Friday, Dec. 31, 2010: P.S.

P.S. Have any of you out in blog world ever had to pee really bad, but held it in just to feel drunk/buzzed? That's me right now. Damn champagne didn't even give me a buzz! But hey, at least the holding in is working it's magic, finally!

Friday, Dec. 31, 2010- The 'What Grinds my gears about New Years Eve' Edition

Currently: So what grinds my gears with New Years eve? It's not so much the drinking and the ball drop (those are actually the best parts), but AFTER the damn ball drops! For one, you have all these annoying fricking couples kissing on eachother, thus showing off the fact that they have 'someone' to start the New Year with. And then you have me, who looks over and sees no one but my mother and brother (though I love you guys!). Seriously. Every year. That is what I get. And then ON TOP of that, you have that really depressing (in my opinion) "Ole lang sine" (excuse my spelling) song playing, reminding me even more of how craptastic each passing year was...and that more 'crap' is to come...lovely! But eventhough I am left feeling this way every New Years Eve, I watch the Ball drop anyway...just because I don't feel right missing out on the 'ole tradition...unless i'm out actually DOING something. Anyways, so that's it with my rant. While we are on this topic, I have also determined what my New Years resolution will be: I will quit giving into impulses. I have already gone about a month and a half without smoking (minus when I drink), so this is a realistic resolution. Amongst these 'impulses,' includes going on facebook ONCE a week instead of every frickin day...and I have assigned friday as 'facebook day.' I have also vowed to not eat unless I am GENUINELY hungry! I have lost 15 pounds in the past couple of months, but I don't feel like I'm losing weight as quickly and fluidly as I want to, so maybe this will help. I want to look the way I did in 8th grade again, damnit! And that is all. Happy New Years everyone!

Wednesday, Dec. 29, 2010

Currently: Christmas this year was a lot of fun...it was actually one of the best christmases I have had in a long time (eventhough as of late I haven't been 'officially' celebrating christmas). For one, father dearest was in a lot of pain throughout the day, making it difficult for him to ruin christmas with his annoying and completely pointless rants. And I enjoyed a nice bottle of Red Wine and watched some Haitian music videos (random, I know) all night with my brother. It was silly, but nice for a change. It seems like a lot of people I know also had a great christmas this year, so I guess this means 2010 was the year for christmas!...though the year itself was a very craptastic one for myself. Anyways, all this week I have been planning out the next 8 months...and even beyond that point. Amongst that, I made a list of groceries and items I will need for my apartment after I move in in a week and a half. And then today I mailed out my tuition payment, eventhough there are mountains of snow outside.Haha I mean business, damnit! But next week is going to be REALLY busy. Monday I have to go to the bank, tuesday i'm going to do a little bit of shopping, wednesday i'm going to start packing, and I will be off to PA by friday evening! How time flies. But hopefully, that means that those 8 months will fly by. And while we're on that topic, I don't think I want to walk in the Master's Degree ceremony anymore. It's bad enough that throughout the semester i'm going to be feeling like I don't even belong around the "entry-level practitioners," in my class. I mean, i'm only a "half-way entry-level practitioner" for chrissakes! That and I know for a fact that sitting in the crowd with that cap and gown on would REALLY give me a bittersweet feeling in the pits of my stomach. So I am passing on that, definitely. As long as I receive my Master's degree in the mail in August/September, i'm satisfied.

Thursday, Dec. 23, 2010

Currently: So I was able to communicate with my fieldwork coordinator yesterday. In a nutshell, I asked him about which locations he has been looking at and considering for my next (and LAST!) fieldwork II rotation. He told me that he has been looking at numerous Nursing rehabilitation centers so that I get to redeem myself with the Nursing Home setting. It is not a bad idea, if you ask me. In this case, I DEFINITELY know what i'm going into and already know enough Rehabilitation lingo to get me through the rotation smoothly. So pretty much, if I were to fail this upcoming rotation then i'd be a complete dumass and would know for sure to call it a day with the oh so splendid profession of occupational therapy. But what's also good with this upcoming rotation is that i'll be able to sit for the boards immediately after it ends, since the material will be fresh in my memory. It should workout well. I even decided to review that gym equipment assignment that they made me do at my first affiliation because I know that since I will most likely be at a location similar to that one, re-aquainting myself with that material will be VERY helpful. Anyways, today I went shopping which made me realize how much of a plaid fiend I really am! I mean, half of the items that I purchased today were plaid items.Haha I am currently drinking some white wine and just hanging out. I plan to do this up until around 11 o'clock, and then I'm going to watch the Mo'nique show, Conan O'Brien, and call it a night. Nighty night, sweetie pies!

Monday, Dec. 20, 2010

Currently: Once I embarked to the Hair Salon Saturday afternoon and saw that full head highlights would cost me $80, I decided to get a wash and set and trim and call it a day. So no, my hair is not currently a gingerly mixture of dark and light brown. But I am saving up my dollars, and am sure that in two weeks i'll be able to get them done. But anyways, saturday night was alright. I went to my mother's office christmas party and acted a semi-drunken fool in front of her co-workers...don't worry, it wasn't that bad! Besides, some of them were quite wasted themselves. One of them actually ended up puking the night away in the bathroom. After the party, my uncle and I went to this club frequented by a lot of Central and South American hispanic people. The music was really good, but after awhile of being there, I got really tired and even started falling asleep. So I went home and that was that. Sunday was a big blur...I don't think I did a thing yesterday, to be honest. And then today...I could say I was semi-productive. I mostly did a lot of planning for the next 8 months of my life. I called up my landlord in PA to touch base, organized in my head what every little cent of my loan money is going towards, decided that watching old school cartoons and random crass comedy on You Tube to pass time during those 8 months (since I will have no tv) is a good idea, communicated with one of my classmates, decided that I should give my fieldwork coordinator a call on wednesday (since I haven't heard from the bastard), and am currently charging my laptop (since it has been sitting in my room unused for 7 months). So all in all, not bad for a monday.Haha Later on this week i'm doing a little bit of shopping...most likely going to Claire's (or Icing by Claire's, whichever!) at the mall and pick up some new acessories I will be needing, as well as some scarves...which I will DEFINITELY be needing as where I go to school is colder than Alaska! And I guess that shall be it for this week. I'm glad that i'm being productive for once. This should definitely continue until I embark back to PA...but not to worry, I will squeeze in some me time in between.

Saturday, Dec. 18, 2010

Currently: I passed my Pediatric Fieldwork II rotation yesterday...and now that I have, I don't feel as bad about school and about my "situation" as before, so that's a good thing. So right now all I have to worry about is one more semester of classes and one more fieldwork, and i'm done for good! *sigh* I went out for a little bit last night. While there, I reunited with Carlton guy (aka "Ron"). I didn't mind talking to him and all, but got really annoyed when he wouldn't stop following me! At one point, I got so annoyed that I lied and told him that I was just coming off of a very long-term relationship and still have strong feelings for the guy (I actually used Jon, my senior year crush as the "boyfriend," haha), and even that didn't work! As a matter of fact, I try to leave the club quietly without him noticing, but he does so anyway, and proceeds to leave as well and follow me outside! My uncle was with me and everything, and he STILL pulled that! I could not believe it. Thankfully, he hasn't called me today. ugh. Anyways, about to go take a shower and get ready and go to the Salon to get highlights put in my hair. Afterwards, i'm coming back home, hanging around for a bit, then getting dressed for the office christmas party tonight. Hopefully it will be a good time.

Wednesday, Dec. 15, 2010

Currently: My last day of pediatric fieldwork is 2 days away...it feels so close, yet so far away! Boy, friday's going to be so bittersweet! I mean, i'll be celebrating completion of a fieldwork for the first time, but at the same time i'll be thinking about how, unlike everyonelse in my class, I won't be able to completely exhale and kick back and celebrate my accomplishments. It is so frustrating and upsetting. I used to wake up at 4:30 in the fucking morning for my first rotation everyday, and from the time I stepped foot in that building to the time I walked out, I was on my feet. I didn't even have a complete lunch break at that place. YET I was completely screwed over and now have to do EXTRA work, instead of being able to celebrate my commitments and hard work. What the fuck? Everytime I think about this, it's even harder for me to celebrate being done with this fieldwork. It's like I had started all over again, when I think about it. And the end of this fieldwork is more like a stale accomplishment not even worth really celebrating. *sigh* And to be honest, i'm nervous altogether about friday because I never know what bullshit those occupational therapists will throw at me...though my supervisor has been great to me throughout my time there...but still, I don't know. I heard through the grapevine that the department is actually throwing me and the other student that has been there a pizza party on friday...well, at least i'll have that to look forward to!Haha Friday night I am most likely going out for a semi-celebration, and then on saturday I will be highlighting my hair and attending my mother's office christmas party...so the weekend should be good. Friday will still be bittersweet, though.

Saturday, Dec. 11, 2010

Currently: Last night I had a really good time. I went out to this club along with my uncle (of course) called 'Savannah,' and it was nice. I had gone there previously a week ago, but for some reason, last night's dynamic was more fun than the last time I went. For one, I danced the night away with a guy who is a DEAD RINGER for Carlton Banks from the popular 90's show "Fresh Prince of Bel Aire." It was so funny! I actually danced with him solely because he looked so much like Carlton, who happens to be one of my favorite childhood tv characters. The guy also couldn't help but remark that I bear resemblance to Rudy Huxtable from "The Cosby Show," so it was kind of like a Rudy/Carlton childhood stars reunion.Haha At one point we even went outside (as I had no coat on eventhough it was FREEZING out last night)and I whipped out my camera and made him do the 'Carlton dance'!Haha And of course, during all of this, another guy who was smoking within our vicinity starts commenting on me putting Carlton guy on You Tube and I turn around, focus my camera on him and say "Do you want me to put YOU on You Tube???" It was so great. I couldn't help but watch that video numerous times today and just reminisce on what an amusing drunk I am. At one point in the video, you could even hear me tell the other guy (not Carlton) "I can cook some for you." When I heard that for the first time, the laughs came out full force...I don't even remember making that comment!Haha And what's worse...the other guy had a girlfriend! Oh boy. But yea, that was last night. Carlton guy actually wanted me to have breakfast with him this morning...but as I said before, I only danced with him because he looked like Carlton, so going out on more dates with him would be pretty pointless. That, AND he had admitted to me that he is around the actor who played Carlton's age...and I have already vowed myself away from anymore 38 year olds, so thanks, but no thanks. Today has been a lazy day for myself. I was going to step out to buy some thank you cards for the people I have worked with at the school, and some cheesecake for my supervisor, but I just didn't feel like it. I actually tried to take a short two-hour nap, but before I knew it, it was already nearing dark outside! What...the...hell? It's crazy to think that these days, there's literally no time to do anything! So I will run those errands tommorrow. For now, I'm just waiting on some roasted potatoes that I had prepared to be ready, but in the meanwhile I am going to work on my Student Summary report for Fieldwork. I can't believe that this coming week will be my last week for fieldwork! I'm not going to lie, though. I'm kind of happy that it is, solely because I know that I still have another fucking one to get over with. Needless to say, it looks like i'm going to be wishing all of 2011 away...and that's really kind of sad, because I would like to enjoy every year that comes by the best that I can. And what really sucks is, i'll be wasting yet another summer completing a fieldwork...2011 will be shitty altogether. Wow. I can't believe how this entry started out really happy and is now dark and miserable. That's what thinking about school does to me, folks! On the brightside, after this coming week, i'll have three whole weeks to relax and get myself together until that stressful shit of a year begins. Countdown to August, 2011 begins...NOW!

Thursday, Dec. 9, 2010

Currently: It has now been almost 2 weeks since I smoked my last cigarette...wow. Anyways, I have just decided that in lieu of me actually passing a fieldwork for the first time ever at the end of next week...i'm going to go get light brown highlights put in my hair.Haha I remember when I did that in High School some people thought that I had dyed my hair blonde! Lmao. But I also remember that it was quite fun and made me feel like a new person...so i'm going to go do it again! So for now I am just hanging around at home and then going to my unpaid job. Thursdays are usually my busy days over there, so lets hope that it goes by fast. As previously mentioned, I love and enjoy working with my students...but I think it's about damn time that I actually got PAID! lol

Thursday, Dec. 2, 2010

Currently: It is already December 2nd...scary. Anyways, I haven't smoked in 5 days...because I cannot afford cigarettes, pretty much. And what sucks is, I feel like right now with all that's going on, that's the one thing I need the most. Oh well, there's always the sweet nectar. I'm actually thinking of getting a bottle tommorrow...and most likely will. You know, I think i'd rather have more money in my pockets than *that much* less angst. And that is where I stand right now. Anyways, off to work in a few. I'll update another time about the art (it truly is) of fieldworks...mine is still going pretty well, though. After this week, I only have two more weeks at the school! Crazy.