Monday, June 29, 2009

Currently: So...i'm still very sad and full of angst on the inside, but that's not what I want to complain about today. See, I go on facebook today to discover that yet another one of my classmates is engaged. My question to that is, since when was it "cool" to get married at 21 years old? Since when was it oh so horrible to actually be single at that age? Why must girls these days rush at such young ages to lose their virginity so they are not mocked or laughed at for being "too late" or "behind the times"? I only ask these questions because I feel like i'm the only girl I know with enough sanity to not rush into sex, relationships or marriage...cause I really don't have to. I'm 21, for chrissakes, I have plenty of time to do all of those things! I am getting so tired of hearing of or seeing a new person who has just got engaged and is oh so happy and excited...keep that shit to yourself...please? I mean, i'm not going to lie, I would be excited if I were engaged to the love of my life too, but I guess since that hadn't happened to me i'm a little bit...bitter. It's hard when you have never loved and been loved in return. I got a little feel for what that was like once, but it was a very brief feel...and I wanted more. Who knows when i'll ever get that opportunity again. I still believe that one should take her time when it comes to sex, relationships and marriage, but I can't help but long for all of the aforementioned myself.