Thursday, Apr. 30, 2009

Currently: Can't believe it's practically May already...where the hell did April go??? Anyways, i'm feeling better for the most part but still have a killer cough. I'm hoping that that ceases a little bit by tommorrow. Tommorrow's going to be a kind of busy day for me. I have my Literature Review presentation bright and early in the morning. After that, I am hanging out in the library to work on my Neurorehab research paper...which I still hadn't started writing yet. Fuck. After that I am working from noon to 2 and hoping to get more of my Neurorehab paper done during that time. After that I am going back to the apartment and crashing for a little bit. Later on, I plan on going out with some of my friends to, where else? Thee 'ole Bar.Haha. I'm hoping to have a good time, cause this week wasn't really the best for me. And...that is pretty much it.

Mood: Frustrated.

Want of the day: To be productive...that is all that I ask of myself.

Wednesday, Apr. 29, 2009

Currently: Still sick. Last night I couldn't sleep at all because I kept waking up in a coughing fit. I charged on anyway and went to class at 8 this morning. After that, I had psych/soc. lecture and then lab, where we did a cooking activity. Lucky for me, I got to sit out during that activity because I am sick and no one wanted me breathing on their food.Haha. Anyways, at the library now. Just finished up my power point slides for my group presentation on Friday. For now I guess i'm just going to mess around until around 2:50 when I have to go meet up with one of my sisters to sign off a sheet. After that i'm going back to the apartment and napping. Later on I may or may not go to a Mr. and Ms. pageant that my school is having. I hope I won't still be so sick that I won't be able to make it. Anyways, I also plan on continuing to work on my Neurorehab paper. I haven't been able to get that much of it done because I had been so sick, so hopefully tonight i'll make more progress. Bleh.

Mood: Bleh.

Want of the day: To feel better.

Tuesday, Apr. 28, 2009

Currently: Still sick...and I have a paper to write. I'm hoping to get around to it...once i'm done eating. Early senioritis? I think so.

monday, apr. 27, 2009

currently: sick as a dog with work to do. fuck.

Saturday, Apr. 25, 2009

Currently: Last night was a blast! First off...Greek Dance. It went well. I did make a few very minor mistakes, but otherwise, our dance was kickass and we got a lot of praise for it. But of course, we did not win first place for the dance. Expectedly, the Pikes and ASA's got first place, which is BULLSHIT, cause not only did the back portion of the stage collapse while they were dancing, but they also kept having "technical difficulties" with their music and ended up going half way into their dance and then having to start all over. I shouldn't be surprised of this blatant unfairness. Pikes always get first place, no matter who they're grouped with...and it pisses me off! I hate favoritism, and this is just THEE definition of that...but anyways, I digress. After the dance, I went back to my apartment, freshened up a little and then went out with my friends/ex-roomies and my roomate. We first went to a Sports Bar and that was a lot of fun...I got to talk to this very attractive guy here at school who i've been gawking at since freshman year. He's really cool. He even gave me a hug later on in the night. After that, we went to the club and that was just insane. SO many people were there...which makes sense, as the past two days have been BEAUTIFUL. Anyways, I danced with a few creepy guys and then finally I got to dance with a super sexy Dominican guy. His name is Alfredo. That boy can dance! He dances so well, dancing with him made it look like I could dance, when I was just following what he was doing.haha. He liked it though...and I told him that I find him AND his accent very sexy.haha. He thinks i'm sexy too...so, long story short, we got each other's numbers and he texted me this morning asking what i'll be doing later on. I told him I didn't know yet (cause I really don't) and that I will text him later on to let him know where I am and what i'm doing. So...we shall see! I am planning on going out with my friends again tonight, so I hope that he and I get to hang out. I need some action, and soon enough.
P.S. I finished my portion of my Thesis group's Literature review at work today...all I really have to work on is the conclusion, which shouldn't be that bad. I am proud of myself.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To have a great time later on.

Friday, Apr. 24, 2009

Currently: Oh boy, oh boy, my crazy day begins. I am currently in the library working on my paper. In a few, i'm about to head out to pick up my check, cash it and then go to the Sports Store as well as the Dollar store to purchase some clothes that i'm going to need for tonight's performance as well as some things that I need for myself. After that, I'm going back to the apartment to drop everything off as well as paint the shirt I plan on wearing for the dance. After that, I am working 'til 3. While at work I hope to get more of my paper done. After work, I may get something to eat and then i'm going back to the apartment to practice a little bit by myself, shower/get dressed...and then practice some more. I am then meeting up with the girls at around 5:30 and we will be doing another run-through practice of our dance. After that...off to Greek dance!haha. I'm so nervous, but doing a good job at hiding it. See what happens. I'm sure it'll be a good time.

Mood: Anxious.

Want of the day: To do well in tonight's performance.

Thursday, Apr. 23, 2009

Currently: Ugh! I'm fried. Stayed up almost all night practicing dance and overslept this morning. Because of that I was unable to go to work and had to e-mail my work Supervisor about when I can come make up the time...it's only an hour anyway. Spent the rest of this morning and a portion of this afternoon (up until now) reading articles for my Research literature review. I'm going to start actually writing the paper once i'm done typing this journal entry. I'm hoping to squeeze in a little nap time today, cause honestly i'm still pretty tired. I have dance practice again later on at 9:30 after Greek Wheel of Fortune. I'm hoping that we don't have another extremely late night. I mean, my group's portion of the dance is all done and ready to go...we just need to practice on making our moves more "crisp." Tommorrow is going to be pretty hectic. We will actually be performing our dance in front of the entire Greek community, and i'm not going to lie, it's a little bit nerve racking...even more so than Homecoming was, for some reason. *sigh* I have to get through this.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: To continue to get work done, nap a little and continue to do well on our dance.

Wednesday, Apr. 22, 2009

Currently: I've got a busy evening ahead of me, folks. In a few, i'm going to head out to the Concert Band's Spring Concert...my roomate invited me (she plays the flute for the band) and a guy that i'm school-girl crushing on plays drums for the band, so why not?lol. After that's over, i'm going to try to finally begin working on my literature review for my Research class. After that, I have dance practice from 11-ish to God knows how late at night. I am hoping to get a ride home tonight, cause last night's walk home was creepy...yes I am paranoid, SUE me! And that is all.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To have fun at the concert, finally start getting work done, have a great dance practice (yet again) and hopefully not get raped tonight. Whew, that was a lot!

Tuesday, Apr. 21, 2009

Currently: I'm tired. I don't want to do anything. Is Greek Week over yet, so I can move on with my life? Haha...I wish. Practice last night went pretty well. Tonight before practice we are all going to some mandatory guest speaker...and i'm really not in the mood. Gag me. As one can tell, my mood has surpassed the "blah" point...that is how tired I am...and i'm still sore!=(

Mood: Bleh.

Want of the day: To have a good practice tonight.

Sunday, Apr. 19, 2009

Currently: Greek Week has officially begun. We started practicing for the "Greek Dance" portion of the week...and of course, I suck ass.Haha. A lot of people in my sorority find it hilarious that i'm black and can't dance for the life of me...but hey, it's true; i'm a black girl who can't fucking dance. Oh well, deal with it! Doesn't mean I won't practice like a fiend though. I would like to prove to myself that I can conquer a hip hop dance routine if I wanted to...my second left foot will just have to get used to it!Haha. Thus starts a ridiculous week for myself. I feel bad, cause i've kind of been slacking on my Research literature review...I really have to do something about this. What i'm planning on doing is tommorrow after classes and before and after counseling i'm going to try to start seriously working on my lit. review as well as my Neurorehab paper...which reminds me, I really should e-mail my Neurorehab professor after i'm done typing this to get permission from him to do my paper on Autism. If he says no then that'll put even more stress on my already stressed out behind=( Oh bummer. Anyways, hopefully i'll get enough schoolwork done tommorrow. I have to be at the Greek dodgeball tournament at 6:00 and will be practicing dance right after that...i'm also hoping that i'm a little smoother with dance moves. The pressure is on.

Mood: Anxious and stressed.

Want of the day: To get enough schoolwork done tommorrow and do better at dancing.

Saturday, Apr. 18, 2009

Currently: What a beautiful day it is!!!! For now I am stuck at work, but soon enough I will be out enjoying the sun. Anyways, last night was okay. I stepped out for a little bit and went to a few Bars then went home. I was a little disappointed because none of the Bars that I went to were playing any "party" music eventhough it was a Friday night. Come on, people! I digress. At least I did something, right? This morning was ridiculous though. My roomate decides to accidentally burn some of her french toast (I know it was an accident, but c'mon! watch your frickin toast!) and set off our entire stack's fire alarm. I was so embarassed for the girl. When campus police finally got to us and found out that the smoke signals were coming from our apartment, they were pretty upset with her...and I could tell she was about ready to break down. Minutes later, fire fighters show up and encourage us to open up all the windows in our apartment. Now, I didn't mind having to do that, but then as I am at work she sends me a text message saying that she's out of town and will see me tommorrow...with NO mention of closing the windows whatsoever. So now I am pretty anxious and worried. I mean, I have VALUABLES in that apartment that can possibly be snatched at any moment cause miss ding-bat decides to just leave town with every window in our apartment open to the public. I seriously question that girl's common sense sometimes...and she thinks she's a frickin genius! ha! If a retarded cow is considered a genius, maybe she has a chance, but...AHHHHH, people! And that is why I am leaving work early today. I already told the girl that is working with me and she doesn't mind it at all. Hey, at least that gives me an excuse to get out of this hell-hole extra early on a beautiful saturday day. Just maybe. Anyways, also plan on doing some laundry and then i'm meeting up with my little later on to eat. See what happens.

Mood: Okay...but nervous.

Want of the day: To return to an un-disheveled apartment and have a good day.

Friday, Apr. 17, 2009

Currently: Last night was a lot of fun. Went out and had quite a lot to drink. When I got home, I started feeling kind of dizzy and then I passed out in front of my laptop. I then had a dream that I was throwing up all over the place and completely messed up my bedroom carpet...then I woke up and there was no vomit anywhere. Isn't it funny that the same things seem to happen to me when i'm really drunk? Haha. I mean, that was the second time that I randomly passed out in front of my laptop and the second time I had a dream that I was throwing up profusely and then woke up to no vomit anywhere...interesting. Anyways, I ended up not going to class this morning cause I woke up with a hell of a hangover. I did go to work though. I also got paid today, so that made me happy. Anyways, about to step out to the Bar again. My roomate just got inducted into the Political Science Honor Society and was appointed Secretary, so she's in a REALLY good mood tonight and is really wanting to get out...so why not? Haha. You know I never say no to alcohol...I just have to pace myself tonight, that's all.

Mood:Good.

Want of the day: To continue the weekend fun.=)

Thursday, Apr. 16, 2009

Currently: Yesterday I was pissed off all day for no apparent reason...what's new? Haha. Fortunately though, today I am feeling a lot better. The weather is beautiful. It is sunny outside and the temperature is just right. Right now I am at the library trying to pass a good amount of time before I go get lunch and then go to counseling. After counseling, i'm going straight back to my apartment to continue killing time. I am hoping later on to go to the Bar and just have a good time. If I do go out tonight it will be my first wild night out in a while. I'm just anxiously awaiting what is to unfold later on...it better be good, or else I will be pissed off again...and we don't want THAT to happen. Oh yea, and i'm also being a little more productive today than I was yesterday. I actually started reading another one of my articles for my Research literature review, printed out another article for my Neurorehab research paper and am half way done with my Mental Health in the Media power point presentation for psych/soc. Not bad for someone who is seriously dying for a drink right now.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To have mucho fun later on.

Tuesday, Apr. 14, 2009

Currently: Continued to be a lazy bum today. Classes resume tommorrow. And that is about it.

Mood: Amused.

Want of the day: *shrugs*

Monday, Apr. 13, 2009

Currently: I'm back! I haven't really been motivated to update cause nothing really has been going on...I did have a good time with Van during our little sleep over. We stayed up practically all night talking. It was cool. I also put that i'm "in a relationship" on facebook eventhough i'm not cause I was that bored. Haha. Otherwise, that has been it. I think I ate too much cause i'm too full for my own good. Oops. I am also rocking out to "Boom Boom Boom Boom (I want you in my room)" by the Venga Boys.haha. I'm also craving to hear the song "Tobi" by NYC street performer Thoth...it is SUCH a sad and emotional song, but I love it. They played it at the end of his documentary (yes, he has a documentary) and tears almost came to my eyes. Just beautiful. So those are my plans until classes start up again. A few people came back from break today, so that's how I know that the party's over. Oh well.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To continue finding ways to amuse myself.

Saturday, Apr. 11, 2009

Currently: Just hanging out in the apartment with nothing to do.haha. Earlier today I went out to pick up some money (cause I was dead broke)and then went to McDonalds and got a double cheese burger and 10 pc. chicken Mcnuggets...yummy! Anyways, later on i'm going over to hang out with my friend Van. Tonight we are having a girls' night out...at home at her place.haha. Of course, I would have loved to go to the Bar, but since she's not 21 yet, that is not happening, so that is what we're doing. While there, we plan on ordering some food, watching movies and just chilling out. I plan on sleeping over there as well. See how that goes. At least I will be doing something, right?

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To have a good time later on.

friday, apr. 10, 2009

currently: there's nothing to see here, people. keep moving on.

Wednesday, Apr. 8, 2009

Currently: It is the beginning of Easter Break...and I decided to stay here at school for it. BAD choice!!! It is so lonely and boring here right now. Who knew so many people would actually go home for this break??? Crazy. I guess i'm going to have to find ways to keep myself amused for the next week...once again, BAD choice. Oh well. Today went well, otherwise. Did my Assertiveness presentation earlier today and it went quite well. I also took my Research class exam this morning and don't really feel that I did too well on it...I just couldn't study all that much cause I put most of my time and energy on the Assertiveness presentation and my Activities File. Thankfully, i'm not the only person in the class who feels that my performance on this morning's exam wasn't really up to par, so maybe out professor will curve the exam?haha. Anyways, that is it for me, for now. See what happens. Bleh.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To find something interesting to do...safely.

Tuesday, Apr. 7, 2009

Currently: These past few days have been quite busy for yours truly. Luckily, my Neurorehab professor decided to give me one last chance to pass my lab practical and I did it! *phew* He really had me. On the downside, it is snowing some over here. I swear, it's like the snow will never end. Anyways, I have to get to finishing my Activities File now. I just finished up my Assertiveness presentation, so i'm on the right track! I'm being productive for once, haha. I'll most likely be up all night studying for my Research test though. Boo, bummer.

Mood: Alright.

Want of the day: To continue being super productive!

Sunday, Apr. 5, 2009

Currently: I had a great time at formal last night, but reality has just hit me that the fun is over and that this week is going to suck ass royally. I have to meet up with my Neurorehab professor and department supervisor to discuss my status in the program. I also have a Research test, psych/soc. Assertiveness (ha!) presentation and my psych/soc Activities File is due on wednesday. I know one thing's for sure, tommorrow I will be working non-stop. For now though, i'm going to start studying for Research a little bit and then call it a night.

Mood: Crappy.

Want of the day: To at least start studying for Research.

Saturday, Apr. 4, 2009

Currently: Right now I feel like I am slowly dying inside.

Had some fun with my little last night.

Formal is this evening.

See what happens.

Thursday, Apr. 2, 2009

Currently: Still alive. Just took my big Neurorehab exam and feel that I did decently on it. Now the only thing i'm worried about is re-taking that lab practical and passing it. I saw my professor and he told me that he will let me know when I can come in tommorrow or today (I think) to re-take it. I actually didn't even hear him that well because there were still people taking the test and he was trying to whisper, so i'm not even all that sure of what he was trying to say. Crap. I guess i'll have to e-mail him and ask to clarify. I also have to e-mail my work supervisor to tell him that I won't be able to work on Saturday with that tea party and Formal going on. ...and then I have to go on my sorority's website to access officer resources so that I can send in the names and social security numbers of all our new initiates. Bleh. On the bright side, I do have a date to Formal. My sister Deanna (the same girl I went to homecoming with) is willing to be my companion. We both smoke, so it'll work out pretty well. My Big sister is also going to be at formal and i'm excited to see her again. Pretty much, i'm trying to lighten up for this weekend...it's going to be hard though, with all the stress that is taking over me. Anyways, in a few, i'm going to go get something to eat and then go get my hair and eyebrows done. After that i'm going to continue to run errands and hopefully squeeze in some practice time. I am so nervous. Tommorrow is going to either make or break me. Help.

Mood: Scared.

Want of the day: To pass my lab practical and be fine.

Wednesday, Apr. 1, 2009

Currently: It's a nice day today...but unfortunately, i'm spending it being miserable. I am extremely worried right now because yesterday, as noted in my short, pissed off entry, I failed my Neurorehab practical and have to retake it either tommorrow or friday. This wouldn't be that much of a problem, if my lab professor didn't install an only one second chance rule. So pretty much, if I fail again tommorrow or friday, that is it. No more chances of a re-take, no more practicing...I would completely fail the entire course and would have to take it over. And I really can't afford to be a year, or even a semester behind. Thus far, I already owe enough tuition money and having an extra year or semester would just add on to that. And what's even worse with this situation is that I have a HUGE neurorehab exam to study for tommorrow, and am thus putting all of my concentration on that instead of practicing. I really don't know what to do anymore. I mean, I practiced as many times as I could, and this still happens to me. It's not like I haven't tried, cause i am trying my hardest. It is just so hard juggling all of this school work plus sorority stuff and getting a little. All of this is taking a toll on me. And what's worse is the girl that took the practical along with me didn't even practice much but still passed...WTF? I guess some pepople just have it and I clearly don't. And I think my lab professor has had enough of me, cause last semester I also kept having to re-take Kinesiology practicals. He could only do so much and he probably feels that i'm the one whose slacking, when i'm not! Being depressed is also playing a role in this, as I haven't been very motivated to do anything lately. Maybe occupational therapy itself just isn't for me and I should try to switch majors?...but it's too late for THAT as well! Woe is me.

Mood: Very Sad.

Want of the day: To be productive and study well and pass my practical on my second try.