Wednesday, Oct. 28, 2009

Currently: I will be using this entry as an Airing of Grievances...ok, ready, set, go!...So here's the deal with me and my sorority "sisters," I do not have a problem with some of them, but a HUGE problem with others. To me, our sorority doesn't feel like a sisterhood, but more like a bunch of different cliques rolled into one, with the more "awkward" members like myself left at the outskirts of the circles. And I feel like our executive committee is the most guilty of this. I will admit now that I cannot stand most of the girls on E-comm...and oh so coincidentally, most of them are good friends. The president is a little miss perfect ass, the Treasurer is a fucking phony, and I always knew she was but am especially seeing her true colors now, the Secretary is okay for the most part, but PMSes way too much...and the Recruitment director, oh, don't get me started with her! The girl didn't even want to join our sorority! No, she had her tender little heart set out on another more popular sorority on campus, and when they rejected her ass, she decided to accept the Bid from our sorority just so that she could say she's in one. And the dumass girls in my sorority completely ignore this fact (eventhough they know of it) and treat her like little miss queen bee anyway. There are even rumors that she may be elected as our next President...the thought of that alone makes me want to drop letters right now. But I guess that's what you get when you're good friends with half of the executive committee. And the vice president...I really have nothing against her, but I do get a little bit of a phony vibe every once in awhile. As for the rest of the cliques within the sorority, they're so blatant that it makes me sick. If you don't like my ass, then why did you give me an invitation to join? My only friend in the sorority right now is Jenn...and even her other friends within the sorority make me sick. Her one friend Ashley in particular, is the biggest bitch around. The girl just decided not to like me upon meeting me without even getting to know me...but that's okay, she can kiss my ass, for all I care. I don't even consider the girl a "sister," that's how much I can't stand her. Whenever I attend some sort of event with the girls, I don't even have one ounce of fun with them...I just don't connect with them in anyway, and none of them really try to get to know me better as a person, so the feeling must be mutual. Oh, and lets not forget the countless amount of shit each clique talks about the other. Oh, I can go on and on about that. I have hung out at least once with every clique, so I get to hear everything they have to say about each other...and it aint pretty. So that is the gist of my sorority. Don't we sound like one big happy family?haha NOT! Anyways, after May I never have to deal with them again, so that alone gives me a relief. And now, on another note...I think I finally realized why Jesse and I could never work out...the boy has no soul. Period. Yea, it took me a couple of months to figure it out, but now that I have, it makes so much sense now! Even while hanging out with him, there was something about the tone of his voice, the way he spoke, and some of the "looks" that he would give me...that I could just tell that whatever vessel is within his chest is just ice cold. He seems like the type of person that doesn't really care how others feel, as long as he's satisfied. He may be "cool" with a person, but it doesn't mean he likes them. I mean, it is pretty understandable that he would be this way, as he is a Libra...and most Libras I know have no soul. Sorry, but it's the truth. So thinking about that made me realize...why should I have a soul? There are so many people in this world who don't, so why should I waste my time caring when no one cares for me? Exactly. Thus is my new philosophy on life; FUCK everybody! If you're on fire on the side of a road, better hope that i'm not the one that sees it...

Monday, Oct. 26, 2009

Currently: The wedding on saturday went well. It was actually kind of boring, but the church ceremony was short and to the point and the reception was very elegant and classy, so i'm not going to complain too much. I ended up spending the night at a Hotel over there, since I couldn't find a ride back to school...a lot of the girls had decided that staying at the Hotel over night would be a better choice than attempting a two hour drive drunk out of their asses, so I didn't blame them. Better safe than sorry, afterall. That was the highlight of my weekend. I was supposed to take an Ethics test today, but my professor cancelled class at the last minute...so needless to say, I was in a good mood.Haha That class is such a joke. Anyways, i'm about to go start some school work now. I think tonight i'm going to concentrate on prepping myself for my Pediatrics presentation tommorrow as well as start some reading for Physical Disabilities. Tommorrow morning for lab we are starting out at some wheelchair place off campus and then coming back to campus for our second portion of lab, which I think will also involve wheelchairs. So pretty much it's going to be a very long morning! Better get some good night sleep tonight!

Friday, Oct. 23, 2009

Currently: Today is going by so frickin slowly that it's almost pissing me off! I guess that's what I get for going out last night knowing that I was going to be working all day today. So unbearable. And it doesn't end here either. After this, I am going to pick up my check, go to the bank and then go to the mall to get a cute little outfit for the wedding tommorrow. Don't really know what i'll be doing afterwards...but I know what i'd like to do, and that is take a nice, long nap!!! But unfortunately, I don't even know if THAT would be possible, as my sorority sister Jenn is expecting a lot of the girls in our sorority going to the wedding tommorrow (which includes myself)to be helping put together our float for homecoming, which is also tommorrow, tonight. I really do want to help, but i'm just too ridiculously tired to do so. And I know that the fact that i'll be making a pit stop to the mall will make matters even worse for me. In general lately, i've been finding myself being real exhausted, as well as, I hate to say it, lazy. Every morning I literally dread getting out of bed. I find myself enjoying sleep more than being awake, which scares me just a little bit, because I was never like that before. *sigh* Whatever.

Monday, Oct. 19, 2009

Currently: I am so tired, it's not even funny. I really don't feel like doing anything today but listen to music and sleep, but I have to wake the hell up, as I have a paper and presentation due tommorrow for Pediatrics...I have to edit our paper. Lucky me. Anyways, I still have one more class to go for today, Ethics. Blah. What's even worse than a boring class is a boring AND pointless class. Blah again. Before I go to Ethics i'm going to get something to eat. After Ethics i'll be a back at my apartment slaving away. Once again I have also been feeling a little empty inside for part of last week and what is looking like this week as well. I hate that feeling, mostly cause that usually leads me to being lazy and not up for doing much, which usually leads to procrastination. I'm going to try my hardest tonight though to not procrastinate too much...but uggggghhhh it's going to be so hard.

Saturday, Oct. 17, 2009

Currently: "This town don't feel mine...i'm fast to get away...far!"-Deftones
One of the greatest songs ever made.

Friday, Oct. 16, 2009

Currently: I'm in the mood for some mind blowing sex right about now...too bad I need a shower.haha

Thursday, Oct. 15, 2009

Currently: I am currently on Fall Break...but spending it at school.haha I was too lazy to hop on a Greyhound home just to spend a mere two days there, so here I am. A lot of people went home for Fall break, so needless to say it's mighty lonely here. But anyways, in other news, my roomate is moving out of the apartment today and tommorrow...and the long, stupid story starts here. A month ago, she had come to me with concerns about my snoring. Apparently, it was disrupting her sleep with her being a light sleeper and all. So, since I really have no control of what I do in my sleep and there was no real resolution around this, I decide to go over to the Health Center to maybe get some advice from them and the only advice they had was for me to try wearing breathe right nose strips every night. So I make a trip to the pharmacy and spend eleven dollars out of my pocket on nose strips. I wear them a few nights and ask her if she could still hear me at night...and lo and behold, the strips weren't working. She could still hear me at night. Previously, we had asked our other roomate if she would mind switching rooms with me, but unfortunately, she didn't want to give up having an entire room to herself...and who could blame her, really? So with no other options left, we actually have a meeting with our Resident Director and the Student Living Director of Relations...yea, it got that serious. We told them everything, including the fact that I had indeed tried the nose strips, and it was even brought up that her and I should switch sleeping out on the living room couch. I didn't like that idea, cause frankly, it felt like I was being punished for not doing anything. So the only other option they could think of was for one of us to move out of the apartment entirely...and of course my roomate decides that that person should be her. Now, eventhough she insists that she enjoys me as a roomate and her moving out of the apartment is not because she had something personally against me, I still feel like that is so. I am actually quite offended that she's going as far as moving out of the apartment entirely because of me and for such a stupid reason. It's called ACCOMODATION! I'm sure she'd eventually get used to hearing me snore and it wouldn't bother her as much. There are clearly other things about living with me that led her to make such a decision. Whatever. At least with her gone, now i'll have the room to myself. Ha! Take that! She thinks she won when she really fucking lost. And I don't mean to sound like a hateful bitch, but I hope her new roomate makes her life a living hell. That'll teach her not to think she's a little miss princess and take good roomates like myself for granted. After we complete our Pediatrics evaluation paper together, I really want nothing to do with her. Right now I feel the same way about her as I feel about most of my sorority sisters. Some people are just not worth wasting valuable time on.

Saturday, Oct. 10, 2009

Currently: So last night I didn't go out or do anything interesting and was thus completely bored. So after wandering off and daydreaming for a little bit, I was inspired to throw a party for my birthday next month...and then make it an "Event" on facebook.Haha I've invited a few people, and thus far two people are attending, so I consider that a success!!! Haha Hopefully though, i'll have a lot more guests by the 19th of November. It should be fun. See, boredome is not always a bad thing! Anyways, funny story of the day: I was walking to the corner store to pick up money today, when this bummy dude by McDonalds sees me and tries to talk to me by continually saying "Hey, how you doin'...hey how you doin'...hey how you doin'..." Well, I was walking next to this elderly gentleman and his wife, and I guess he thought that bummy dude was talking to him, so then HE answers as politely as can be "I'm fine, how are YOU?"ahahahahahahaha! And bummy dude was so shocked and caught off guard, he just weirdly answered "I'm fine." And then after awhile, I can hear him saying to his wife "Wait...was he talking to me???? I think he was talking to you," referring to his wife. She then answers "No, I don't think he was talking to me..." and as soon as I get in front of them she then says "...he was talking to HER!" ahahahahahahahahahaha! Grandpa doesn't know this, but he saved my frickin life today! Ahhhh good times. Anyways, in about an hour i'm going out with my friend Jenn and a few of her guy friends...and then back to business again tommorrow. There's no such thing as a Lazy Sunday for me!...when i'm at school, at least.

Friday, Oct. 9, 2009

Currently: So it is friday...and raining and yucky out. Ew. Anyways, for some reason, i'm really looking forward to Halloween right now. It has always been a favorite holiday of mine next to Christmas, but for some reason this year I seem to be looking forward to it a little more than usual. I even plan on wearing a costume this year! I hadn't worn a real Halloween costume since sixth or seventh grade! Needless to say, I am saving up big time for this. I am thinking of dressing up as either a Devil or a Black cat...I may go for the Black cat, since all I really need are a fancy kitty mask and claws...plus, a lot of the Devil costumes are a bit too slutty for my taste. I envy anyone whose born either on the month of October or right after Halloween...my birthday's right before the FAT holiday, aka Thanksgiving! Speaking of, i'll be 22 in over a month!...holy shit, i'm getting old. Time is running away too quickly and I still haven't found my prince charming. Woe is me. Anyways, I am currently at work and will be here until 3. After that, I am picking up my check, going to the Bank, getting a card for my friend Kate's wedding in a few weeks and then hopefully going back to the apartment to relax a little bit and then get started on studying for my Pediatrics test on Tuesday...all the while, enjoying some delicious honey bbq wings.

Tuesday, Oct. 6, 2009

Currently: Wow, it's really been awhile. Truthfully, i've been too tired to do or think about anything else. Everyonelse in my class feels the same way, so that's how I know we all need a good, well-deserved break. In other news, I was invited to another wedding. This one will be on the 24th of this month. I'm looking forward to that. The other wedding I went to on the 26th of September went well...though it rained...and I was still a little scorned that the bride didn't make me one of her bridesmaids (I always considered this person one of my close college friends, but I guess she doesn't feel the same way, oh well). Anyways, not much on the Agenda tonight. I plan on just studying a little bit and then calling it a night. Oh, and sad rejection by a guy of the month: A guy that I had known since freshman year who I had a little crush on for awhile told my friend the other night that he doesn't think that he and I would work out because i'm too shy. Seriously, people? I really should be a regular on Fmylife.com.haha