Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Currently: Besides finishing off my last semester EVER of having to take classes, nothing else has been going on. The other day I rented 'Takers' just because I just HAD to see that movie again, especially with Jay Hernandez's muscles and Paul Walker's butt both making special appearances. ; ) I watched that last night and returned the movie this afternoon...and then rented another movie, 'Precious,' which i'll be watching tommorrow night. Oh, and I also was able to speak to my fieldwork supervisor for the summer. Turns out she's some 24 year old who graduated from my school two years ago...so she probably knows who I am. I'm not underestimating the girl or anything, but knowing that DEFINITELY eases some of my tension a bit. She also told me that I could wear scrubs if I want...and I think i'm going to do that. Just because I like not having to think about what I have to wear every single day...and I think scrubs are kind of cool. : ) Go ahead, call me a dork. I don't give a fuck. Anyways, besides all of that there's really nothing else for me to look forward to as graduation approaches. Well actually...my friend Sam and some other sorority sisters want really bad for me to come to Formal...and I don't really know about that. A part of me wants to go just so that I can drink all night at the venue AND at the Bar (since Sam's turning 21 that same night), but I also have to think about whether or not i'll be able to afford tickets on top of drinks. That, plus the fact that I don't even really have a dress to wear for it...I do have a dress I wore a year ago to one of my sorority sister's weddings...but it's not exactly 'formal' material. Anyways, I digress. See what happens, I guess. Jenn is also talking about *possibly* making her (supposedly hot) younger brother be my formal date. I REALLY doubt that's going to happen, but if he does happen to say yes, i'm down for the party! ; )

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Currently: This past weekend was by far my favorite so far of this entire self-improving year. I pretty much went from a girl with bitchy/sassy tendencies, to a CERTIFIED bitch/sassy girl. Let me get to it...so first on thursday night, which was St. Patrick's day, I didn't go to any parties or Bars but I did hang out for quite a few hours with one of my few sorority friends at her apartment. Her little was also there with her boyfriend. At first we sat around and had some Beers all the while watching one of those "American Pie" movies. But after awhile, as expected, our conversations got more and more raunchy...and next thing I know my friend Sam sends me a picture of her little's boyfriend's one-eyed monster. So from there we start talking about strap-ons and Sam whips out hers that her ex-boyfriend gave her (WHY he would do that, I REALLY would rather not know!). So I take it out and start playing with it...then I put it on. I notice that TJ (that would be Sam's little's boyfriend) is in the corner doubled over in laughter. So just to make things EVEN MORE awkward for the Lad, I go over and start teasing him with the strap on...I then get on top of him and pounce all the while rubbing the penis on his face. At this point Sam and her little (her name's Kayleigh, by the way) take pictures of the entire thing. I then quietly sit down and play with Sam's cat to compensate.haha. After awhile we decide to go for a little walk. At this point my feet start killing me and it is then that I decide (especially since they were about to head out to a frat party and I am too old for that junk) to go home. The next day, friday that is, Jenn arrives from out of town. Since that same night was initiation night, I was invited to a dinner our tree was having in honor of our new addition, a girl named Bethany. Oh so coincidentally, both Sam AND Jenn are in my tree (they are actually big and little)so I was able to meet up with them again. I actually go to Sam's place first and from there she drives myself and other girls from our tree over to Applebee's where we meet up with Jenn. For some reason at that point I was just an angry drunk (I had started drinking before I headed out to Sam's). For one, I was cussing like a sailor in front of a family that was sitting by us who had a couple of children. I would also say smarky things like "boring!" and "boooo!" whenever someone would mention another sorority sister whom I wasn't fond of. It was actually quite funny. After awhile though I get more pleasant. From there we go back to Sam's where our tree participates in a little game called "never have I ever" (which is like a ritual for our tree after every initiation). It went pretty well over all, but the only parts I remember were when Sam confessed to having her clitoris pierced and playing with her cat a lot (I love that little guy). So after that Jenn and I venture out to the Bar to meet up with other "older" sisters. Since half of those were girls I didn't even like, I said my hi's and went dancing. Afterwards Jenn tells me that Steve (her "guy" whom I had a little bit of a crush on and whose lap I spent quality time on last time Jenn visited)was meeting up with us. Naturally, I didn't want him coming back to hang out with us not only because I have some feelings for him and may lose control again, but also because I just don't like the way he treats her in general and think that he plays a lot of mind games. But of course she does not listen to me and has him over at my place anyway. And that is where the controversy of the weekend begins. For one, I let him know once again that I am not happy with him and don't feel like he's a real straight forward person. To ease the tension between he and I a bit, Jenn decides that it would be a good idea to play "Truth or Dare" and "Spin the bottle" (which was actually my idea, but we'll get to that part later). Amongst the "dares" included Steve pulling his pants down and exposing his ass cheeks in front of my door, me kissing Steve's pant leg (which was a whack dare, not going to lie), and Jenn rubbing her genitals (with pants still on) on Steve's face...of course I came up with all the fun dares. So after awhile, we switch from that to "spin the bottle." I'm a little weary about kissing both Jenn and Steve, so at first whenever I get any one of them I kind of just kiss them lightly on the cheek...and then lightly on the mouth...and the next thing you know, i'm having legit makeout sessions with both of them. Jenn later goes on to say that it looked as if I was REALLY enjoying my makeout sessions with Steve, which...er...I kinda was. But the loving doesn't last very long, cause next thing you know we're playing "Truth or Dare" again and Jenn starts asking Steve questions about how he feels about her and where he feels their relationship is headed. Now, for some reason (most likely the alcohol in my system) I really don't remember how I get from sitting on the floor in between Jenn and Steve to sitting on my couch next to Steve, but that is where I end up and at this point I am increasingly frustrated with him. I also forget what is it Jenn says that sparks this anger within me, but she says something to Steve and next thing I know I just slap him as hard as I can square across his face. The look of shock on his face was priceless. And oddly enough he remains next to me on the couch. Afterwards Jenn mentions something about him being more into blondes and once again the anger within me comes back and at this point I tell him "Then what are you doing here? Neither I nor Jenn are blonde. If you think you are too good for us, then get the fuck out!"Haha So he gets up all sad like and is like "If she wants me to leave i'll just go then" and starts putting his coat and shoes on. And of course Jenn's all like "oh no, please don't leave, she was only kidding..." So he sits down and I sit on his lap (and ONLY I would sit on a guy's lap after slapping and yelling at him) and I forget where the conversation between the three of us go from there, but next thing I know Steve gets up and leaves and Jenn follows him. She then comes back inside, tells me about the conversation that they had...which I don't even remember, and we both go to bed. That was all friday night. Saturday morning I then get up early and go to lab (yes I have lab on saturdays, bleh)and then after lab I go to the library for a couple of hours to do some Thesis work. Afterwards I come back to the apartment and make some lunch for myself (since Jenn had already eaten lunch with her Big), all the while watching "Stop Loss." After I eat we decide to go out for a wine run. We each get one bottle, come back to my apartment and put on "Crazy/Beautiful" as I drink some of my leftover Nikolai vodka. Throughout Saturday (most likely because of Steve) Jenn was real somber and didn't really have much to say...and whenever she did talk it was about him. No offense but it was actually kind of pitiful how she let a stupid ass man ruin her weekend the way she did. But I digress. He surely didn't ruin MY weekend. So once the movie's over we head out to a house party thrown by one of the Pike brothers to meet up with Jenn's other little Marlena. Since that party(expectedly) turned out to be lame, Jenn and I decided to go to the Bar. While there we dance a little and Jenn seems to be lightening up a little more. I then go out for a smoke break. Since I haven't been buying cigarettes of my own lately, I bummed one off of a guy named Nick. From there he and I start to tease each other a bit and I purposely make bitchy comments to him (just because I hate men, although I appreciate when they give me cigarettes). I also blow smoke in his face a couple times.Haha But it was all in good fun. At one point he picks me up and tries to take me away to some other party he was going to...and of course I fight him off. He then goes on to remark how much he loves and enjoys my "fiesty" attitude. I don't take him seriously at first until his friend takes me to the side and says that he genuinely likes and is attracted to me and is not trying to play any games...and for some reason at that point I start to believe him. So he and I kiss...and let me tell you, he was an AMAZING kisser! Even better than Jenn and Steve combined (though both were pretty decent). And of course I get him to buy me and Jenn some shots. After awhile Jenn grows tired of his friend trying to hit on her and suggests that we leave. So I say goodbye to Nick, get his number, and we go on our merry way. We have a little bit of a heart to heart reguarding Steve and men in general while in her car. And of course at this point she gets somber again. We grab something to eat, hang out and talk for a bit, then go to bed. The next morning I skip out early again to meet with my Thesis group. Before I leave I say my goodbyes to Jenn, give her a hug and a "thank you" and blah, blah, blah...and off I went. All day that day I was SO ridiculously sluggish. At one point, myself and some of my thesis group members decide to step out to walk our professor's dog (since she had left one of the girls responsible for dog sitting for the weekend) and I couldn't even do THAT, and just decided to stay in the car to have a little bit of shut eye. It was bad. But at least I got some work done for our group. I was even able to provide some feedback whenever Megan (one of the girls) had a question. I finally got back home at around 7:30 pm. And that was this past weekend. Hey, I consider it a sucess because a) I treated two men like shit, b) I made out with three people in one weekend, which is a first for me, and c) I finally proved to myself that I CAN put my foot down and stand up for the things that I believe in. So all in all, mission: Girl Power ACCOMPLISHED! : D

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Currently: I picked up my cap and gown yesterday...wow. Today is also St. Patrick's Day and even if no one calls me to hang out, I still plan on getting (at least some of) my drink on anyway. That and my friend Jenn is coming over tommorrow and we plan to have a hell of a weekend! So needless to say I am feeling quite good right now. : )

Friday, March 11, 2011

Currently: Why is it that on the day I have to walk long distances to cash some BIG checks that it fucking snows like hell outside??? Fuck my life.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Currently: Just when I thought I could go a couple more months (or an ENTIRE YEAR, even!) without being depressed...lo and behold, I am depressed today. Fuck you, life. I really would like to drink right now but don't want to waste alcohol, so i'm going to contain myself until tommorrow evening.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Currently: Spring Break is coming to an end in these parts...and it's just another boring Saturday night for me. For one I ran out of wine last night so that left me with no choice but to spend the first saturday night in awhile sober.Haha But it hasn't been that bad. I just got done watching some old episodes of MTV's Road Rules (remember that show???) and for some reason tonight I am really thirsty so i've been drinking water like a fiend. And yup those things have been the highlight of my night. Whatever. It's better than nothing. I can't help but think though (since i've been reviewing my daily planner to make sure i'm up to date with everything) that the next couple of months really ARE going to fly by. I mean this coming week alone I have an in class discussion/presentation plus a meeting with a local legislator. And then I have a couple more in class presentations plus the University presentation (that is, if my Abstract gets accepted), and then I have my big THESIS presentation and a "Lunch with the Scholars" ditty and then Easter Break, and then one more pointless in class presentation...and then I start Fieldwork and walk in the graduation ceremony that same week. WOW! I mean don't get me wrong this does make me happy, but a little nervous at the same time. Once May comes along I am in The Real World and after July I am REALLY in the Real World. Scary. But anyways I have also been thinking a lot about the types of vacations I would like to take once I actually start making money. I know my first trip will DEFINITELY be to Lodi, California to see my friend. I hate to admit it but I decided to take that trip mostly cause i've always wanted to see the West Coast (but especially Cali) and this is just a great opportunity to get me there. I was also thinking after the Cali trip to maybe then take a vacation in Miami, another place i've always wanted to see and party at. And then after Miami maybe i'd try Punta Cana, Dominican Republic. One of my cousins just got married there and based on the pictures she took alone I could tell that it is a VERY nice place...but I shall see. Anyways for now I think i'm going to call it a night soon. I notice that one of the things i've really started enjoying (which is another Bonus of living by myself) is sleeping in the nude. Whoever's reading this should really try it! You feel so free and liberated. I also like to do it sometimes when I don't shower for the day to avoid feeling dirty, gross and sticky in my clothes.Haha Whatever works!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Currently: Can you believe that today already marks the beggining of MARCH??? This week is also Spring Break week at my school and thus I am practically the only Graduate college student in town. It hasn't been bad though. I have gotten into a 90's hip hop group called the Pharcyde and I must say...I LOVE their music! Each song is so addicting and their music videos are bizarre but really cool! Plus I myself am a little bizarre so they are just my style! I also like the fact that the guys in the group seem like the types of guys I could hang out with in real life. Like the types of guys that I could lay back and drink some Beer with as they smoke their weed.Haha It is really a shame that I was only about 5-8 years old and was into watching Cartoon Network, Nickelodeon, and Power Rangers back when they were in their prime. But what can you do? I have also been a little bit of a nerd since break started. For one I have started reviewing/studying for my Boards exam which I probably won't even be taking until around August/September...but it's always good to start early! And i've been writing an Abstract for my Thesis group so that we could be entered into a Research presentation contest that the University is holding at the end of this month. And that's about it really. I did have yet another strange dream a couple of nights ago where I was getting married to some guy from Saudi Arabia...who actually wasn't too bad looking. But what's weird is that in the dream I was SO happy and was practically THE CENTER of attention throughout it. This is only weird because even in my dreams i'm never really the center of anything. But I guess it's good that i'm having more positive dreams. Believe it or not it is sunny today around here (which is a rarity in this dreary town), so that is lifting my spirits some. Enjoy your day everyone!