Sunday, Aug. 30, 2009

Currently: Today was today. Went out friday night with some of my sisters. We went to a karaoke Bar and even got to go up and sing "I kissed a girl." Haha. It was interesting. That same night I was hit on by the ex-boyfriend of one of my sisters...and I stupidly gave him my number. Why do I always let things like this happen to me?haha Anyways, last night I stepped out for a little bit to go hang out at one of my friends' apartments. All we really did was drink a little rum/vodka and watch Saturday Night Live. Today was alright. I studied a little bit...then fell asleep while studying...and then I went to my first sorority business meeting of the semester. I oficially dropped my position as Ritual chair, thankfully. I also got started on revising the chapter Bylaws...so all in all it has been productive. I have to go to bed pretty soon, as an early school day awaits me...my first class is at 8 am...fun, fun stuff right there. Anyways, good night!

Thursday, Aug. 27, 2009

Currently: Just got done reading a little for class...at least i'm trying, right?Haha. Anyways, I really should go to bed now, as I have to be up early for work tommorrow. I work from 8-3. Luckily, I do not have any classes to add on to that. After work, i'm picking up some money at the corner store and then purchasing the remainder of the books that i'll be needing for this semester...as well as some cigs, of course. After that, the evening is mine! I have a house-warming party to attend for my sorority, since we had just moved into our new sorority house. A lot of other members of the Greek community plan on being there as well, and ice cream will be served, so it should be okay. After that...you guessed it, i'm going to try to find a good 'ole night adventure for myself. I'm going to try to milk this weekend for all it's got, since it's syllabus week and next weekend probably won't be as much of a free-bee for me. Let's hope things work out for the best. Texted Jesse a little bit today...i'm just glad that he still remembers me. Haha. But all jokes aside, i'm really hoping that I can keep in touch with him so that when I go home i'll have someonelse besides my best friend to count on to do fun things with...and the sex wouldn't be so bad either.Haha. Alright, i'm going to call it a night now. More later!

Wednesday, Aug. 26, 2009

Currently: So I am not pregnant. My period actually arrived that same night that I was freaking out and carrying on...and what a relief it was! To celebrate, I went out with a few friends of mine. We went to three bars where I had three long islands total and a lot of Beer.Haha After that, we went to my friend's apartment where they smoked some pot and we talked...and then after awhile everyone just went home. I decided to stay there for the night. Next day was pretty laid back and then today was my first day of classes. It was alright. Lecture this morning was long as hell, but Ethics wasn't bad at all. My professor for that class pretty much just gave us the syllabus, explained what we will be doing all semester...which really isn't even that much, had us fill out a survey and let us go. Haha. Now that is how EVERY philosophy class should be!Haha. Later on this evening, my new roomates and I had a roomie meeting...which got pretty annoying and draining at times, but we got what we needed to get done, so i'm satisfied. Just got done getting started on some readings for class and watching the Real World at the same time...and that is about it. I still haven't purchased all of my books, but am not too worried cause I did purchase all the books I will be needing for my Physical Disabilities and Community Interventions courses, as well as two of my Pediatrics books. I only need to buy one more Pediatrics book along with three books for Ethics...which aren't even that expensive, and i'm set! Not only that, I will be getting some money wired to me on friday, so I won't even have to wait that long to purchase the remainder books. So pretty much, all's going okay. Still thinking about Jesse, of course. A lot of people are telling me that I should try to get in touch with him some time in the near future, since, as one of my friends puts it "...guys have very short attention spans."haha We'll see. Maybe i'll try to get in touch with him tommorrow since it's been weeks since I last texted him. Ahhhh...getting over the one who popped your cherry is a bitch.

Monday, Aug. 24, 2009

Currently: I am such an idiot. It has just hit me today that sleeping with Jesse so willingly may have been the biggest mistake of my life. I was so anxious and ready to lose my virginity to a guy that I was attracted to, that I didn't even blink twice when he told me "...but I do have a problem...I don't like to use condoms. I pull out." Logical me should have heard that and said "thanks, but no thanks," but stupid, ready-for-anything me just simply thought "okay, as long as he pulls out on time, everything is just peachy!" Big-fucking-mistake. Now, since we had unprotected sex, not only may I be pregnant, but I am also at risk to be carrying whatever he may be carrying. This is especially crucial considering that when we had had sex I was most likely still ovulating. I am so upset at myself, it's not even funny. But now all there is for me to do is wait...just wait and see. I am really hoping that things work out okay, but you never know. I hate this...so much.

Saturday, Aug. 22, 2009

Currently: I feel like crap. I woke up this morning with a headache and my entire body feels weak...wrong day for that. In a few, i'm going to shower, get dressed and then step out to the store to pick up a few more things that I need to pack in my luggage. I will be leaving for school later on this evening...which means that I will be on the Greyhound for 15 hours all over again...woohoo! Not.

Friday, Aug. 21, 2009

Currently: About to start packing in a few as I leave for school tommorrow evening. Still haven't heard from Jesse. Blah. Anyways, I digress. Summer's coming to an end, and i'll be back to being either completely stressed out or bored/angsty out of my mind. Haha. On the bright side, at least I tried as I always do, to make the best out of this past summer. Hopefully this school year will be eventful...cause that's all that really matters.haha Though I can't say exactly how eventful it will get considering the fact that i'm rooming with two Asian girls who don't like to go out or do much of anything. But on the bright side, I am no longer writing for the paper and am still talking things over with my sorority's district advisor to get me on "professional status" for this coming semester, so hopefully that will decrease some stress. I have a very busy semester ahead of me. The two classes I have to really get my shit together for are my Physical Disabilities and Pediatrics courses. I am especially a little worried about the Physical Disabilities class, mostly cause I heard that our professor for that class is tough and expects us to really think on our feet. Thesis class will also be a bitch, as I have no interest whatsoever in my group's topic. Blah, blah and double blah. Here we go!

Wednesday, Aug. 19, 2009

Currently: So bored. Being home all this week made me remember what it was like when I didn't have a summer job...just unbearable. Anyways, i'm trying to make the best of this limited time that I have to myself. I just can't believe that August is almost over already. Couldn't the summer hold out for just a little longer? Oh well. I see on facebook that a lot of my friends/aquaintances/classmates (even the married, engaged and pregnant ones...what fools) are really looking forward to going back to school...and to be honest, i'm not really. Truth is, I don't like school too much. I don't like studying all night long, I don't like having to get up so damn early for lecture, I don't like my work study job...though I appreciate having one, I don't like wanting to hang out with my friends over the weekend and having to settle for being bored out of my mind alone because they have "other plans," and I don't like worrying about passing and being extremely stressed out because of that. Call me lazy, but i'd much rather have a schedule like my summer schedule where I go to work everyday and am able to come home and have my piece of mind. But eh, that's life. If I don't finish college i'd have to settle for a paycheck to paycheck job, which would further complicate everything. I also can't stand how lame the guys at my school are, and being with Jesse that one night made me realize what I was missing out on when I was going goo goo ga ga over those fools. *sigh* And those are the primary reasons why i'm not looking forward to going back to school all that much...but on the bright side, I do have a good feeling about this year. Well, we shall see.

Tuesday, Aug. 18, 2009

Currently: Another scorching hot day awaits me...great.Haha I'm about to eat a little something and then step out for a little bit to go to the local pharmacy to get a few school supplies and cigarettes. After that, i'm most likely going to take a nap. Nothing planned for later on, of course. Hopefully this hot weather won't get the best of me as it did yesterday.

Sunday, Aug. 16, 2009

Currently: Things have been okay. Unsurprisingly, I have developed a school girl-type crush on Jesse...I guess that's resulted from him taking my virginity and all. I am trying my best to keep in touch with him without being too agressive about it, cause i've learned the hard way that guys don't like that. So wednesday night I think, I texted him my number and told him he can call me whenever he'd like to hang out again and he texted me back saying thanks and that we will chill again soon. I hadn't heard from him since, but hope to hear from him again in the future. We shall see. As for everythingelse, i've just been pretty busy. Friday, I wrapped up my summer job at the firm. Yesterday I picked up some money at the bank and then stepped out to the city for a little bit. And today I did my hair and then took my mother and brother to the supermarket to do some grocery shopping. We then went by the Chinese restaurant to pick up some food. And that has been it. I am glad that I will have this entire week off, but sad that this coming weekend i'll be leaving for school again. I have a ton of crap to do beforehand. But of course, I have to suck it up and get shit done.

Sunday, Aug. 9, 2009

Currently: Last night I had a blast. I went out to the city for my best friend's twenty first b-day celebration and met up with her and her friends at the train station. I had thought that it would be just the four of us hanging out for the night, but apparently her other co-worker brought a posse along with her to go Bar hopping with us. One of her friends in particular was a cute Peruvian boy named Jesse. I had initially noticed that he was a cutie but didn't flirt with him cause I figured it would be a lost cause anyway. Well, a few drinks later, we are at another Bar and this creepy old dude starts trying to dance with me. I didn't know what to do so I looked over and saw that Jesse was just standing there, kind of bored, so to save myself I reached over and grabbed his hand and then pulled him towards me and hugged him and told creepy old guy "I'm sorry, i'm with him tonight."haha Well from there, we start talking a lot more and he tells me that he wants to have sex with me really bad...so once again I am thinking to myself "when will I ever get an opportunity like this again?"haha So I agree to it and he gives my friend and her friends a ride home and then we go to his place. As soon as we got up to his room, the boy wasted no time. We both took our clothes off and he threw me onto his bed and we made out a lot...he then ate me out. After the cunillungulus session, we had intercourse. It was my first time. It was very very painful...so painful in fact, that it was hard for me to even focus on how good it felt cause I was too busy dying from the pain. At first I didn't think I bled and that gave me a little bit of a relief, but then I look over and see that I had indeed bled ALLOVER one of his pillows! Crazy. We had sex twice last night cause he hadn't had any in awhile and was thirsty.haha So needless to say, I am no longer a virgin...and I actually like it. And to me, there really was no better person for me to lose my virginity to than to someone like Jesse...I mean, he's attractive, he's charming, he's tough and feisty, he's very brave, he doesn't give a damn, he speaks spanish fluently, he knows what to do in the bedroom, his penis isn't small AND he has the sexiest tattoos I have ever seen in a man. So do I regret last night's decision?...NAH!haha At least now bummy guy is not in my mind anymore.

Friday, Aug. 7, 2009

Currently: It is a beautiful night and I am spending it at home. Great. Tommorrow I am going to the bank to withdraw some money. After that I have to go to the garage to get an oil change for my car. Later on I may go see a movie. Sunday I may or may not be meeting up with my best friend to celebrate her 21st...but either way i'd have to leave early cause I have work the next day. And next week is my last week at the firm for good. I will not be working there again next summer cause I will be doing my Fieldwork placements and after that i'll be working as a full time therapist, so I won't even need the firm anymore! It is a little sad, now that I think about it, since I have been working at the firm every summer since my freshman year of college and it was that job that enabled me to save enough money to purchase my car, but oh well, i'll live. I'll be using the week after my last week at the firm to relax, buy some things that I will be needing to go back to school, regroup and pack...then i'll be off to school again. It's amazing how quick and Bleh this summer was, but what can I say? It was good compared to some other summers i've had to suffer through. That is all I can say.

Tuesday, Aug. 4, 2009

Currently: I was finally able to purchase my new laptop. I am also thinking of getting a new camera since it's been EONS since i've been able to take pictures of my own. And that is it.

Monday, Aug. 3, 2009

Currently: I told my mom about my crush on bummy guy...and she told me that if I ever bring him home she'll throw a chair at him. hahahahahahahaha.

Sunday, Aug. 2, 2009

Currently: Went out tonight...for once.haha. It was a good time. Of course, I met a guy (the guy who served me, actually) and really liked him and he just disappeared from my life out of nowhere. *sigh* I don't want to talk about it. I do notice though that this happens to me a lot. This instance actually reminds me a lot of what had happened with All-American guy...dude appears, seems really interested in me, seems like we may hit it off...and then *poof!* he fucking disappears! Whether it be the case that he just "forgot" to ask me for my number (all American dude), or he just feels the need to be "professional" and not approach me too aggressively and just make his smiley way on back home (waiter guy), shit like this always just manages to fall upon me...i'm not too upset about it though, I mean shit happens. It just wasn't meant to be. I mean, there's always the bummy guy...whom I still can't get out of my mind. *sigh* Yep, i'm drunk. This is a sign that I should call it a night...now.haha