Dani's Rants: A Rant on...some guy

Ah, here we go again...Fortunately, it has been awhile since I did any kind of rant on a member of the opposite sex. As previously mentioned, my libido is practically gone mostly because I know damn well that if after 24 years nothing has happened, then nothing WILL happen!...But of course, every once in awhile the feelings come back a little...especially if I happen to get a little bit of attention...from an attractive guy. So here's what happened; a couple of days ago I went out to see the movie 'Think Like a Man' with some co-workers...which was really nice for a change. After the movie I was planning on going to Applebee's to hang out a little bit and have a couple (ha!) glasses of wine...my co-workers agreed to go with me, so we all went (it was only about three of us). So we are there just hanging out and our waiter comes up and introduces himself to us...and turns out he is an ex-classmate of mine from High School. Now, when I was in High School me and this guy literally NEVER spoke! For one, we hung out with completely different crowds; he hung out with the loud crowd, and I...well I really didn't have a crowd. And second of all, I wasn't as comfortable with myself as I am now and therefore was extremely shy and on-guard all the time. So again, we saw each other around a lot and I had heard a lot about him but we NEVER spoke. So I see him at Applebees and recognize him right away. He, in the meanwhile, gives me a look like he has seen me before but is too uncomfortable to admit that he perhaps remembers me from High School. But i'm not going to lie, upon first seeing him my eyes lit up a bit...I just looked right at him with that 'hey, how you doin'?' look and he kinda looked down awkwardly in return...he is an attractive guy, i'm not going to lie. He's not very tall, but has a nice slender body and smooth, brown skin. His eyes are kind of slanted (which I find exceptionally sexy on black guys for some reason)and he has a slender, strong neck. For some reason i've begun to find a guy's neck exceptionally sexy...and his neck in particular is insane. I especially love when he talks and you can see his veins smoothly bulging out (he manages to pull THAT off!). So anyways yes, I was checking him out a little bit and I do think he noticed...and liked it. But he was still too bashful and ashamed to admit that he knew me...until I ordered my glass of wine, that is. At that point he asks to see my id and I right away answer "Come on, man YOU should know my age!" It is then that he says "hey, you look familiar...did you and I attend the same High School?"...DING DING DING!!!!! After that, all flowed pretty well. We joked with each other a lot and my co-workers and I ended up tipping him pretty well. One of my co-workers even went as far as saying that I should give him a try and that he seems to like me (she claims that she could tell by the way he nearly ran her over while rushing to bring my food over to me). Well...as i'm handing him his tip, he hands ME a blank receipt with his number on it...I COULD NOT believe it!...and actually, I found it kind of cute how he did it right in front of my co-workers...he was always one of those daring types of guys. Anyways, the following evening I texted him and we actually had a nice conversation. I appreciated the fact that he didn't text me back 1-2 word statements...he actually seemed interested enough in the conversation to text me his complete thoughts. I liked that. I know that at the end of the day, he's a guy with a 'bad boy' history, and as far as I have seen he is not doing much with his life...but apart of me yearns for his attention. Since Monday he hasn't texted me, and I don't want to text him again because I don't want to be the one constantly initiating our conversations...in my opinion, if he's generally interested in me, he has my number now, so he could text me himself! That's how guys operate. If they really and genuinely care about a person or a relationship, then they'll do whatever it takes to have it! I learned that lesson the hard way...Anyways, so he hasn't texted me since and i'm not even about to text him...so basically, if I never hear from him again...then well, that is how it stays. But at the same time a part of me wishes I could hear from him more often...just to know that there's someone out there (a bad boy at that) that wants me. When we texted on Monday he was telling me about his in-between career as a battle rapper and told me about some videos he had posted on You Tube (which he also bragged have received over 1,000 views)...and i'm not going to lie, I have been watching some of his videos. Do I think he tries too hard to portray himself as 'hood'? Yes. Do I feel he should stop hanging out with and acting like ghetto trash? Absolutely. But does that 'image' still turn me on in a way? Guilty. I am especially struck at his intensity whenever he tries to throw an insult at his 'opponent'. I was watching one of his videos, and there's actually a part in it where he gets so heated that he very swiftly takes his cap off ( and again the veins bulge out of his neck, haha)...and i'm not going to lie, at that point I could have sworn that I came on myself...yea. I feel like sometimes I watch his videos to maintain some sort of connection to him somewhow...but NOTHING compares to the real thing...and that is the unfortunate part. Either way, it just amazes me how one cute bad boy handing me his number rearranges my entire week! I hope to put this all behind me...cause realistically, I guy like him and a lady like myself CANNOT date each other. Not only that, but if I never hear from him again, what other choice do I have but to carry on with my boring life?