Wednesday, Oct. 28, 2009

Currently: I will be using this entry as an Airing of Grievances...ok, ready, set, go!...So here's the deal with me and my sorority "sisters," I do not have a problem with some of them, but a HUGE problem with others. To me, our sorority doesn't feel like a sisterhood, but more like a bunch of different cliques rolled into one, with the more "awkward" members like myself left at the outskirts of the circles. And I feel like our executive committee is the most guilty of this. I will admit now that I cannot stand most of the girls on E-comm...and oh so coincidentally, most of them are good friends. The president is a little miss perfect ass, the Treasurer is a fucking phony, and I always knew she was but am especially seeing her true colors now, the Secretary is okay for the most part, but PMSes way too much...and the Recruitment director, oh, don't get me started with her! The girl didn't even want to join our sorority! No, she had her tender little heart set out on another more popular sorority on campus, and when they rejected her ass, she decided to accept the Bid from our sorority just so that she could say she's in one. And the dumass girls in my sorority completely ignore this fact (eventhough they know of it) and treat her like little miss queen bee anyway. There are even rumors that she may be elected as our next President...the thought of that alone makes me want to drop letters right now. But I guess that's what you get when you're good friends with half of the executive committee. And the vice president...I really have nothing against her, but I do get a little bit of a phony vibe every once in awhile. As for the rest of the cliques within the sorority, they're so blatant that it makes me sick. If you don't like my ass, then why did you give me an invitation to join? My only friend in the sorority right now is Jenn...and even her other friends within the sorority make me sick. Her one friend Ashley in particular, is the biggest bitch around. The girl just decided not to like me upon meeting me without even getting to know me...but that's okay, she can kiss my ass, for all I care. I don't even consider the girl a "sister," that's how much I can't stand her. Whenever I attend some sort of event with the girls, I don't even have one ounce of fun with them...I just don't connect with them in anyway, and none of them really try to get to know me better as a person, so the feeling must be mutual. Oh, and lets not forget the countless amount of shit each clique talks about the other. Oh, I can go on and on about that. I have hung out at least once with every clique, so I get to hear everything they have to say about each other...and it aint pretty. So that is the gist of my sorority. Don't we sound like one big happy family?haha NOT! Anyways, after May I never have to deal with them again, so that alone gives me a relief. And now, on another note...I think I finally realized why Jesse and I could never work out...the boy has no soul. Period. Yea, it took me a couple of months to figure it out, but now that I have, it makes so much sense now! Even while hanging out with him, there was something about the tone of his voice, the way he spoke, and some of the "looks" that he would give me...that I could just tell that whatever vessel is within his chest is just ice cold. He seems like the type of person that doesn't really care how others feel, as long as he's satisfied. He may be "cool" with a person, but it doesn't mean he likes them. I mean, it is pretty understandable that he would be this way, as he is a Libra...and most Libras I know have no soul. Sorry, but it's the truth. So thinking about that made me realize...why should I have a soul? There are so many people in this world who don't, so why should I waste my time caring when no one cares for me? Exactly. Thus is my new philosophy on life; FUCK everybody! If you're on fire on the side of a road, better hope that i'm not the one that sees it...