Monday, Nov. 23, 2009

Currently: Ugh, what a night it has been. I'm trying to make up for all the slacking i've been doing recently and catch up on some homework like a good student, but it's wearing me out!haha I'm not going to lie though, i'm doing this mostly so that when I go home I won't have that much to worry about...and I just want this semester to end well for me, pretty much. I've just been thinking a lot about how my life will be after I graduate in May...and have come to the conclusion that it will be crazy and stressful as fuck and I may just suffer a heart attack.Haha But on a serious note, it's just insane that i'll be entering the real world very soon. I feel that my social skills have improved considerably, but still don't feel like i'm ready to take THAT step yet. Afterall, I am the most immature person I know.Haha With all my married and engaged friends, it's like i'm still in the childhood stage of life when everyone has grown up well and successfully...or maybe i'm just exaggerating. Who knows? Anyways, I should stop stalling now and continue on with this long night of work ahead of me. Tommorrow after i'm done with all my classes, I will be packing, getting myself together, then will be on a Greyhound bus for damn near 15 hours! Love it. NOT! I'll be home for part of wednesday, all of thursday, all of friday and part of saturday...then i'll be back here by Sunday afternoon. Sounds like a pretty crappy and pointless thanksgiving, right? Well, I see it as at least i'll get to eat some good food for at least a few days...MINOR SUCCESS!Haha. Yea, it's too late for this shit.

Sunday, Nov. 22, 2009

Currently: So this weekend wasn't bad. Thursday night was a lot of fun. Quite a few people showed up on my behalf and that made me happy...there were even a few random people whom I didn't even know that well who ended up joining in on my little celebration!Haha Though I knew they were only there cause they knew some of my guests, it was still nice. Friday night, though I was still tired from the previous night, I still stepped out for a little bit. That night started out a little slow for me, as I was kind of sluggish, but it then picked up once we got to the club and I did my fair share of dancing.Haha It was nice. And last night I was just so tired that I didn't even try to get in touch with anyone to go out.Haha So I just watched a couple of movies and went to bed. Today was quite busy. I spent practically the entire day with my Thesis group putting our proposal together. After that, I went to my sorority business meeting, which took three and a half hours, as we were voting on new positions tonight. I opted out of running for any new positions cause I really don't care about being too active within the sorority anymore and I will most likely be going on professional status next semester anyway. So that's that. Right now i'm pretty tired and don't feel like doing much of anything. I'm just exhausted physically and mentally. I think that at this point i'd rather just sleep all day...but in my world that is impossible. I'm going to try to get to bed as soon as i'm done typing this, but I don't know how possible that would be, as I have so much lurking in my mind and am thinking that I should use the remainder of this night to at least try to get some work done so that I don't have too much shit to do over Thanksgiving break...ugh! I don't know.
P.S. I have a new "man" in my life.lol He is actor Victor Rasuk, and he's so adorable to me. He's been in the movies "Stop Loss" (which is how I discovered him), "Lords of Z Town," and "Raising Victor Vargas." I've actually been watching clips of "Raising Victor Vargas" on You Tube and think he was just insatiable in it...*sigh* What I also like about him is that he seems like a very cool, non-stuck up kind of guy...unlike other celeb men i've crushed on. For example, I used to have a big crush on Brandon Boyd, only to find out that he practically only dates supermodels...so that was a no for me. I then had a crush on Jay Hernandez, but then saw his thin blonde wife and had to decline on him as well. Victor, in the meanwhile, has dated actress Melonie Diaz, who's just another plain-looking, average girl, which goes to show that he isn't very superficial at all. Also, crazy as this sounds, I like to think that if I have a crush on anyone famous, that I would at least have a little bit of a chance with them in real life...even if I know that I will never meet them. It makes it easier to fantasize about being with them...you know?...and strangely enough, I have been fantasizing about actually meeting Victor in real life and us hitting it off quite well. Wow, this "P.S." really turned into a rant...which I guess goes to show how much I love my Victor right now.=)

Thursday, Nov. 19, 2009

Currently: Getting ready to go out tonight!!! So excited! In a few, i'm going to pick up my laundry, brush my teeth, get dressed and go to my friend's house so she can do my hair, and after that...the night is mine!!! I hope that some of my friends show up so that I have a good crowd. I know some of the girls that originally planned on attending ended up not being able to tonight because of the release of the new Twilight movie...LAME! So I hope that doesn't mean that it'll be only me, Shannon, Jessie and Jenn at the gahtering.Haha Wouldn't be surprised, though. But hey, that's definitely NOT going to ruin my night! I'm ready to get beyond dysfunctional.=) Haha.

Wednesday, Nov. 18, 2009

Currently: I am 22 years of age as of today...HOLY FUCK!!!!! I texted Jesse last night, cause something told me to, for some reason, and...he actually saved my number this time!haha We chatted for a little bit. He mentioned something about going to a concert last night and I told him that i'll be home for Thanksgiving break next week sometime and if he'd like to hang out...and he didn't really comment on that, but we shall see. I AM making progress with him aterall...at least I feel that way.Haha Anyways, today was a busy day and tommorrow will be a semi-busy one too, but not as bad as today, and even better yet...I am going ALL OUT tommorrow night!haha I really look forward to that. For now, i'm just going to do some schoolwork, watch some Real World later on and start anew tommorrow.

Tuesday, Nov. 17, 2009

Currently: My birthday's tommorrow!!!! I just wish I wasn't having such a busy day tommorrow. Today alone I just had lab and have Pediatrics lecture after this, and then I have to meet with my Thesis group, then meet with my Community interventions group, then register for one more class (Clinical Reasoning, which my douchebag piece of shit Advisor didn't even tell me that I needed for next semester), and then type up my work station evaluation report for my Physical Disabilities class, oh and let me not neglect to mention that I also have to study tonight for my Ethics test tommorrow. Then tommorrow I have the Ethics test, have to meet up with my Communities group again to interview our project representative, have to stop by my work office to organize my work schedule for next semester and then go view a guest speaker for my Pediatrics class at 4...all of this crap before and on my birthday. Splendid. That's one thing I hate about being born on November. My birthday always falls at such inconvenient times. Thursday evening should be a blast though.Haha We shall see. I can't believe Thanksgiving is almost here. I really don't want to go back home, but if I don't then my mother will have a fucking heart attack. Woe is me.

Sunday, Nov. 15, 2009

Currently: Last week sucked ass and this weekend was no better...and right now the only thing that's making me feel better is listening to "I can't help it" by Michael Jackson. Thank you, Michael. Tonight i'll more than likely be hitting the sheets early.

Thursday, Nov. 12, 2009

Currently: So not only am I not doing so well academically, but i'm also running out of meals on my meal plan and am broke as it is...meaning that in the upcoming weeks up until holiday break I will be excessively lacking in the two things I love the most...food and drink. Once again, my stupidity has ruined my life. Fuck my life, hardcore right now.

Wednesday, Nov. 11, 2009

Currently: Monday night was crazy. Because it was Advising Day eve and there were no classes for us the following day, nearly everyone decided to use that as an excuse to go out and get crazy...myself included, of course. I met up with some friends at a Bar. I wasn't even nearly drunk yet, but everyone around me was, which made things quite interesting. For one, people that I knew who were usually civil with me when sober were all of a sudden extremely happy to see me and would do things like kiss my cheeks and my hands even excessively. I found that pretty hilarious. Of course, after awhile I started getting kind of inappropriate as well. There was one guy in particular who I am aquaintances with whom I felt the need to jump on as soon as I saw him. For some reason, I was EXTREMELY happy to see him.Haha So once I jump on him, he picks me up and accidentally hits my head on a wall, then kisses nearly my entire face and part of my mouth and bites my ear...he then tells ME to "behave."haha Wow. Later on that night, I also end up giving one of my sorority sisters a lap dance...yea, I was pretty happy at this point. But what was even more shocking about that is that after I give her a lap dance she asks me to then give her BOYFRIEND one too...I didn't even know what to think or how to react to that, so I just kind of look at her and point at him and go "him? you sure?" and she insists, so I gave him one too.Haha He really enjoyed it...and I mean REALLY enjoyed it. It was quite awkward. Once I was done with him, he was like "thank you SO MUCH for that," and gives me a hug. I really wouldn't be surprised if those two were swingers. But that was something. Once all the festivities of the night were over, I headed back to my apartment. Unfortunately, as soon as I got back to the apartment, I started having these palpitations that just wouldn't go away, so I ended up calling 911 and admitting myself to the hospital. The guys who picked my up were real nice and said that I didn't waste their time at all...which I kind of felt like I was doing. Once at the hosiptal, they ran a few tests on me, took my blood, and of course they found nothing wrong with me. I got no sleep that night and yet had to go to my Advising at 10 am. It sucked. And what made it worse was once I did go to advising and I was trying to get my schedule for next semester together at my Advisor's office, he kept talking to himself out loud and literally repeated everything that he was typing on the computer...he even repeated whenever he'd push the Tab button. You have no idea how annoyed I was and how rude I found that to be. I quickly filled out my schedule and had him sign off and left. After that I met up with my Thesis group, but not for long as I was extremely tired from not getting any sleep the night before. I got something to eat and then took a nice nap. Later on that night, I skimmed through one of my Thesis articles and went to bed earlier than usual, cause I was still pretty tired. Which brings me to today. I am still extremely tired and could barely keep my eyes open during my Physical disabilities lecture. And to make matters worse, I failed my last Physical Disabilities test which we all got back today. Fuck...my...life. I really don't know what I did wrong, but nevertheless, i'm going to start studying for our next test, which I think is our Final, tonight. I just cannot afford to fail a class as important as that and have to take it over. And that is all for now, my friends. I just wish I felt better. Oh well.

Monday, Nov. 9, 2009

Currently: This weekend wasn't too bad. Friday night I met up with my friend Shannon and her friends. We went to a Bar and then to the club. We did a little bit of dancing then went home. Last night I met up with Jenn and we first stopped at McDonalds since I was hungry from not eating a thing all day. There, Shannon and Jenn's friend Allison meet up with us. After McDonalds we went to the club. For some reason, I wasn't really up for dancing a lot, so for most of the night I hung out and talked to Shannon. But I did get a little bit of dancing and butt grabbing in before the night ended. Haha Jenn left the club before Shannon and I. After the club, we went back to Shannon's place since I didn't feel like going back home. We just talked for a little and I had some Beer, and before I knew it, Shannon was out. So I stayed up for a little bit and then finally decided to go to sleep. But before I could really go to sleep, I had to make a quick trip to the bathroom to throw up a little bit, but once that was done and over with, I felt much better and was able to drift right to sleep. Today was the usual Sunday for me and tommorrow's a new day. On the bright side, my Physical Disabilities class has been cancelled, so I don't have to be up at 8am! 'Gotta love days like those.

Sunday, Nov. 1, 2009

Currently: I had a blast this weekend. Friday night myself and some friends of mine went to the Bar and then the club. That night I was dressed as the Devil. Then Saturday night we first went to a very awkward house party we weren't even invited to (oops) and where some random guy felt the need to poke me every time I passed by him. After that we went to a Bar nearby, met up with some guys there and then went to two clubs. The clubs were PACKED last night! It was literally people on top of people. Crazy. I had a great time though. I went as a Princess/awkward Homecoming Queen (whichever, haha) that time. To sum it up, I did a lot of inappropriate touching of my friends (oops again), flirted with a random basketball player at my school whom I semi-know (lol) and had a lot of, and I quote "I wanna fuck her" stares my way. Every Halloween should be like this.lol But it is now the first of November and back to reality time. My birthday's coming up in a few weeks...yikes. But I do hope that that will be a good time for me as well. To update on that random "party" I threw for myself haha, right now I have 7 planned guests and 6 maybes, so it's looking pretty good.