Wednesday, Dec. 30, 2009

Currently: Still around.Haha. I've been concentrating on getting things worked out with a facility for me to complete my Fieldwork 2 rotations at. It has been so tiring. I have called up a bunch of places and am trying to get contracts in, but it's so hard to get that done when i'm practically doing my Fieldwork coordinator's job for him. I emailed him tonight, so hopefully he can get at least one of these places to give me a thumbs up before the end of break. I would be so pissed off to have done all this work just to be told that I can't even go on my Fieldwork rotations. Anyways, besides that everythingelse has just been...everythingelse. I haven't gone out once since break started and it's starting to get to me a little. It's just hard cause I have only one good friend here at home and she's only off during the week and does not have enough money for transportation, as she saves all that to get to and from work during the weekend. So needless to say, she hasn't been able to do anything. I have another friend from High School that I still keep in contact with, but he always finds excuses to not go out with me...and at the LAST minute too! I'm starting to think that he's afraid to go out with me cause I told him how much I love to go to different Bars and drink and have a good time.Haha He probably equates that with pure trouble.Haha. I could have also gotten in touch with a guy I was talking to over the summer, but I figured he's probably busy as well. Not only that, the guy is just lame and for some reason I don't feel like i'd really have that much fun with him. So this pretty much leaves me with no other option but to get happy-drunk off of some white wine at home by myself.Haha I actually did that last week and had a great time!haha I'm stopping at the liquor store tommorrow afternoon to get some more white wine, so that I can at least enjoy New Year's Eve in some way. And those are my only plans. I'll try to make the best of it. Happy New Years everybody! See you on the other side.

Sunday, Dec. 27, 2009

Currently: "Someday you'll meet someone who'll make you realize why it never worked out with anybodyelse."....I'll just keep saying that to myself until it happens.=)

Saturday, Dec. 26, 2009

Currently: This is the most boring saturday night that I have had in awhile...and of course, it has to be on the day after Christmas! Of course, Christmas this year was nothing to be oh so excited about. I got one thing for my mother, brother, and grandmother each...and am going to have to return my brother's gift anyway, since the dumb cashier forgot to remove the security tag thingy from it at the store. And then of course, the night ended with my mother and father going back and forth at each other. Awesome. Today was just beyond boring. I spent most of it watching whatever's remotely interesting on tv. Actually, I saw someone interesting on tv today. I was watching the show Silent Library on MTV2, when I saw a guy on the show that went to my High School! He actually lives literally right around the corner and used to work at the Supermarket. Yup folks, that's the most interesting thing that happened to me today. 'Gotta love my life. In the meanwhile, i'm still a bitter and angry bitch. I guess i'm still upset about the whole Jesse thing...and i'm a person who hates not getting what she wants, eventhough it happens all the time. I just really wish I could meet someone who's genuinely interested in me, but unfortunately all men are fucked up and only see either what's on the outside or what someone's nationality/ethnicity is. The world we live in is so sad.

Wednesday, Dec. 23, 2009

Currently: God, i'm so bored right now! I'm currently listening to "Where's your head at?" by Basement Jaxx, and i'm seriously wondering where my head is right now...NUMB!

Sunday, Dec. 20, 2009

Currently: So I am home now on Holiday break. Unfortunately, I don't think i'll be seeing much of Jesse at all, as I have just found out that he is now in a relationship with some girl. What's funny is, I saw this coming too. I always thought to myself, "hm, wouldn't be surprised if I just wondered and wondered why he doesn't seem that interested in me, just to find out that he's seeing someone else," and lo and behold! I was actually being a facebook creeper when I found out. It was a boring monday night, so I decided to just wander into his facebook page to see what's going on with him, and first thing I see on his page is "in a relationship." Story of my life. Which is probably why I wasn't too shocked. Shit like this happens to me all the time, which is why i'm kind of getting used to and even expecting it...that's really unhealthy, but hey, i'll live. Anyways, not too sure of what is in store for this break. I would really like to get out at some point. I guess I shall see.

Monday, Dec. 14, 2009

Currently: I'm almost there...i'm almost there. That is what I keep telling myself. I finished up my activities file for Pediatrics and turned that in this morning. Now today i'm going to continue working on my Personal Journal for Physical Disabilities, and study for my Pediatrics final which is tommorrow. Ahhhhh...it never ends! And it really doesn't help that today's one of those days where i'd rather just sit back and watch a bunch of Victor Rasuk movies and then nap until way into the evening. But unfortunately, it won't be anything like that. I guess I could get a little bit of nap in once i'm done typing up some of my Journal...sounds like a plan.

Wednesday, Dec. 9, 2009

Currently: Oh boy, it is December alright! It is so cold and windy outside, it's ridiculous. This morning the wind was so strong that it nearly blew me into a light post! Crazy. Anyways, things are fortunately going well my way. Took my lab and verbal competencies earlier this week and passed both. I also did kickass jobs on my Teddy Bear toy analysis and Communities intervention presentations, so i'm pretty proud of myself right now. But of course, since i've been doing so much work the past weeks, right now i'm feeling quite lazy and worn out and not really up for anymore work.Haha. But unfortunately I must charge on, as I have a Thesis final tommorrow, a Pediatrics activities file to complete, a 14 page single-spaced Physical Disabilities journal to complete, a Pediatrics and Physical Disabilities final to take next week, and an Ethics take-home final to complete. The work is frickin endless.=( Oh, Jesus. I think i'm going to use tonight though to take a little bit of a breather. Moments ago, I was working a little on my Pediatrics activity file...but unfortunately, I have 12 more activities to complete. I do plan on doing some crazy amount of work tommorrow though, so I guess i'm doing alright...right?Haha. I know one thing's for sure; when I go home for Holiday break, i'm going to be DOWN for the count!haha

Friday, Dec. 4, 2009

Currently: It is finally Friday...thank God!!! But I have a lot of crap to do before I can have fun...of course. First off, I have work from 8 to 3 today. While there, i'm going to try to get as much studying in as humanlly possible...as well as put up with my asshole co-workers. After that loveliness, i'm going to pick up my check, go to the bank, and then meet up with some of my classmates to do some practicing for my lab and verbal competencies next week (eeeeekkkkk!). Then after that, i'm going to relax at the apartment for a little bit, try to get some Fieldwork related calls in (yea, unfortunately I haven't found a place to do my fieldworks yet), and then go to my sorority's Recrutiment event, which will last from 6 to around 8. After that, the evening is mine my friends! I'm going to see what some of my friends are doing and take it from there. I really need a break from all this schoolwork and studying. It's been crazy. As much work and studying as I have been doing, I still feel like it's not enough. *sigh* I digress.

Tuesday, Dec. 1, 2009

Currently: It is December...really? The year is over pretty much, so...welcome 2010!!!Haha. Why not? Just skip over the New Years celebration and fancy stuff and get down to business. Anyways, I digress. Not much has been going on with me. I've just been slaving away, studying and trying to get work done so that this semester ends well for me. I'm not looking to make it to the Dean's list or anything, but I am trying to make sure I get decent grades put into my transcript...and most importantly, i'm trying to make sure I don't end up having to take a class over! That is numero uno! We shall see how that goes. I'm looking forward to stepping out for at least a little bit over the weekend, i'm not going to lie. Going out always offers some kind of mental escape for me. But that's just me. Oh yea, and yet ANOTHER one of my sorority sisters has just gotten engaged. When will this madness end??????? God, I hate couples.

Monday, Nov. 23, 2009

Currently: Ugh, what a night it has been. I'm trying to make up for all the slacking i've been doing recently and catch up on some homework like a good student, but it's wearing me out!haha I'm not going to lie though, i'm doing this mostly so that when I go home I won't have that much to worry about...and I just want this semester to end well for me, pretty much. I've just been thinking a lot about how my life will be after I graduate in May...and have come to the conclusion that it will be crazy and stressful as fuck and I may just suffer a heart attack.Haha But on a serious note, it's just insane that i'll be entering the real world very soon. I feel that my social skills have improved considerably, but still don't feel like i'm ready to take THAT step yet. Afterall, I am the most immature person I know.Haha With all my married and engaged friends, it's like i'm still in the childhood stage of life when everyone has grown up well and successfully...or maybe i'm just exaggerating. Who knows? Anyways, I should stop stalling now and continue on with this long night of work ahead of me. Tommorrow after i'm done with all my classes, I will be packing, getting myself together, then will be on a Greyhound bus for damn near 15 hours! Love it. NOT! I'll be home for part of wednesday, all of thursday, all of friday and part of saturday...then i'll be back here by Sunday afternoon. Sounds like a pretty crappy and pointless thanksgiving, right? Well, I see it as at least i'll get to eat some good food for at least a few days...MINOR SUCCESS!Haha. Yea, it's too late for this shit.

Sunday, Nov. 22, 2009

Currently: So this weekend wasn't bad. Thursday night was a lot of fun. Quite a few people showed up on my behalf and that made me happy...there were even a few random people whom I didn't even know that well who ended up joining in on my little celebration!Haha Though I knew they were only there cause they knew some of my guests, it was still nice. Friday night, though I was still tired from the previous night, I still stepped out for a little bit. That night started out a little slow for me, as I was kind of sluggish, but it then picked up once we got to the club and I did my fair share of dancing.Haha It was nice. And last night I was just so tired that I didn't even try to get in touch with anyone to go out.Haha So I just watched a couple of movies and went to bed. Today was quite busy. I spent practically the entire day with my Thesis group putting our proposal together. After that, I went to my sorority business meeting, which took three and a half hours, as we were voting on new positions tonight. I opted out of running for any new positions cause I really don't care about being too active within the sorority anymore and I will most likely be going on professional status next semester anyway. So that's that. Right now i'm pretty tired and don't feel like doing much of anything. I'm just exhausted physically and mentally. I think that at this point i'd rather just sleep all day...but in my world that is impossible. I'm going to try to get to bed as soon as i'm done typing this, but I don't know how possible that would be, as I have so much lurking in my mind and am thinking that I should use the remainder of this night to at least try to get some work done so that I don't have too much shit to do over Thanksgiving break...ugh! I don't know.
P.S. I have a new "man" in my life.lol He is actor Victor Rasuk, and he's so adorable to me. He's been in the movies "Stop Loss" (which is how I discovered him), "Lords of Z Town," and "Raising Victor Vargas." I've actually been watching clips of "Raising Victor Vargas" on You Tube and think he was just insatiable in it...*sigh* What I also like about him is that he seems like a very cool, non-stuck up kind of guy...unlike other celeb men i've crushed on. For example, I used to have a big crush on Brandon Boyd, only to find out that he practically only dates supermodels...so that was a no for me. I then had a crush on Jay Hernandez, but then saw his thin blonde wife and had to decline on him as well. Victor, in the meanwhile, has dated actress Melonie Diaz, who's just another plain-looking, average girl, which goes to show that he isn't very superficial at all. Also, crazy as this sounds, I like to think that if I have a crush on anyone famous, that I would at least have a little bit of a chance with them in real life...even if I know that I will never meet them. It makes it easier to fantasize about being with them...you know?...and strangely enough, I have been fantasizing about actually meeting Victor in real life and us hitting it off quite well. Wow, this "P.S." really turned into a rant...which I guess goes to show how much I love my Victor right now.=)

Thursday, Nov. 19, 2009

Currently: Getting ready to go out tonight!!! So excited! In a few, i'm going to pick up my laundry, brush my teeth, get dressed and go to my friend's house so she can do my hair, and after that...the night is mine!!! I hope that some of my friends show up so that I have a good crowd. I know some of the girls that originally planned on attending ended up not being able to tonight because of the release of the new Twilight movie...LAME! So I hope that doesn't mean that it'll be only me, Shannon, Jessie and Jenn at the gahtering.Haha Wouldn't be surprised, though. But hey, that's definitely NOT going to ruin my night! I'm ready to get beyond dysfunctional.=) Haha.

Wednesday, Nov. 18, 2009

Currently: I am 22 years of age as of today...HOLY FUCK!!!!! I texted Jesse last night, cause something told me to, for some reason, and...he actually saved my number this time!haha We chatted for a little bit. He mentioned something about going to a concert last night and I told him that i'll be home for Thanksgiving break next week sometime and if he'd like to hang out...and he didn't really comment on that, but we shall see. I AM making progress with him aterall...at least I feel that way.Haha Anyways, today was a busy day and tommorrow will be a semi-busy one too, but not as bad as today, and even better yet...I am going ALL OUT tommorrow night!haha I really look forward to that. For now, i'm just going to do some schoolwork, watch some Real World later on and start anew tommorrow.

Tuesday, Nov. 17, 2009

Currently: My birthday's tommorrow!!!! I just wish I wasn't having such a busy day tommorrow. Today alone I just had lab and have Pediatrics lecture after this, and then I have to meet with my Thesis group, then meet with my Community interventions group, then register for one more class (Clinical Reasoning, which my douchebag piece of shit Advisor didn't even tell me that I needed for next semester), and then type up my work station evaluation report for my Physical Disabilities class, oh and let me not neglect to mention that I also have to study tonight for my Ethics test tommorrow. Then tommorrow I have the Ethics test, have to meet up with my Communities group again to interview our project representative, have to stop by my work office to organize my work schedule for next semester and then go view a guest speaker for my Pediatrics class at 4...all of this crap before and on my birthday. Splendid. That's one thing I hate about being born on November. My birthday always falls at such inconvenient times. Thursday evening should be a blast though.Haha We shall see. I can't believe Thanksgiving is almost here. I really don't want to go back home, but if I don't then my mother will have a fucking heart attack. Woe is me.

Sunday, Nov. 15, 2009

Currently: Last week sucked ass and this weekend was no better...and right now the only thing that's making me feel better is listening to "I can't help it" by Michael Jackson. Thank you, Michael. Tonight i'll more than likely be hitting the sheets early.

Thursday, Nov. 12, 2009

Currently: So not only am I not doing so well academically, but i'm also running out of meals on my meal plan and am broke as it is...meaning that in the upcoming weeks up until holiday break I will be excessively lacking in the two things I love the most...food and drink. Once again, my stupidity has ruined my life. Fuck my life, hardcore right now.

Wednesday, Nov. 11, 2009

Currently: Monday night was crazy. Because it was Advising Day eve and there were no classes for us the following day, nearly everyone decided to use that as an excuse to go out and get crazy...myself included, of course. I met up with some friends at a Bar. I wasn't even nearly drunk yet, but everyone around me was, which made things quite interesting. For one, people that I knew who were usually civil with me when sober were all of a sudden extremely happy to see me and would do things like kiss my cheeks and my hands even excessively. I found that pretty hilarious. Of course, after awhile I started getting kind of inappropriate as well. There was one guy in particular who I am aquaintances with whom I felt the need to jump on as soon as I saw him. For some reason, I was EXTREMELY happy to see him.Haha So once I jump on him, he picks me up and accidentally hits my head on a wall, then kisses nearly my entire face and part of my mouth and bites my ear...he then tells ME to "behave."haha Wow. Later on that night, I also end up giving one of my sorority sisters a lap dance...yea, I was pretty happy at this point. But what was even more shocking about that is that after I give her a lap dance she asks me to then give her BOYFRIEND one too...I didn't even know what to think or how to react to that, so I just kind of look at her and point at him and go "him? you sure?" and she insists, so I gave him one too.Haha He really enjoyed it...and I mean REALLY enjoyed it. It was quite awkward. Once I was done with him, he was like "thank you SO MUCH for that," and gives me a hug. I really wouldn't be surprised if those two were swingers. But that was something. Once all the festivities of the night were over, I headed back to my apartment. Unfortunately, as soon as I got back to the apartment, I started having these palpitations that just wouldn't go away, so I ended up calling 911 and admitting myself to the hospital. The guys who picked my up were real nice and said that I didn't waste their time at all...which I kind of felt like I was doing. Once at the hosiptal, they ran a few tests on me, took my blood, and of course they found nothing wrong with me. I got no sleep that night and yet had to go to my Advising at 10 am. It sucked. And what made it worse was once I did go to advising and I was trying to get my schedule for next semester together at my Advisor's office, he kept talking to himself out loud and literally repeated everything that he was typing on the computer...he even repeated whenever he'd push the Tab button. You have no idea how annoyed I was and how rude I found that to be. I quickly filled out my schedule and had him sign off and left. After that I met up with my Thesis group, but not for long as I was extremely tired from not getting any sleep the night before. I got something to eat and then took a nice nap. Later on that night, I skimmed through one of my Thesis articles and went to bed earlier than usual, cause I was still pretty tired. Which brings me to today. I am still extremely tired and could barely keep my eyes open during my Physical disabilities lecture. And to make matters worse, I failed my last Physical Disabilities test which we all got back today. Fuck...my...life. I really don't know what I did wrong, but nevertheless, i'm going to start studying for our next test, which I think is our Final, tonight. I just cannot afford to fail a class as important as that and have to take it over. And that is all for now, my friends. I just wish I felt better. Oh well.

Monday, Nov. 9, 2009

Currently: This weekend wasn't too bad. Friday night I met up with my friend Shannon and her friends. We went to a Bar and then to the club. We did a little bit of dancing then went home. Last night I met up with Jenn and we first stopped at McDonalds since I was hungry from not eating a thing all day. There, Shannon and Jenn's friend Allison meet up with us. After McDonalds we went to the club. For some reason, I wasn't really up for dancing a lot, so for most of the night I hung out and talked to Shannon. But I did get a little bit of dancing and butt grabbing in before the night ended. Haha Jenn left the club before Shannon and I. After the club, we went back to Shannon's place since I didn't feel like going back home. We just talked for a little and I had some Beer, and before I knew it, Shannon was out. So I stayed up for a little bit and then finally decided to go to sleep. But before I could really go to sleep, I had to make a quick trip to the bathroom to throw up a little bit, but once that was done and over with, I felt much better and was able to drift right to sleep. Today was the usual Sunday for me and tommorrow's a new day. On the bright side, my Physical Disabilities class has been cancelled, so I don't have to be up at 8am! 'Gotta love days like those.

Sunday, Nov. 1, 2009

Currently: I had a blast this weekend. Friday night myself and some friends of mine went to the Bar and then the club. That night I was dressed as the Devil. Then Saturday night we first went to a very awkward house party we weren't even invited to (oops) and where some random guy felt the need to poke me every time I passed by him. After that we went to a Bar nearby, met up with some guys there and then went to two clubs. The clubs were PACKED last night! It was literally people on top of people. Crazy. I had a great time though. I went as a Princess/awkward Homecoming Queen (whichever, haha) that time. To sum it up, I did a lot of inappropriate touching of my friends (oops again), flirted with a random basketball player at my school whom I semi-know (lol) and had a lot of, and I quote "I wanna fuck her" stares my way. Every Halloween should be like this.lol But it is now the first of November and back to reality time. My birthday's coming up in a few weeks...yikes. But I do hope that that will be a good time for me as well. To update on that random "party" I threw for myself haha, right now I have 7 planned guests and 6 maybes, so it's looking pretty good.

Wednesday, Oct. 28, 2009

Currently: I will be using this entry as an Airing of Grievances...ok, ready, set, go!...So here's the deal with me and my sorority "sisters," I do not have a problem with some of them, but a HUGE problem with others. To me, our sorority doesn't feel like a sisterhood, but more like a bunch of different cliques rolled into one, with the more "awkward" members like myself left at the outskirts of the circles. And I feel like our executive committee is the most guilty of this. I will admit now that I cannot stand most of the girls on E-comm...and oh so coincidentally, most of them are good friends. The president is a little miss perfect ass, the Treasurer is a fucking phony, and I always knew she was but am especially seeing her true colors now, the Secretary is okay for the most part, but PMSes way too much...and the Recruitment director, oh, don't get me started with her! The girl didn't even want to join our sorority! No, she had her tender little heart set out on another more popular sorority on campus, and when they rejected her ass, she decided to accept the Bid from our sorority just so that she could say she's in one. And the dumass girls in my sorority completely ignore this fact (eventhough they know of it) and treat her like little miss queen bee anyway. There are even rumors that she may be elected as our next President...the thought of that alone makes me want to drop letters right now. But I guess that's what you get when you're good friends with half of the executive committee. And the vice president...I really have nothing against her, but I do get a little bit of a phony vibe every once in awhile. As for the rest of the cliques within the sorority, they're so blatant that it makes me sick. If you don't like my ass, then why did you give me an invitation to join? My only friend in the sorority right now is Jenn...and even her other friends within the sorority make me sick. Her one friend Ashley in particular, is the biggest bitch around. The girl just decided not to like me upon meeting me without even getting to know me...but that's okay, she can kiss my ass, for all I care. I don't even consider the girl a "sister," that's how much I can't stand her. Whenever I attend some sort of event with the girls, I don't even have one ounce of fun with them...I just don't connect with them in anyway, and none of them really try to get to know me better as a person, so the feeling must be mutual. Oh, and lets not forget the countless amount of shit each clique talks about the other. Oh, I can go on and on about that. I have hung out at least once with every clique, so I get to hear everything they have to say about each other...and it aint pretty. So that is the gist of my sorority. Don't we sound like one big happy family?haha NOT! Anyways, after May I never have to deal with them again, so that alone gives me a relief. And now, on another note...I think I finally realized why Jesse and I could never work out...the boy has no soul. Period. Yea, it took me a couple of months to figure it out, but now that I have, it makes so much sense now! Even while hanging out with him, there was something about the tone of his voice, the way he spoke, and some of the "looks" that he would give me...that I could just tell that whatever vessel is within his chest is just ice cold. He seems like the type of person that doesn't really care how others feel, as long as he's satisfied. He may be "cool" with a person, but it doesn't mean he likes them. I mean, it is pretty understandable that he would be this way, as he is a Libra...and most Libras I know have no soul. Sorry, but it's the truth. So thinking about that made me realize...why should I have a soul? There are so many people in this world who don't, so why should I waste my time caring when no one cares for me? Exactly. Thus is my new philosophy on life; FUCK everybody! If you're on fire on the side of a road, better hope that i'm not the one that sees it...

Monday, Oct. 26, 2009

Currently: The wedding on saturday went well. It was actually kind of boring, but the church ceremony was short and to the point and the reception was very elegant and classy, so i'm not going to complain too much. I ended up spending the night at a Hotel over there, since I couldn't find a ride back to school...a lot of the girls had decided that staying at the Hotel over night would be a better choice than attempting a two hour drive drunk out of their asses, so I didn't blame them. Better safe than sorry, afterall. That was the highlight of my weekend. I was supposed to take an Ethics test today, but my professor cancelled class at the last minute...so needless to say, I was in a good mood.Haha That class is such a joke. Anyways, i'm about to go start some school work now. I think tonight i'm going to concentrate on prepping myself for my Pediatrics presentation tommorrow as well as start some reading for Physical Disabilities. Tommorrow morning for lab we are starting out at some wheelchair place off campus and then coming back to campus for our second portion of lab, which I think will also involve wheelchairs. So pretty much it's going to be a very long morning! Better get some good night sleep tonight!

Friday, Oct. 23, 2009

Currently: Today is going by so frickin slowly that it's almost pissing me off! I guess that's what I get for going out last night knowing that I was going to be working all day today. So unbearable. And it doesn't end here either. After this, I am going to pick up my check, go to the bank and then go to the mall to get a cute little outfit for the wedding tommorrow. Don't really know what i'll be doing afterwards...but I know what i'd like to do, and that is take a nice, long nap!!! But unfortunately, I don't even know if THAT would be possible, as my sorority sister Jenn is expecting a lot of the girls in our sorority going to the wedding tommorrow (which includes myself)to be helping put together our float for homecoming, which is also tommorrow, tonight. I really do want to help, but i'm just too ridiculously tired to do so. And I know that the fact that i'll be making a pit stop to the mall will make matters even worse for me. In general lately, i've been finding myself being real exhausted, as well as, I hate to say it, lazy. Every morning I literally dread getting out of bed. I find myself enjoying sleep more than being awake, which scares me just a little bit, because I was never like that before. *sigh* Whatever.

Monday, Oct. 19, 2009

Currently: I am so tired, it's not even funny. I really don't feel like doing anything today but listen to music and sleep, but I have to wake the hell up, as I have a paper and presentation due tommorrow for Pediatrics...I have to edit our paper. Lucky me. Anyways, I still have one more class to go for today, Ethics. Blah. What's even worse than a boring class is a boring AND pointless class. Blah again. Before I go to Ethics i'm going to get something to eat. After Ethics i'll be a back at my apartment slaving away. Once again I have also been feeling a little empty inside for part of last week and what is looking like this week as well. I hate that feeling, mostly cause that usually leads me to being lazy and not up for doing much, which usually leads to procrastination. I'm going to try my hardest tonight though to not procrastinate too much...but uggggghhhh it's going to be so hard.

Saturday, Oct. 17, 2009

Currently: "This town don't feel mine...i'm fast to get away...far!"-Deftones
One of the greatest songs ever made.

Friday, Oct. 16, 2009

Currently: I'm in the mood for some mind blowing sex right about now...too bad I need a shower.haha

Thursday, Oct. 15, 2009

Currently: I am currently on Fall Break...but spending it at school.haha I was too lazy to hop on a Greyhound home just to spend a mere two days there, so here I am. A lot of people went home for Fall break, so needless to say it's mighty lonely here. But anyways, in other news, my roomate is moving out of the apartment today and tommorrow...and the long, stupid story starts here. A month ago, she had come to me with concerns about my snoring. Apparently, it was disrupting her sleep with her being a light sleeper and all. So, since I really have no control of what I do in my sleep and there was no real resolution around this, I decide to go over to the Health Center to maybe get some advice from them and the only advice they had was for me to try wearing breathe right nose strips every night. So I make a trip to the pharmacy and spend eleven dollars out of my pocket on nose strips. I wear them a few nights and ask her if she could still hear me at night...and lo and behold, the strips weren't working. She could still hear me at night. Previously, we had asked our other roomate if she would mind switching rooms with me, but unfortunately, she didn't want to give up having an entire room to herself...and who could blame her, really? So with no other options left, we actually have a meeting with our Resident Director and the Student Living Director of Relations...yea, it got that serious. We told them everything, including the fact that I had indeed tried the nose strips, and it was even brought up that her and I should switch sleeping out on the living room couch. I didn't like that idea, cause frankly, it felt like I was being punished for not doing anything. So the only other option they could think of was for one of us to move out of the apartment entirely...and of course my roomate decides that that person should be her. Now, eventhough she insists that she enjoys me as a roomate and her moving out of the apartment is not because she had something personally against me, I still feel like that is so. I am actually quite offended that she's going as far as moving out of the apartment entirely because of me and for such a stupid reason. It's called ACCOMODATION! I'm sure she'd eventually get used to hearing me snore and it wouldn't bother her as much. There are clearly other things about living with me that led her to make such a decision. Whatever. At least with her gone, now i'll have the room to myself. Ha! Take that! She thinks she won when she really fucking lost. And I don't mean to sound like a hateful bitch, but I hope her new roomate makes her life a living hell. That'll teach her not to think she's a little miss princess and take good roomates like myself for granted. After we complete our Pediatrics evaluation paper together, I really want nothing to do with her. Right now I feel the same way about her as I feel about most of my sorority sisters. Some people are just not worth wasting valuable time on.

Saturday, Oct. 10, 2009

Currently: So last night I didn't go out or do anything interesting and was thus completely bored. So after wandering off and daydreaming for a little bit, I was inspired to throw a party for my birthday next month...and then make it an "Event" on facebook.Haha I've invited a few people, and thus far two people are attending, so I consider that a success!!! Haha Hopefully though, i'll have a lot more guests by the 19th of November. It should be fun. See, boredome is not always a bad thing! Anyways, funny story of the day: I was walking to the corner store to pick up money today, when this bummy dude by McDonalds sees me and tries to talk to me by continually saying "Hey, how you doin'...hey how you doin'...hey how you doin'..." Well, I was walking next to this elderly gentleman and his wife, and I guess he thought that bummy dude was talking to him, so then HE answers as politely as can be "I'm fine, how are YOU?"ahahahahahahaha! And bummy dude was so shocked and caught off guard, he just weirdly answered "I'm fine." And then after awhile, I can hear him saying to his wife "Wait...was he talking to me???? I think he was talking to you," referring to his wife. She then answers "No, I don't think he was talking to me..." and as soon as I get in front of them she then says "...he was talking to HER!" ahahahahahahahahahaha! Grandpa doesn't know this, but he saved my frickin life today! Ahhhh good times. Anyways, in about an hour i'm going out with my friend Jenn and a few of her guy friends...and then back to business again tommorrow. There's no such thing as a Lazy Sunday for me!...when i'm at school, at least.

Friday, Oct. 9, 2009

Currently: So it is friday...and raining and yucky out. Ew. Anyways, for some reason, i'm really looking forward to Halloween right now. It has always been a favorite holiday of mine next to Christmas, but for some reason this year I seem to be looking forward to it a little more than usual. I even plan on wearing a costume this year! I hadn't worn a real Halloween costume since sixth or seventh grade! Needless to say, I am saving up big time for this. I am thinking of dressing up as either a Devil or a Black cat...I may go for the Black cat, since all I really need are a fancy kitty mask and claws...plus, a lot of the Devil costumes are a bit too slutty for my taste. I envy anyone whose born either on the month of October or right after Halloween...my birthday's right before the FAT holiday, aka Thanksgiving! Speaking of, i'll be 22 in over a month!...holy shit, i'm getting old. Time is running away too quickly and I still haven't found my prince charming. Woe is me. Anyways, I am currently at work and will be here until 3. After that, I am picking up my check, going to the Bank, getting a card for my friend Kate's wedding in a few weeks and then hopefully going back to the apartment to relax a little bit and then get started on studying for my Pediatrics test on Tuesday...all the while, enjoying some delicious honey bbq wings.

Tuesday, Oct. 6, 2009

Currently: Wow, it's really been awhile. Truthfully, i've been too tired to do or think about anything else. Everyonelse in my class feels the same way, so that's how I know we all need a good, well-deserved break. In other news, I was invited to another wedding. This one will be on the 24th of this month. I'm looking forward to that. The other wedding I went to on the 26th of September went well...though it rained...and I was still a little scorned that the bride didn't make me one of her bridesmaids (I always considered this person one of my close college friends, but I guess she doesn't feel the same way, oh well). Anyways, not much on the Agenda tonight. I plan on just studying a little bit and then calling it a night. Oh, and sad rejection by a guy of the month: A guy that I had known since freshman year who I had a little crush on for awhile told my friend the other night that he doesn't think that he and I would work out because i'm too shy. Seriously, people? I really should be a regular on Fmylife.com.haha

Sunday, Sept. 27, 2009

Currently: Sorority girls are fucking bitches and can fucking die...excluding myself and a few not so bad ones, of course. Way to start an entire fucking night of studying, eh?

Saturday, Sept. 26, 2009

Currently: Today's one of those days where I would just like to jam to smooth R&B or smooth alternative all day.

Friday, Sept. 25, 2009

Currently: At work right now. I will be here until 3 pm. Blah. I'm going to use literally all of today to study for my Physical Disabilities test on Monday. I did do a lot of studying last night, but only got through two chapters...and I still have two more to go! AAHHHH! I don't know why, but my professors this year are being SUPER strict for no reason...and "strict" really intimidates me.Haha Anyways, once i'm done here i'm picking up my check, going to the bank and then going back to the apartment to nap. After that i'll be studying all night until I decide to go to sleep. No going out for me tonight. Tommorrow I have to be up early anyway to get ready and take a one hour drive to my friend Cara's wedding. I'm really looking forward to that. Watching two people in love exchange their vows and demonstrate their devotion to each other is really cool...I really hope that that can be me some day.

Wednesday, Sept. 23, 2009

Currently: I've been busy, busy, busy as usual. Took my first Pediatrics test of the semester yesterday...and didn't do so well on it. That ruined my entire day. I was so upset and hopeless...I even briefly thought about dropping out of school. It was that bad. But i'm feeling slightly better today. Took my first Ethics test of the semester and thankfully I have a good feeling that my grade on that test will be WAY better than my grade on my Pediatrics test. For now i'm passing a little time and then I have a sorority executive commitee meeting to attend to. I am meeting with the commitee to finish updating our chapter Bylaws. Blah. Dry material altogether. Once that's done and over with, i'm coming back to the apartment and Physical Disabilities will own my life. Since I didn't do so well in Pediatrics, i'm going to try to compensate for that by kicking Physical Disabilities' ass!Haha I take that test on Monday. This weekend, in the meanwhile, will probably be my last hurrah for hard Bar visits and drinking. And I say this because...let's just say last weekend after attending my sorority sister Kate's bachelorette party, I had a near-death experience. Not only did I puke my brains out, but at one point, I swear I was completely disoriented and could barely answer my friend Jenn when she was speaking to me. That gave me a wake up call. A wake up call that I need to stop using alcohol as a coping mechanism and that I need to learn to correctly pace myself when drinking...before it's too late. So I pretty much have vowed to myself that during the weekends I will try to find other alternative ways to pass time and have "fun"...like maybe stepping out to the mall, or movies, or dinner, or something.Lol I even fogot what doing that sort of stuff for leisure was like, since i've been practically living for Bars and parties since I entered college.Haha But something's got to give. And even if I do go out, i'm going to try to pace myself a lot slower and NOT chugg liquor as I foolishly did Saturday night...I actually chugged a long island iced tea AND an "irish car bomb," which was pure whiskey. Yea, beyond dumb. So i'm really hoping right now that I don't break this promise to myself and that after this weekend (since i'll be attending a 21st party and a wedding) i'll be able to follow up on my plan. We shall see.

Friday, Sept. 18, 2009

Currently: Wow...has it really been EIGHT days since I last updated???? Granted, not much has been going on with me. Still in school, unfortunately.Haha I kid, I kid. I've just been really busy with all my hectic classes, especially Physical Disabilities and Pediatrics...those classes are KILLING me! I've been a little stressed out, but thankfully I am handling the stress better this year than I did last year. Last weekend was fun. I went to my sorority sister's 21st party on friday...and ended up leaving with two guys...I didn't do anything with either of them though, so don't worry about that.Haha And on Saturday I went to the Bar with my friend Shannon and then my friend Jenn met up with us and then took us to the Karaoke Bar...needless to say, as soon as we got there we were stalked by creepers. Haha Not so sure what this weekend will bring, but i'm sure it will be fun. Bid night, or the night that we hand out invitations to some new girls to join our sorority, is tonight. I'm not that excited about it, but we'll see how that goes. Toinght is supposed to be a "no boos or boys" night, so i'm not going to try too hard to go out...but if I get a text, then I won't hesitate!haha Tommorrow morning is volunteer day at my school, so needless to say i'll be up in the very early hours of the morning performing random manual labor with my sorority.Haha Of course, I plan on taking a very long nap afterwards. Then later on that evening is my sorority sister Kate's bachelorette party. I had thought that it was last saturday, but thankfully double checked the event on facebook and it had indeed been moved to tommorrow night...so, I may or may not go to that. Jenn wants to go to the Karaoke Bar again, so what i'm most likely going to do is go to the bachelorette party for a little bit, and if she gives me a call, have her meet me wherever i'm at...just like last weekend. So that's how things are looking thus far for this weekend. Next weekend is my friend Cara's wedding...and it should be a shit show, from what i've been hearing.haha I can't wait.

Thursday, Sept. 10, 2009

Currently: I'm about to call it a night soon. I'm so tired. A busy day awaits me tommorrow. I have to be up early for work, which is where i'll be from 8 until 3. After that, i'm picking up my check and then going to the Dollar Store and Rite Aide. After that, I have to go to the school post office to mail my sorority dues out and then I have to meet up with my Thesis group. Hopefully after that i'll be able to get out for a little bit. I'm actually really proud of myself, because I had vowed that i'll devote the week days to studying and getting school work done, and thus far I hadn't gone out during the week once...and the week before the first day of classes doesn't count.Haha. Anyways, needless to say, i'm really hoping this weekend is eventful for myself. I deserve it.

Wednesday, Sept. 9, 2009

Currently: Wow. I am neglecting this blog more and more as the months go by. Well, let's see...life has been okay for this week. Just been busy with class presentations and studying...same old, same old. That is to be expected of a "grad year" occupational therapy student, though. I still can't believe that i'm almost done with college. I still feel like I don't know nearly enough about OT to go into my fieldwork rotations!haha It is a great feeling though...gives me even more of an excuse to be cocky.haha Anyways, tommorrow's another day. Meeting with my Thesis advisor in the morning, then I have Pediatrics lecture, then my Thesis lecture. It's going to be a long day. The weekend is looking promising, though. I will likely be attending one of my sorority sisters' 21st birthday bash on friday, and then another one of my sorority sisters' bachelorette party on saturday. Let the good times roll!haha Cause afterall, after college it is called alcoholism!...haha, cliche saying, I know. I tend to use cliches a lot when I speak and when I write...but that's just me.

Sunday, Sept. 6, 2009

Currently: Still have allergies. That didn't stop me from going out friday night, though.haha It was a good time. My friend Jenn and I went to the karaoke Bar and this time we sang "Heaven is a place on Earth" and "Just a girl" by No Doubt. After that we stopped by McDonalds where we met some interesting guys and decided to go back with them to their hotel room.Haha Why not? We didn't sleep with either of them...and I really wasn't planning on doing so. I did though, decide to voluntarily pull one of their wallets out of their asses and take their two dollar bill...I wonder if he notices that I still have it?HAHA! Didn't go out last night cause I was having breathing problems and was starting to cough a lot. And that brings me to tonight. I have no idea what i'm doing tonight. Since it's Labor Day eve, i'm pretty darn sure there will be some parties going on...but I don't even know where to start!haha Arrrgggghhhh! Oh well. See what happens.

Thursday, Sept. 3, 2009

Currently: Today was so. Met with my thesis advisor and then went to my Pediatrics lecture. After that (after taking a decent nap, of course) I read a little of my Ethics book, got started on my Physical Disabilities journal and studied the muscle chart. I was going to get started on studying for my Pediatrics quiz which is next week, but since my allergies are starting to kick in and i'm thus feeling a wee bit more crappy than usual, I decided to put it off for tommorrow. At least tommorrow, since i'll be at work all day, i'll have an entire seven hours to do so. After work I have to meet up with one of my sisters (the one who is replacing me as Ritual chair) to instruct her on what being Ritual chair is all about. After that, i'll most likely be going shopping for my new coat. And that is all, for now. I'm just a little gloomy tonight...and not just because of my allergies. I'm just a little sad that as much as I have feelings for Jesse, it is probably just a physical attraction thing on his end, and I will most likely never see him again. It SUCKS beyond belief just to think that. I really feel that we could have gone somewhere too...Anyways, just got done showering and am about to call it a night. So...good night to all, and to all a good night...and all that sweet shit.

Sunday, Aug. 30, 2009

Currently: Today was today. Went out friday night with some of my sisters. We went to a karaoke Bar and even got to go up and sing "I kissed a girl." Haha. It was interesting. That same night I was hit on by the ex-boyfriend of one of my sisters...and I stupidly gave him my number. Why do I always let things like this happen to me?haha Anyways, last night I stepped out for a little bit to go hang out at one of my friends' apartments. All we really did was drink a little rum/vodka and watch Saturday Night Live. Today was alright. I studied a little bit...then fell asleep while studying...and then I went to my first sorority business meeting of the semester. I oficially dropped my position as Ritual chair, thankfully. I also got started on revising the chapter Bylaws...so all in all it has been productive. I have to go to bed pretty soon, as an early school day awaits me...my first class is at 8 am...fun, fun stuff right there. Anyways, good night!

Thursday, Aug. 27, 2009

Currently: Just got done reading a little for class...at least i'm trying, right?Haha. Anyways, I really should go to bed now, as I have to be up early for work tommorrow. I work from 8-3. Luckily, I do not have any classes to add on to that. After work, i'm picking up some money at the corner store and then purchasing the remainder of the books that i'll be needing for this semester...as well as some cigs, of course. After that, the evening is mine! I have a house-warming party to attend for my sorority, since we had just moved into our new sorority house. A lot of other members of the Greek community plan on being there as well, and ice cream will be served, so it should be okay. After that...you guessed it, i'm going to try to find a good 'ole night adventure for myself. I'm going to try to milk this weekend for all it's got, since it's syllabus week and next weekend probably won't be as much of a free-bee for me. Let's hope things work out for the best. Texted Jesse a little bit today...i'm just glad that he still remembers me. Haha. But all jokes aside, i'm really hoping that I can keep in touch with him so that when I go home i'll have someonelse besides my best friend to count on to do fun things with...and the sex wouldn't be so bad either.Haha. Alright, i'm going to call it a night now. More later!

Wednesday, Aug. 26, 2009

Currently: So I am not pregnant. My period actually arrived that same night that I was freaking out and carrying on...and what a relief it was! To celebrate, I went out with a few friends of mine. We went to three bars where I had three long islands total and a lot of Beer.Haha After that, we went to my friend's apartment where they smoked some pot and we talked...and then after awhile everyone just went home. I decided to stay there for the night. Next day was pretty laid back and then today was my first day of classes. It was alright. Lecture this morning was long as hell, but Ethics wasn't bad at all. My professor for that class pretty much just gave us the syllabus, explained what we will be doing all semester...which really isn't even that much, had us fill out a survey and let us go. Haha. Now that is how EVERY philosophy class should be!Haha. Later on this evening, my new roomates and I had a roomie meeting...which got pretty annoying and draining at times, but we got what we needed to get done, so i'm satisfied. Just got done getting started on some readings for class and watching the Real World at the same time...and that is about it. I still haven't purchased all of my books, but am not too worried cause I did purchase all the books I will be needing for my Physical Disabilities and Community Interventions courses, as well as two of my Pediatrics books. I only need to buy one more Pediatrics book along with three books for Ethics...which aren't even that expensive, and i'm set! Not only that, I will be getting some money wired to me on friday, so I won't even have to wait that long to purchase the remainder books. So pretty much, all's going okay. Still thinking about Jesse, of course. A lot of people are telling me that I should try to get in touch with him some time in the near future, since, as one of my friends puts it "...guys have very short attention spans."haha We'll see. Maybe i'll try to get in touch with him tommorrow since it's been weeks since I last texted him. Ahhhh...getting over the one who popped your cherry is a bitch.

Monday, Aug. 24, 2009

Currently: I am such an idiot. It has just hit me today that sleeping with Jesse so willingly may have been the biggest mistake of my life. I was so anxious and ready to lose my virginity to a guy that I was attracted to, that I didn't even blink twice when he told me "...but I do have a problem...I don't like to use condoms. I pull out." Logical me should have heard that and said "thanks, but no thanks," but stupid, ready-for-anything me just simply thought "okay, as long as he pulls out on time, everything is just peachy!" Big-fucking-mistake. Now, since we had unprotected sex, not only may I be pregnant, but I am also at risk to be carrying whatever he may be carrying. This is especially crucial considering that when we had had sex I was most likely still ovulating. I am so upset at myself, it's not even funny. But now all there is for me to do is wait...just wait and see. I am really hoping that things work out okay, but you never know. I hate this...so much.

Saturday, Aug. 22, 2009

Currently: I feel like crap. I woke up this morning with a headache and my entire body feels weak...wrong day for that. In a few, i'm going to shower, get dressed and then step out to the store to pick up a few more things that I need to pack in my luggage. I will be leaving for school later on this evening...which means that I will be on the Greyhound for 15 hours all over again...woohoo! Not.

Friday, Aug. 21, 2009

Currently: About to start packing in a few as I leave for school tommorrow evening. Still haven't heard from Jesse. Blah. Anyways, I digress. Summer's coming to an end, and i'll be back to being either completely stressed out or bored/angsty out of my mind. Haha. On the bright side, at least I tried as I always do, to make the best out of this past summer. Hopefully this school year will be eventful...cause that's all that really matters.haha Though I can't say exactly how eventful it will get considering the fact that i'm rooming with two Asian girls who don't like to go out or do much of anything. But on the bright side, I am no longer writing for the paper and am still talking things over with my sorority's district advisor to get me on "professional status" for this coming semester, so hopefully that will decrease some stress. I have a very busy semester ahead of me. The two classes I have to really get my shit together for are my Physical Disabilities and Pediatrics courses. I am especially a little worried about the Physical Disabilities class, mostly cause I heard that our professor for that class is tough and expects us to really think on our feet. Thesis class will also be a bitch, as I have no interest whatsoever in my group's topic. Blah, blah and double blah. Here we go!

Wednesday, Aug. 19, 2009

Currently: So bored. Being home all this week made me remember what it was like when I didn't have a summer job...just unbearable. Anyways, i'm trying to make the best of this limited time that I have to myself. I just can't believe that August is almost over already. Couldn't the summer hold out for just a little longer? Oh well. I see on facebook that a lot of my friends/aquaintances/classmates (even the married, engaged and pregnant ones...what fools) are really looking forward to going back to school...and to be honest, i'm not really. Truth is, I don't like school too much. I don't like studying all night long, I don't like having to get up so damn early for lecture, I don't like my work study job...though I appreciate having one, I don't like wanting to hang out with my friends over the weekend and having to settle for being bored out of my mind alone because they have "other plans," and I don't like worrying about passing and being extremely stressed out because of that. Call me lazy, but i'd much rather have a schedule like my summer schedule where I go to work everyday and am able to come home and have my piece of mind. But eh, that's life. If I don't finish college i'd have to settle for a paycheck to paycheck job, which would further complicate everything. I also can't stand how lame the guys at my school are, and being with Jesse that one night made me realize what I was missing out on when I was going goo goo ga ga over those fools. *sigh* And those are the primary reasons why i'm not looking forward to going back to school all that much...but on the bright side, I do have a good feeling about this year. Well, we shall see.

Tuesday, Aug. 18, 2009

Currently: Another scorching hot day awaits me...great.Haha I'm about to eat a little something and then step out for a little bit to go to the local pharmacy to get a few school supplies and cigarettes. After that, i'm most likely going to take a nap. Nothing planned for later on, of course. Hopefully this hot weather won't get the best of me as it did yesterday.

Sunday, Aug. 16, 2009

Currently: Things have been okay. Unsurprisingly, I have developed a school girl-type crush on Jesse...I guess that's resulted from him taking my virginity and all. I am trying my best to keep in touch with him without being too agressive about it, cause i've learned the hard way that guys don't like that. So wednesday night I think, I texted him my number and told him he can call me whenever he'd like to hang out again and he texted me back saying thanks and that we will chill again soon. I hadn't heard from him since, but hope to hear from him again in the future. We shall see. As for everythingelse, i've just been pretty busy. Friday, I wrapped up my summer job at the firm. Yesterday I picked up some money at the bank and then stepped out to the city for a little bit. And today I did my hair and then took my mother and brother to the supermarket to do some grocery shopping. We then went by the Chinese restaurant to pick up some food. And that has been it. I am glad that I will have this entire week off, but sad that this coming weekend i'll be leaving for school again. I have a ton of crap to do beforehand. But of course, I have to suck it up and get shit done.

Sunday, Aug. 9, 2009

Currently: Last night I had a blast. I went out to the city for my best friend's twenty first b-day celebration and met up with her and her friends at the train station. I had thought that it would be just the four of us hanging out for the night, but apparently her other co-worker brought a posse along with her to go Bar hopping with us. One of her friends in particular was a cute Peruvian boy named Jesse. I had initially noticed that he was a cutie but didn't flirt with him cause I figured it would be a lost cause anyway. Well, a few drinks later, we are at another Bar and this creepy old dude starts trying to dance with me. I didn't know what to do so I looked over and saw that Jesse was just standing there, kind of bored, so to save myself I reached over and grabbed his hand and then pulled him towards me and hugged him and told creepy old guy "I'm sorry, i'm with him tonight."haha Well from there, we start talking a lot more and he tells me that he wants to have sex with me really bad...so once again I am thinking to myself "when will I ever get an opportunity like this again?"haha So I agree to it and he gives my friend and her friends a ride home and then we go to his place. As soon as we got up to his room, the boy wasted no time. We both took our clothes off and he threw me onto his bed and we made out a lot...he then ate me out. After the cunillungulus session, we had intercourse. It was my first time. It was very very painful...so painful in fact, that it was hard for me to even focus on how good it felt cause I was too busy dying from the pain. At first I didn't think I bled and that gave me a little bit of a relief, but then I look over and see that I had indeed bled ALLOVER one of his pillows! Crazy. We had sex twice last night cause he hadn't had any in awhile and was thirsty.haha So needless to say, I am no longer a virgin...and I actually like it. And to me, there really was no better person for me to lose my virginity to than to someone like Jesse...I mean, he's attractive, he's charming, he's tough and feisty, he's very brave, he doesn't give a damn, he speaks spanish fluently, he knows what to do in the bedroom, his penis isn't small AND he has the sexiest tattoos I have ever seen in a man. So do I regret last night's decision?...NAH!haha At least now bummy guy is not in my mind anymore.

Friday, Aug. 7, 2009

Currently: It is a beautiful night and I am spending it at home. Great. Tommorrow I am going to the bank to withdraw some money. After that I have to go to the garage to get an oil change for my car. Later on I may go see a movie. Sunday I may or may not be meeting up with my best friend to celebrate her 21st...but either way i'd have to leave early cause I have work the next day. And next week is my last week at the firm for good. I will not be working there again next summer cause I will be doing my Fieldwork placements and after that i'll be working as a full time therapist, so I won't even need the firm anymore! It is a little sad, now that I think about it, since I have been working at the firm every summer since my freshman year of college and it was that job that enabled me to save enough money to purchase my car, but oh well, i'll live. I'll be using the week after my last week at the firm to relax, buy some things that I will be needing to go back to school, regroup and pack...then i'll be off to school again. It's amazing how quick and Bleh this summer was, but what can I say? It was good compared to some other summers i've had to suffer through. That is all I can say.

Tuesday, Aug. 4, 2009

Currently: I was finally able to purchase my new laptop. I am also thinking of getting a new camera since it's been EONS since i've been able to take pictures of my own. And that is it.

Monday, Aug. 3, 2009

Currently: I told my mom about my crush on bummy guy...and she told me that if I ever bring him home she'll throw a chair at him. hahahahahahahaha.

Sunday, Aug. 2, 2009

Currently: Went out tonight...for once.haha. It was a good time. Of course, I met a guy (the guy who served me, actually) and really liked him and he just disappeared from my life out of nowhere. *sigh* I don't want to talk about it. I do notice though that this happens to me a lot. This instance actually reminds me a lot of what had happened with All-American guy...dude appears, seems really interested in me, seems like we may hit it off...and then *poof!* he fucking disappears! Whether it be the case that he just "forgot" to ask me for my number (all American dude), or he just feels the need to be "professional" and not approach me too aggressively and just make his smiley way on back home (waiter guy), shit like this always just manages to fall upon me...i'm not too upset about it though, I mean shit happens. It just wasn't meant to be. I mean, there's always the bummy guy...whom I still can't get out of my mind. *sigh* Yep, i'm drunk. This is a sign that I should call it a night...now.haha

Friday, July 31, 2009

Currently: I met a guy a few weeks ago while I was still out of town. I met him at a Bar that same night I went out to the town block party/festival. He is biracial, looks around 23 years old, looks like trailer trash, has a girlfriend, who also looks like trailer trash, once (apparently) served some time in prison for robbery and has a little gap between his two front teeth. He hit on me...and I liked it. As I was leaving the Bar he literally ran out just to give me a hug...he also told me that if he didn't have a girlfriend, he'd be allover me. All of a sudden, he has come to mind again and I can't stop thinking about him...a bum, with a criminal record, a girlfriend and most likely no real head on his shoulders, has been on my mind for the past week. I even had a dream of him last night. This is a sign that there is definitely something wrong with me.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Currently: Today wasn't so eventful. Just stepped out for a bit to do my hair and then napped for the rest of the afternoon. I then watched the season finale of "Daisy of Love"...I still can't believe she chose London! Arrggh! Haha. And that has been it, really. It has just occured to me that maybe I should start writing again. I haven't really written anything since I started college. I did write an outline for a story that I thought I would eventually get around to writing...but of course, that didn't happen. I don't know what has happened to me. I used to be such an avid writer and now i'm just too lazy to pull even a little poem out my ass. Sad. *sigh* I don't know, maybe another time. For now, i'm about to brush my teeth, wash my face and go to bed. Tommorrow is another dry and boring day at work...hooray!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Currently: It is a beautiful day today. I just stepped out to get some cigs and go to the bank. And here I am now. I'm way too tired to take advantage of this nice day...so i'm most likely going to spend today in bed and doing whateverelse. I know, what a waste, but oh well i'll live. Hopefully next weekend it will be just as nice and I can go out to the city and do something fun. I really hate to waste any good day but when i'm not in the mood i'm REALLY not in the mood.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Currently: So I am obviously back at home. But it hasn't been bad. I am really hoping that the rest of the summer is like this. Anyways, right now I am just relaxing and listening to some salsa/bachata music...I really should continue researching laptops too...

Monday, July 20, 2009

Currently: In a few hours I will be on the Greyhound and going back home. Bleh. I really don't want to go back. Just when I got used to having my peace of mind, I will be back to being in chaos and misery all over again. This sucks. This weekend went really well. The thursday before sister weekend, my friend and I went to a festival around town. It was a lot of fun. I got to see Brett Michaels in person and got to see some other really good artists perform. It was very relaxing and enjoyable. Once the festival was over we went to a couple of Bars and I had a mighty lot to drink...I didn't get sick though, thank god. I spent the remainder of that night dancing the night away and bumping into some interesting characters, of course. We ended that night with a nice trip to McDonalds.Haha. You know I had to. Then that friday we embarked on Sister Weekend. It actually wasn't as unbearable as I thought it was going to be. As usual, I didn't try extra hard to "mingle" with a lot of the girls, but I tried hard enough. The only down side was having to sleep in a tent for one night. It took me forever to fall asleep and then I woke up with my neck and back hurting. It could have been worse though. We spent all of saturday participating in the activities that most of our sister weekend dues went towards. My group first went horse back riding. Going into this whole thing, I thought that the horses would be the least of my worries, but it was actually quite scary. I had thought that they would just take us around a flat track on the horses for maybe half an hour and that would be it...but that wasn't the case at all! They had us going up and down really steep hills on these horses, and i'm not going to lie, I thought that my horse was going to lose it a couple of times. I also panicked a little whenever my horse would take me through tree branches and bushes. Thankfully, I wasn't knocked out of the horse...did have a few close calls though. Three of my sisters fell off their horses, one right in front of me and the other literally bucked off her horse. Scary shit, to say the least. Once we were done with it I breathed a big sigh of relief. But the fun and games didn't end there. After stopping at a Diner to eat, we then went canoeing. I'm not a big fan of being on a body of water at all, so just the thought of barreling down a river in a small boat sent me into a silent panic. But luckily for me, my canoeing partner is a lifeguard and seemed to really know what she was doing. Our canoe did get stuck on a few rocks, but the adventure otherwise went well. After canoeing, we all met at our one sister's house, reflected on our experience a bit, and then me and my friend came back here. Last night I was able to go out with a few of my sisters once they had returned from sister weekend. It was actually a good time. Of course, I once again had a crap load to drink, but it felt great!Haha. I also got to hear some behind the scenes gossip about my sorority...so much drama and controversies! I couldn't believe my ears!haha. We went out to a karaoke Bar before driving back home. I went to bed last night at 4:00 am. And here I am now. I am still tired, believe it or not, but what can I do? I am so not ready to be on the road for 15 hours, but as usual, I have to just suck it up and get shit done. I have a lot to do once I get home, like beginning to find a laptop that I would like to purchase, saving money to buy it and getting into contact with a children's hospital for my fieldwork placement next summer. Bleh again.

Wednesday, July 16, 2009

Currently: Still out of town, waiting for Sister Weekend to begin. This past weekend went pretty well. I was at my friend Cara's place out in the 'ole country.Haha. Gotta love it! I've been here at my school's town since monday. I am staying at Cara's temp. apartment while she is at another Residence Hall for the week because she is a camp counselor and they are all required to stay at said place during the week. It has been nice. The weather here has been holding up and it's nice and peaceful where I am...totally opposite of when I am home. So needless to say, being here has given me a good break from all the chaos at home. And speaking of home, father dearest called me last night and this morning to let me know that he finally got a locksmith to un-jam my car wheel. He says that everything seems to be working fine. That is good news for me because 1) I'll definitely be needing the car when I get back home to go to work and taking the bus can be tiring, and 2)The car is at least in good shape in case I want to sell it. I still hadn't completely made up my mind yet on whether or not to sell it. I mean, I love my car, it is my pride and joy and SO much went into purchasing it. Not to mention, it has been a great help for me with getting to work and running errands. At the same time, there's a part of my heart that is telling me that selling it will be in my best interest. I don't know what to do now at all. I guess i'm just going to have to wait and see when I get back home. In the meanwhile, though I am enjoying the serenity here, it has been quite boring. All my friends here are either out of state or out of town, and Cara's too busy to hang out, so I haven't been doing much but watching movies all day and all night. It was cool at first, but now it is getting really repetitive. Hopefully Cara will be able to hang out tonight, but i'm not going to guarantee myself that.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Currently: I am leaving town in a few hours. Ever since I lost a bunch of my shirts early in the summer, i've been very paranoid about taking the Greyhound. To rest assure, I purchased a lock for my luggage from the Dollar Store. To this day I am still puzzled and saddened over the mystery of my shirts...though I'm still questioning whether or not my fat fuck of an ex-roomate may have stolen my shirts at the last minute. She is bitchy enough to pull such a petty trick. Either way, I am hoping that this trip goes well for me. When I get back home it will be back to work for me. I have to put my car up for sale as well as purchase a new laptop. Those two things will definitely be my priority for the remainder of the summer. At least I don't have to worry about the Collections Dept. or receiving my semester Bill anymore. And speaking of school, I also have to make some calls to some children's hospitals in my area to see if they'd be able to accomodate me for my fieldwork placements next summer. I always forget about that. But this time, I won't! I promise this to myself. So...i'm off! I may not have internet where i'll be, so this will be my last update for awhile.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Currently: Right now I am debating whether or not to sell my car. If one hadn't guessed already, it has been giving me A LOT of problems lately and I don't like giving up on anything, but life's too short for me to be stressing myself over a vehicle all the time. Right now it is sitting in front of my house, wheel still jammed, taking up space. And worst of all is that father dearest hasn't said a thing about how he would like to help me with it in days. I have no time to waste here! So what I would like to do is once the car is eventually fixed, sell it and make as good a profit I can from it. I purchased the car for $3,000, so I doubt i'll make that much from it, but it'll at least be something. I'm not too crazy about driving anyway, and that's mostly because of the shitty drivers around here, so i'm thinking it's not even worth my time or effort. But at the same time, I really like my car and worked very hard just to get it, and selling it would feel like time and effort wasted for me. I would also miss my car a lot and selling it would probably worsen my depression. *sigh* I really don't know what to do. I probably will end up selling it, but it's going to suck hardcore, i'm not going to lie. Letting go of something is truly difficult.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Currently: Whew, first late night entry in awhile. I was just sitting in the basement smoking and thinking. I've noticed lately that i've been at a loss for words...not really knowing what to say or what to think and that is really odd for myself. I really wish I could know what tommorrow, the day after and the next month brings, but I honestly have no idea. Nevertheless, I must charge on as always. I'm leaving town on friday to go to Sister Weekend. I'll be out of town for almost a week and a half. I should have compiled a list of the things i'll be needing to pack tommorrow night but of course I didn't. Oh well. I guess I can do all of the above tommorrow night. For now, i'm just going to go on facebook a little bit, brush my teeth, wash my face and go to bed.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Currently:So what did I do today? Got up, went to work, took the bus home, watched "HawthoRNe" and now here I am. I am so incredibly tired right now. I'm just going to brush my teeth, wash my face and go to bed...and then start anew tommorrow! Yay! Gotta love the sarcasm in this post.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Currently: So I was just on facebook looking at my "friend facts" and apparently some guy I don't even really know that well was asked if he thought I was a good kisser and he answered "no." Haha. 'Gotta love those wtf? moments.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Currently: This year's 4th of July was actually quite decent for me. My mother and I decided to go out to the city yesterday evening to get away from all the drama for a change. We first went by TGI's to eat. I had a cheeseburger, fries and a glass of Mai Tai.Haha It was delicious! After that, we went by a Cuban Bar where I had two drinks, a jack and coke and a cranberry vodka. After that, we went to another Bar where I had a pretty big glass of long island ice tea. After that, we went to the movies to see "Public Enemies." Unfortunately, I was so tipsy by then that I ended up zoning out through the entire movie. The only things I even remember from the movie are blasting machine guns and Jonny Depp making some really funny wise ass comments. Haha. That's what I get for drinking before I go see a movie i'm actually interested in. Jonny Depp is my "Hollywood Soulmate," afterall, and that shouldn't have happened! Oh well. Today was okay. I've been tired all day cause I went to bed late last night. Despite that, I still took a trip to the mall, where I got my friend Cara a few gifts for her wedding shower, my mother a few things for her birthday (which is Tuesday) and two DVD's for myself. And that has been it. Right now, i'm going to my room to listen to some music and relax a little. I may also catch an episode of "Daisy of Love" later on. And that is all, for now.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Currently: So, today's the first day of July. Hopefully this month will be better for me.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Currently: Feeling a little better today, but still a little sad. On the bright side, I'm almost settled with the Collections Dept. Long story short, a bank sent me to Collections for an unfair debt that I owed them. Because of this, I cannot even start a new checking account. So hopefully by friday I can make a payment to Collections and be practially done with it. I really want to open a checking account, cause having a Savings account is not as good, nor is it as flexible. Anyways, other than that, nothing else really positive to report. My car will most likely have to be towed over to the mechanic's cause the wheel is still jammed. I most likely need a new cylinder and will have to take a crap load of money out of my pockets to purchase it. I will also be spending on towing and however much it costs for the mechanic to install the new cylinder. I also need a crap load of money for Sister Weekend in a few weeks. Bleh. And though I was supposed to be hanging out with my friend from High School this saturday, our hangout has been postponed cause he didn't realize that it will be the 4th of July and his family is expecting him to be home. We are trying to think of another time to hang out, but both have a busy few weeks coming up so it's going to be hard. So what do I have to look forward to??...the Sun, maybe? Or a glass of wine? I think I like the wine idea a lot...

Monday, June 29, 2009

Currently: So...i'm still very sad and full of angst on the inside, but that's not what I want to complain about today. See, I go on facebook today to discover that yet another one of my classmates is engaged. My question to that is, since when was it "cool" to get married at 21 years old? Since when was it oh so horrible to actually be single at that age? Why must girls these days rush at such young ages to lose their virginity so they are not mocked or laughed at for being "too late" or "behind the times"? I only ask these questions because I feel like i'm the only girl I know with enough sanity to not rush into sex, relationships or marriage...cause I really don't have to. I'm 21, for chrissakes, I have plenty of time to do all of those things! I am getting so tired of hearing of or seeing a new person who has just got engaged and is oh so happy and excited...keep that shit to yourself...please? I mean, i'm not going to lie, I would be excited if I were engaged to the love of my life too, but I guess since that hadn't happened to me i'm a little bit...bitter. It's hard when you have never loved and been loved in return. I got a little feel for what that was like once, but it was a very brief feel...and I wanted more. Who knows when i'll ever get that opportunity again. I still believe that one should take her time when it comes to sex, relationships and marriage, but I can't help but long for all of the aforementioned myself.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Currently: Ever since what happened those few nights ago, things have been horrible around here. Father dearest is a bigger asshole than ever, my mother's extremely miserable and is dying to get out of here...and I have been feeling tormented. Not good. I can't even rest assure anymore, because of this extreme feeling of angst and apprehension lurking inside of me. I have also been really restless and not really knowing what to do with myself. Yesterday evening coming home I was so distraught that in a rush I ended up accidentally locking the steering wheel of my car and now the key won't turn in the ignition. Luckily, the devil didn't flip out over it and is taking care of it. On the bright side, I have been hearing from some of my "friends." They actually wanted me to hang out with them this weekend, but since my week has been so awful, I haven't been in the mood to do anything remotely fun. I am planning on hanging out with an old guy friend of mine from High School next Saturday though, so that should be cool. It'll give me a well-deserved escape from the Lifetime movie that is my life. I don't even enjoy listening to music that much anymore, and that's definitely not a good sign, especially considering that I always use music to feel better whenever i'm really down. But no, this time I think i'm too down for even a few musical notes to pick up.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Currently: So...shit went down tonight. I was upstairs watching a movie when all of a sudden I hear father dearest downstairs yelling his head off. At first I think it's business as usual, so I just think to myself "what the hell is his problem now?" and let it go. Minutes later I hear him yelling even louder and telling my mother to leave the house. I then can hear her screaming a little bit too. That is when I really get worried. So I put the tv on mute and can hear him yelling and complaining. I think something serious must have happened so I turn off the tv and make my way downstairs. As I am going downstairs I can hear my mother outside calling the police. I get downstairs and of course he is still complaining and I still don't see my mother anywhere, so out of fear I go down in the basement and smoke a few cigarettes. While i'm downstairs I hear a loud knock at the door followed by father dearest screaming "Who's there?! Who's there?!" I go upstairs to see what's going on and see a policeman at the door. Apparently, father dearest had hit my mother in the back of the head and then cursed my uncle out on the phone and that is why she called the police. To make a long story short, they didn't arrest the bastard, but they did file a report on him and warned him that if he ever hit her again they are going to have to arrest him. After they left, he complained a little more and went on to say that my mother's trying to ruin his life and that she's possesed by the devil. He then went upstairs. *sigh* I'm really at a loss for words right now. I honestly don't even know what to think or feel anymore. But nevertheless, life goes on and I must continue to keep my head up no matter what. Let's see what tommorrow brings...is all I can say.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Currently: Today was a "blah" day for me...very boring and just...crap. Work was slow and monotonous as usual, and then I came home and took a very long nap...that lasted well into this evening. I actually got up not too long ago. Haven't heard from my "new friends" in awhile...which goes to show how full of shit men really are. I'm not attracted to any of them anyway, so I guess it doesn't matter. I'm just really bored in general. Lately, there hasn't really been anything for me to look forward to. Some "summer vacation," huh? I guess being away for a week for Sister Weekend won't be so bad. At least i'll get to be away from this place and be around people my age and do things that are semi-fun. I can't stand being so bored for so long. Anyways, about to go back to bed again, so...good night.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Currently: Same old, same old, for today. Went to work, was bored out of my mind all day, came back home, watched some tv...and here I am now. I'm about to watch a little bit of a movie and then call it a night. Since I didn't take a nap this evening, I know that once I hit that bed I will be out like the light...at least i'll get a good night's sleep out of it.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Currently: Was at home all day today not doing much of anything at all...though I did briefly step out this morning to get father dearest the devil a card...but this time, unlike last year, I didn't put a $20 bill in the card. He's lucky he even got anything at all. After all he has put me through thus far for my summer vacation, a 54 cent card is very generous! But anyways, right now i'm trying to pass some time until dinner's ready. Will probably go down in the basement and smoke a cig and then watch some videos on You Tube. *sigh* I have run out of options. Whatever the case, Happy Father's Day to all the GOOD fathers out there! As for the low-life, good for nothing, douchebag ones; eat rocks.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Currently: So once again I am at home on a Saturday night doing absolutely nothing. I am so bored. Anyways, earlier today I helped my mother run some errands, so at least I did something worthwhile, right? Tommorrow's Father's Day and I really don't like it, cause i'm practically being forced to get father dearest the devil something so that he won't bitch and bitch and bitch all day...which is something that he'll manage to do anyway. He pisses me off so much. It's because of him alone that I can't wait to move out of this godforsaken place. I'm actually thinking of moving to the other side of the country...like to the opposite coast. Is that a good idea? I figured any place would be better than here anyway. Anyways, it also looks like i'll definitely be attending Sister Weekend this year...that is, if it's okay with my bosses. See what happens. I really wish I were out drinking right now, otherwise, I wouldn't be *nay* close to being grumpy. *sigh* Oh, and let me not fail to mention...the people who live behind me have been blasting their music for hours and it's annoying the fuck out of me! I was even trying to watch the movie "Lakeview Terrace" 30 minutes ago and couldn't even concentrate that well on it because of the godamn music! Talk about no consideration. Anyways, i'm outie. Good night.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Currently: Picked up my car yesterday morning at the Body Shop place...they did a pretty good job. I have a brand new trunk and bumper. I am very happy about that. The guys were pretty nice, too. If only they'd have fired the jerk who hit me! Anyways, I digress. Right now I am sitting at home with absolutely nothing to do. Usually, my uncle takes me out for drinks, but hasn't been able to the past few weekends for some dumb reason. Neddless to say, I have been pretty bored. I hadn't had a good trip out to the city in awhile either, which makes me really sad. Unfortunately, I cannot go tommorrow cause we're expecting to have some shitty weather around here...*sigh* what can I say?

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Currently: About to go pick my car up from the shop in a few. They fixed it quick! I was impressed. Anyways, after I pick it up, i'm driving straight to work. Bleh. Wish me luck on that. Right now, i'm trying to calm my nerves by listening to "Let me love you down" by Inoj. It's a good song. The weather sucks too, so that definitely isn't helping my mood any, so something has to. I just hope this day is a good one.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Currently: Went by that place today to get my car repaired. While there I reunited with the dumbass who hit me. Not surprisingly, he made it seem as if he wasn't the culprit when I knew damn well that he was! Thing is, the day of the accident he had blue contacts on and today he knew that I was dropping by, so he took them off...but I'm not stupid, I remember what he looked like and it was definitely him. What pissed me off even more was not only the fact that he was acting as if it weren't him, but also the fact that he started acting like a wise ass and saying that in order for him to repair the damages, I have to bring my car in a lot earlier so that he could have the entire day to do so...excuse me, dude, YOU hit my car, so right now we are working on MY time, not yours! He should be kissing my feet right now, cause I could have called the police on his ass. It's not my fault you don't know what to do at a red light. Fucking imbicile. ANYWAYS, to make a long story short, his manager came out and took all my car's info. and has put an order in for my new car part. It may take up to a week for the part to be in. In the meanwhile, I have to be extra careful and make sure i'm not in the way of any other asshole aggressive drivers, so that I don't end up with double the trouble. *sigh* Anyways, the rest of the day went well, otherwise. I got to catch up on some rest, listen to some music, watch some videos and watch some movies. Tommorrow is back to work for me. *Yawn* I really hope I get to get out this weekend, otherwise I will lose it...isn't it sad that it is only Monday and already I want for it to be Friday evening?Haha. I know i'm not the only one though.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Currently: So...today was today. Went out earlier today to pick up some cigs. After that, I did my hair...which looks pretty nice, by the way. Anyways, tommorrow's another shitty day. I will be skipping out on work to go get the back of my car fixed up. Blah. I have a feeling it's going to take forever and a day...either way, I hope it goes by fast so that I don't have to frickin worry about it anymore. And I also hope I don't have anymore fender benders...I would seriously have to kill somebody. But I do hope the rest of the week goes well, at least...and hopefully on friday I can go out for some drinks, cause lord knows how much I need them right now!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Currently:On my way to work this morning I got into a fender bender. Coincidentally the guy that hit me works for a body work shop, so he gave me his number and the times that he will be around at work so that I can come and have the back of my car fixed, no charge. Of course, I should have called the police to file a report, but since this had been the first time this had ever happened to me and I was panicky and disoriented, I didn't even think about it. And of course, father dearest flipped out and said I should have called the police. He never understands. Anyways, I am still at work now and not looking forward to having to drive back home. I am still in shock and a little shooken up from this morning, so the last thing I want is to encounter more crazies later on...but since it is friday and raining, that is to be expected. Fuck. This summer has been crap thus far, and I don't know why. I feel like i'm in the twilight zone.

Mood: Apprehensive

Want of the day: For everything to be okay.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Currently: Hmmm...nothing to report. All I did today was work and then nap after work. *sigh* If only I didn't have such a monotonous job...I mean, I am grateful to atleast have a job that pays...but what sucks is, I have absolutely nothing to look forward to day after day. Oh well, I digress. As for everythingelse...I can't even think of anything interesting...actually, no, I lied. I've been a lot more confident as of late, probably due to the fact that I have been able to make new "friends" everywhere I go...i'm not really attracted to any of these guys, but the fact that i've been even attracting so many of them has given my low self-esteem quite a boost. I'm hoping too that I can atleast gain one meaningful friendship from one of these guys. *shrugs* We shall see. I have also been trying to find new hobbies besides just listening to music, which includes watching movies, reading books and watching non-musical videos on You Tube...they are not that far of a leap from the music thing, but it is a start. And...that is all for now. Good night.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Currently: So today i'm sitting in my car, waiting for the light to change, minding my business, when all of a sudden some asshole feels the need to not wait for the light to change and speeds past all the cars in front of him on the wrong lane and knocks out my left mirror. Luckily, the mirror didn't break and I was able to re-attach it, but now the mirror isn't positioned correctly so I can't even see other cars behind me that well. And of course, I dare not tell father dearest about this and get blamed for yet another thing that wasn't my fault. I'm going to wait when he's not around to try to re-position my mirror. In the meanwhile, i'm really upset at my brother right now. I mean, I know he's autistic and a lot of his actions are not his fault, but since I had already had a bad day him doing something out of ignorance just sets me off even more. I need a drink.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Currently: So...nothing awesomely awesome to report here. My car has finally been fixed, so that's a plus. For some reason these days, i've been really tired and in a "whatever" mood...and of course, I really don't know why. I guess it's all part of my rest-of-life plan to just take everything day by day, step by step...whatever works. Happy half of the year all!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Currently: Father dearest really pissed me off today, so...when he wasn't looking, I spit in his food. You don't mess with a scorpio.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Currently: I spent today suffering with a stomach virus...and it sucked.=(

Monday, May 25, 2009

Currently: The picnic today went well. And that is all.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Currently: Since I last updated a lot has happened. The day after my last entry, my car's gear shift randomly decided to get stuck in front of a CVS...sadly, I had to call father dearest to help me out with this situation, and of course he flipped out and blamed me for everything...well, turns out the brake switch needs to be replaced, or some crap like that. *sigh* Other than that bullshit, I guess everything has been okay. Friday night I went out in the city for some drinks and had a pretty good time...of course, I also made another friend.Haha. He actually invited me to a barbecue at his place yesterday, but I just wasn't in the mood to go out, so I fed him a bullshit excuse.Haha. I did my hair and eyebrows this afternoon and spent the rest of the day being a bum. As for tommorrow, I will most likely be going to a picnic that I was invited to by one of my new friends. Hopefully, it'll be eventful. Happy Memorial Day!!!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Currently: Went shopping for some new shirts today. Starting over really sucks...I really miss my missing shirts, but oh well, what else can I do? Anyways, things have been a little more interesting for me. Few weekends ago, I went out to the city and ended up meeting some new unexpected aquaintances at a Bar. I have hung out with them once since...see where that goes...although I am thinking that their aquaintance with me is mostly to benefit their business (they are entrepeneurs of a nutrition company), but of course I could be wrong. Anyways, I have also been keeping in touch with another guy that I met at a Bar at school. See where that goes too. I'm so tired and out of it, I really don't even feel like talking about anything, so I think i'm going to stop now. ...and I have a feeling that the rest of the summer will be like this.haha Don't miss me too much.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Currently: A lot of my shirts are missing...including all of my AST shirts. I have no idea what happened to them. Either way, I have to go to the mall tommorrow evening to start buying new ones. I have run out of shirts to wear to work. *sigh*

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Currently: After this weekend, I feel a lot better about myself, and here's why: here you have my uncle, who's a big, grown ass man, hiding out here at our house for an entire day from his psycho girlfriend like a little chicken...and then you have us, who never hide from my father no matter how sure we are that he's going to raise hell. Who knew that two little women would be that much stronger than a man twice both our sizes? I kickass. Period. I don't need a man to survive...fuck 'em all!haha.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Currently: All I can say right now is that i'm really proud of myself.=)

"Sometimes you have to learn to just let some people go."

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Currently: I haven't been in the mood for much of anything besides going to work, eating, listening to music, smoking and zoning out...is that a good thing or a bad thing?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Currently: Still tired. I have so much to tell but am too weak and out of it to do so, so...I will save that for another time. good night.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Currently: I'm too tired...

Saturday, May 9, 2009-"I Love College"

Currently: Wow, it's been awhile! I'm officially on summer break. I came home yesterday morning. It was a crazy move out of my apartment, but I made it here all in one peace, and that's all that matters. I just can't believe that i'm already a senior in college! It was only yesterday that I had just graduated high school, for chrissakes! But lucky for me, my college experience has been a lot better than my High School experience...I didn't do anything remotely fun in high school. My high school years can be summed up in crushes that I never had the guts to talk to, good grades and prank phone calls.Haha. But college has been something else. Freshman year was just a shock...didn't know what I was getting into and what types of people I would meet. I made friends with a crazy but cool girl from California, drank alcohol for the first time, had an almost-boyfriend and had kickass (stoner) roomies!haha. Sophomore year was a little more laid back. I spent most of that year hating and envying my roomates. But on the bright side, I was introduced to Greek life and the possible opportunities for me in that. I then joined a sorority, which has been a rollercoaster ride for me, but still an enriching experience. And junior year...craziness all the way! They say that it is the year that you buckle down and concentrate more on your studies...but that was just the opposite for me! I had never gone out and drank so much in my life. After awhile, classes were just things I did during the day that got in the way of me and partying.Haha. And after I turned 21 it got even worse. Every weekday I would just hope the week away just so that it'd be the weekend again and i'd be able to go to the Bar...that has been the only thing i'd really look forward to and be excited about. And now we come to senior year...the possibilities are endless! I will be sad though about graduating at the end of next year and starting Graduate school...I pretty much won't be allowed to fool around anymore!haha. It has been a great run, though. Sometimes I feel like the Asher Roth song, where he says in the end "Do I really have to graduate or can I stay here for the rest of my life?"Haha.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To continue not being miserable/cranky.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Currently: You know, I really don't understand people. I try to put myself out there and open myself to friendships, but still I get shooed away like some sort of invalid. Everyday I feel like i'm just trying too hard for nothing, and that I will be judged as the "awkward one" no matter what I do. I know in my heart that at the end of the day, this little facade will get me absolutely nowhere for the rest of my life but still I try...why? And for what? I guess i'm just that bored with life that I feel I need to do something stupid to keep me occupied. People. Who needs them? They cause all the world's problems anyway...and almost everyone on Earth (myself included) is shady in some way. I just wish that there were a way that I could live without people and still remain content and satisfied with myself. But they're everywhere so it's hard to just not be around them for too long. *sigh* What am I going to do with myself? What should I do with myself? I don't know. What I do know is that this is who I am and this is how i'll be for the rest of my life, until my body finally decides to quit this bitch and call it a day. Haha. Well, at least now i'm certain where I stand and what role I play in this Earth. At least I try, right? And that's all that matters in my book. I tried. It may have taken me nowhere...but I made many attempts and now I have plenty of proof to back up my theories. Go me! I feel much better now. Anyways, studying for Neurorehab for the remainder of this lovely evening. I finished my paper for that class earlier today so thank goodness I don't have that to worry about anymore. Man, I can't wait for Wednesday.

Mood: Alright.

Want of the day: To study well and continue to inspire myself.

Sunday, May 3 , 2009

Currently: Last night wasn't bad. I first went out to the Sports Bar with my roomate. While there, this crazy 27 year old drunk guy was flirting hardcore with me. He said that I was gorgeous and he would like to do dinner with me sometime...I chuckle at that. Seriously. Haha. After that, we went by another one of my favorite Bars which I hadn't been to in awhile. I didn't drink much at all at this Bar. All I got was a small dollar shot. Besides taking the puniest shot in the world, I just sat, listened to music and smoked a cigarette while there. Very chill. After that, we decided to go meet up with some of my sisters at another Bar down the street (there are Bars at every corner in this town.haha) for my sister Lisa's 21st birthday smashdown. Haha. When we got there, not that many of the girls had arrived yet, so we just sat around in the dining area and I got a mighty tall glass of Bud Light. After awhile, I finally got to catch up with some of the girls. All went well at first. I greeted the girls, made fun of some other people, etc., etc. But then my roomate starts giving me dirty looks from the side. I tell her that she can come sit with us, but she refuses and stands all the way at a corner by herself instead. I then get a text message from her saying that she had left and that I always "do these things" to her. First of all, what the fuck did I do? I told her that I was going over there to celebrate my sister's birthday and that I may or may not stay for it. What, does she expect me to alter whatever plans or decisions I make all just to please her? Please. She's not that special. I texted her back practically telling her to chill the hell out and she texts me back saying that she "feels betrayed" by me. Oh, and guess who was trying to be nice again to me this morning? Yup, little miss diva! Whatever. I am so happy that after thursday I never have to deal with her again. As one can tell, my roomate and I have a very love/hate relationship. She's the type of girl that can be real nice and a lot of fun one minute, but then the next minute is giving attitudes, raising her voice and just being a complete bitch for no reason. I digress. Anyways, I have been working on my Neurorehab paper here in the library for awhile, and I have to say, it's coming along well. I hope to make it to the References page by the end of today. At 8 I have my last sorority business meeting of the year to attend and then i'll be back at the apartment studying my ass off for my psych/soc. final which I take tommorrow morning. Ready for summer already.

Mood: Zoning out.

Want of the day: To continue getting work done and being productive.