Saturday, June 27, 2009

Currently: Ever since what happened those few nights ago, things have been horrible around here. Father dearest is a bigger asshole than ever, my mother's extremely miserable and is dying to get out of here...and I have been feeling tormented. Not good. I can't even rest assure anymore, because of this extreme feeling of angst and apprehension lurking inside of me. I have also been really restless and not really knowing what to do with myself. Yesterday evening coming home I was so distraught that in a rush I ended up accidentally locking the steering wheel of my car and now the key won't turn in the ignition. Luckily, the devil didn't flip out over it and is taking care of it. On the bright side, I have been hearing from some of my "friends." They actually wanted me to hang out with them this weekend, but since my week has been so awful, I haven't been in the mood to do anything remotely fun. I am planning on hanging out with an old guy friend of mine from High School next Saturday though, so that should be cool. It'll give me a well-deserved escape from the Lifetime movie that is my life. I don't even enjoy listening to music that much anymore, and that's definitely not a good sign, especially considering that I always use music to feel better whenever i'm really down. But no, this time I think i'm too down for even a few musical notes to pick up.