look forward to before stress takes over my life again. I don't know, for some reason this year feels like it's going to be really slow and blah...we'll see.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To find something interesting to do.

Tuesday, Jan. 6, 2009

Currently: I have been waiting to hear from my friend about doing the Real World try-out video, but she hasn't gotten to me at all today. I guess maybe something came up...or maybe she just totally forgot about it. It's okay though, cause I wasn't really in the mood to do much of anything today. Tommorrow I will be out and about in the city anyway, so this isn't too much of a loss for me. So for the remainder of the day I have no idea as to what i'll be doing. I'm really really bored (expectedly) and it's mighty poopie out...I don't know what to do at all!!! AAAHHHH! Oh well.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To atleast find something to amuse myself.

Monday, Jan. 5, 2009

Currently: Chilling out and listening to "Are You In?" the Paul Oakenfold remix, by Incubus. Just when I thought that song couldn't get any better, I discover this version of it and now I think i'm hooked! Haha. Anyways, today has been a good day. Went shopping this afternoon and decided that instead of buying the usual converse shoes, opting for some fancy Sketchers strap-on shoes instead. They are so pretty! I can't wait to start wearing them. I also went to the Beauty store and got myself some more makeup since I'm practically out. And that has been it. Tommorrow, i'm heading out to my best friend's house so we can film a try-out video together for "The Real World." Haha. Evidently, we both feel like we actually have a chance of getting on the show...and the fact that we're huge fans of the show doesn't hurt much either. Haha. She thinks that I should try to win the producers over with my dysfunctional family life, clumsy driving skills and smoking habit. And she will try to win them over with...god knows what!Haha. But yea, i'm really looking forward to that tommorrow. I only have one entire week of break left and it's back to stress-mode again, so I might as well milk this week for all it's got.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: None.

Sunday, Jan. 4, 2009

Currently: I wasn't feeling well at all last night. I was really depressed for some reason and could barely eat and nearly cried myself to sleep. But i'm feeling slightly better today. It is sunny and nice out, so I had to go for a drive. I first went to put some gas in my car, then picked up some cigs at the smoke shop and got my eyebrows done. And now here I am. I'm feeling really tired now for some reason. Oh well.

Mood: Sort of Blah-ish.

Want of the day: To find something amusing to do.

Saturday, Jan. 3, 2009

Currently: I don't know why, but i'm feeling really depressed today...maybe it's because I haven't been out anywhere since the year began...but I don't know, I just feel empty and miserable on the inside. I'm not doing real physically fine, either. My body feels weak and kind of nauseous. I don't know anymore. I think i'm starting to forget how to make lemonade...and that's not a good thing at all. Way to start this year off, eh?

Mood: Sad.

Want of the day: For it to go away.

Friday, Jan. 2, 2009

Currently: Today has been...well, today. Pretty darn boring if you ask me. It is cloudy and gloomy-looking out and still pretty cold. I have been home all day. I actually just got up from one of my death naps. And that is it, really. I can't believe that I will already be leaving for school next weekend! I feel like I really didn't have a break at all. Sad. But anyways, that means my plans for next week consist of going shopping for clothes and some new converse shoes, making sure my car has enough gas in it, and getting some money for books somehow. I am also meeting up with some AST sisters from a chapter near where I live...i'm a bit excited about that. Hopefully it will be eventful. Anyways, i'm outie for now. There really isn't much more for me to talk about.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To find something interesting to do.

Thursday, Jan. 1, 2009

Currently: Happy New Years everybody!!! Yesterday was a lot of fun...I got to get out of my house, for once. First, my best friend and I got some drinks at the place that doesn't card and boy did I get drunk! Haha. I said the stupidest things because of that, too, but I don't really care cause it was damn fun. After that we just walked around the city and since it was so frigidly cold, decided to go hang out at her friend's nice, warm apartment. So we took the train over there, and it was pretty cool. We pretty much all just chilled throughout the night and then watched the ball drop at midnight. After that, we decided to go to bed...well, I did at least. My friend and her friend decided to stay awake to fool around with each other...it was interesting. They were literally on the bed right next to me getting it on, as I was fast asleep...I did hear a little something from their little exploit towards the beginning, but then dozed off and (thankfully) missed the rest. We woke up at around 10:00am this morning and took the train back over here and came to my house. We hung around some more and watched my "Step Brothers" DVD...she likes it as much as I do. haha. Anyways, after awhile my mother and father dearest started arguing so I decided to take her back to her house right there and then cause frankly I really wasn't in the mood for that shit, especially if I have a guest over. After I dropped her home, I pretty much have been chilling out ever since. I got an email from that Skyler guy (the same guy that said that I was boring and that he felt bad for me), asking me when I would like to come over and meet him at his place...does the asshole just not get it? I ignored him. So now i'm continuing to just chill out and try to start this new year on a positive note...see what happens.

Mood: A little Blah.

Want of the day: None.