Tuesday, Dec. 30, 2008

Currently: So today was chocked full o'nothing! My cousin slept over last night and since there's no food in this damn house, I took her out to McDonald's this morning to get something to eat...I then went to the supermarket to get myself some ice cream. But I am still starving! I really hope that my mother does some grocery shopping tonight. We shall see.For the remainder of today, up until now, I was asleep. Yea. So needless to say, I feel like a sack of potatoes. Anyways, chilling out right now. I really don't know what to do with myself. Good thing that my friend is coming over tommorrow and will be sleeping over, I have been just too bored. Hopefully tomorrow's New Years Eve festivities won't get me down like they have been doing every year for the past five or so years!

Mood: Bored and Blah.

Want of the day: *shrugs* This is my second in a row, isn't it?

Monday, Dec. 29, 2008

Currently: So craigslist was (expectedly) a complete dud for me. I got a lot of emails and offers to which I didn't reply to cause the guys sounded like psychos or worse. I did manage to find two guys though, whom I was able to reply to without completely worrying about them being psychos...and even they turned out to be under my league. The first guy's name is Skyler and he was in the army. Things seemed okay with him at first until I called him last night and he was practically begging me to drive over to his apartment to "hang out"...when I barely knew the guy to begin with! He complained that I just wasn't willing to take a chance and that he feels sorry for me because I am too shy and will always have a boring life because of that...sorry mister, but i'm not going to take a "chance" and end up regretting it big time...and I could tell that with him that would have definitely happened. So needless to say, i'm definitely not talking to that idiot anymore. And then there was another guy named Michael. He seemed decent at first, until he revealed to me that he was a 28 year old virgin...not only that, but after awhile I just got a wimp vibe from him. He seems like the pitiful little nerd type...not that there's anything wrong with that, I just don't think that a guy like that is for me. So I just deleted my craiglist ad. I should have known that this online dating thing wouldn't work out again...I mean, it hadn't worked out the last 8,000 times I had tried it, so why would it work out now? Anyways, moving on, today wasn't so bad. I went over to the pharmacy to buy a very very last minute present for my cousin who is visiting tonight. I then went to the Salon to wash my hair and then came back home and took a very long nap...and here I am now. Don't know what else to do. I'm bored.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: *shrugs*

Saturday, Dec. 27, 2008

Currently: Today was a crazy day in many ways. First off, I drove over to the bank to pick up some money, and then I went to the smoke shop to pick up some cigarettes. From there, I went to my best friend's house to pick her up and go to the mall, since she had wanted to hang out today. Traffic was ridiculous today and people were being really dumb for no reason, which is what made the ride over to her place and then to the mall particularly insane. We didn't stay at the mall too long though, because she had to be back home on time to go to some dinner party with her aunt. So after the mall, she let me drop her off at some random Burger King joint to meet up with her aunt and then I drove home. Now here is where insane bullshit part two comes in. As soon as I parked my car, our asshole neighbor comes out and tells me, in an extremely rude manner, that I should no longer park in front of his house and that I have my own house to park in front of and should do so there...when the old cunt CLEARLY sees that I have no room to park in front of my house because father dearest has his huge ass mini van parked there...and getting him to put the thing back in the driveway would cause him to throw a fucking hissy fit. So I went back into my house in a rush, forgetting to pull up one of the back windows cause I was that pissed off, and told my mother what he had said. Father dearest then goes outside and finally moved the van over some, allowing more room for my car. People. I swear. Which is why I am so glad that humans mean absolutely nothing to me anymore. *sigh* But other than that, I can say I had a good day. I put in a dating ad on Craigslist. Haha. And good news is, I already have plenty of suitors. Let's see where that exploit will take me. Anyways, about to go call it a night in a few. Good night!

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: None.

Friday, Dec. 26, 2008

Currently: Yesterday was okay. Just hung out all day at home and celebrated Festivus.Haha. If one does not know what this incredible holiday is, it is a holiday invented by Frank Costanza (father of Seinfeld character George Costanza) as an alternative to Christmas. It goes against spending hundreds of dollars at the mall for gifts and christmas trees and is celebrated not with a christmas tree, but with a metal pole. Other festivus festivities (hahaha) include my personal favorite "the airing of grievances," where you are given a chance to complain to friends and family members about why they piss you off, and then the "feats of strength," where a volunteer tries to pin another person to the floor and until then festivus isn't over. It's the ideal holiday in my opinion, especially given the fact that it's the type of holiday that leaves one no choice but to get drunk off of cheap American beer. Haha. I didn't get drunk last night though, and listened to the "festivus holiday song"...I didn't even know there was such a thing! But i'd take that song over "silent night" anyday! But I couldn't do the "feats of strength" cause, well, i'm a weakeling, and if I were challenged to pin someone festivus would never end...not that I would mind that. Haha. But luckily for me, father dearest didn't act up or complain last night. At least that was another good thing that came out of this holiday season. Anyways, hung out at home all day today. After awhile I got so bored I decided to go for a little drive around the town. It was cool. And that was it. Right now i'm waiting for some delicious spaghetti and meatballs...my favorite!...next to Chinese chicken of course. So now let's see...Halloween down, Thanksgiving down, Christmas down, Hanukah will be done in a few days, Kwanzaa just started...so that means we only have New Years to worry about, and this crazy three months of holidays will be over! After that, it will be on to Valentine's Day (boo! Worst so-called holiday ever!) and my personal favorite, St. Patty's day! Haha. I really hope I do something for St. Patrick's Day this year...if I don't, then I will be one grumpy person. Ok, well (in Roger a la "Rent" fashion) good night!

Mood: Alright, but still a little bored. haha.

Want of the day: None.

Wednesday, Dec. 24, 2008

Currently: Holy crap! I almost forgot what today's day is. You know your mind is somewherelse when you forget what day it is. Oh, what a shame. But anyways, it's christmas eve...and I really don't care. I haven't really been enthusiastic towards this whole christmas thing since...god knows how long. I'm just not interested. I used to be one of those people who looked forward to christmas solely because I received gifts on that day. But i'm older and wiser now, and am the type of person who'd rather give than receive. Receivers are just materialistic people to me. Sorry, but that is how I see it. With that being said, i'm just hanging around until the holidays are over. I just took two shots of that coconut rum.Haha. It's a pretty delicious drink. I should purchase it more often. And that is it really. I'm bored. *yawn*

Mood: Bored out of my mind.

Want of the day: To amuse myself somehow.

Tuesday, Dec. 23, 2008

Currently: Today has been...well, today. Earlier today I went over to the bank to deposit my check. That's pretty much all I did. Haha. Father dearest is borrowing my car today, since his two piece of junk cars aren't working. So right now i'm just hanging out and waiting around until my mother comes home with some chinese chicken for me. Looking forward to that. And...not too sure what i'll be doing after that. Today hasn't been necessarily bad though, just really boring. Ha.

Mood: Whatever.

Want of the day: That I find something to keep me occupied for the rest of this break.

Monday, Dec. 22, 2008

Currrently: All of my semester grades are finally posted. I got a B in Neuroscience, B in Kinesiology, A in psych/soc., C in statistics and a B in Medical Science. Thus, my semester GPA is a 3.0!!! That made me happy. But in all seriousness, it was my psych/soc. grade that helped to boost my grade. If i'd have gotten a B in that class, my semester grade would have been under a 3.0 and that would have sucked. Anyways, i'm just happy that I made it past this last semester alive. Next semester should be slightly easier on me, as I am taking 15 credits worth of classes instead of 18. As for today, it has been a pretty nice and relaxing day. This morning I drove over to the mall and was finally able to get my christmas shopping in. It was a little bit of a hassle driving into and out of the mall, as the mall was packed this morning. I obviously wasn't the only one doing some last minute shopping. Haha. It was nice though. I got some cute (and...er...a little expensive) things for my brother, mother and grandmother. As for father dearest, he's only getting a card this year. Haha. Hey, at least I was nice enough to give him a little something. As far as i'm concerned, he deserves nothing! Anyways, after shopping, I drove back home and took the longest nap in the world. My best friend wanted to hang out today, but for some reason I wasn't really in the mood to hang out with her, so I lied and told her that my head and stomach hurt. Haha. I'm evil. But not to worry, we will definitely hang out at least once during this winter break. I do have some coconut rum, afterall, that must be finished before I go back to school, so i'll need her help with accomplishing that.Haha. And that is it for today, I guess. Right now i'm just waiting to eat something and then i'm going to continue to chill out a little bit and then i'm going to bed. Relaxing never felt this good.

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: Accomplished.

Sunday, Dec. 21, 2008

Currently: Didn't do much today. Went and got my eyebrows waxed, then ran an errand for my mother and bought some booze.=) Haha. You know the deal. Anyways, just chilling out for now. In a few i'm going to go watch my "Step Brothers" DVD. After that, not sure of what i'm doing until I go to sleep. Tommorrow I plan on doing some holiday shopping. The weather should be holding up for that one. Today was not bad at all. Anyways, i'm outie.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: None.

Saturday, Dec. 20, 2008

Currently: Spent most of today taking CPR classes. It was okay. I just didn't like waking up at 7 in the morning for it.haha. But everything's fine in that area. Got my certification and don't have to worry about any more Fieldwork 1 requirements...I hope, at least. Anyways, chilling out and hanging around right now. Hopefully tommorrow morning, if weather permits, i'll be able to quickly go to the mall and do some holiday shopping. We'll see, I guess.
P.S. I passed statistics, yay!=)

Mood: Just here.

Want of the day: None.

Friday, Dec. 19, 2008

Currently: I am obviously home. Yesterday I didn't really get to write in this thing cause I was too busy either stressing out still or trying to calm down. Anyways, some of my final grades have already been posted and I have a B in every class, making my semester GPA so far a 3.0...but we all know that that stupid statistics class will take that grade down to like a 2.7. AHHHH! This will actually be the first time in my college career that I get a semester grade lower than a 3.2. That makes me sad. Nevertheless, my fingers are still crossed that I did well enough in statistics that I don't have to re-take the class. I've been feeling kind of depressed and lonely lately and I just know it won't get any better for me. I am so discouraged in myself and in this life. Something's got to give already!
P.S. It is snowing over here, which isn't making me feel any better.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: More like a want of the week: That I at least get a C in statistics.

Wednesday, Dec. 17, 2008

Currently: So I atomically BOMBED my statistics final last night. I'm still really upset about that. That's all i've been thinking about since last night. It was horrible. Luckily I was still able to finish up my Neuroscience paper and study for that final. I took that final this morning and think I did decently on it. I also found out my grade on the Kinesiology final...I got a B on it. I'm grateful for the fact that I at least passed all of my core subjects, but I don't like failure AT ALL and this statistics class alone is going to kill me altogether. I really would not want to take that class over. Nevertheless, I met up with my statistics professor minutes ago and I told her everything. She said that in order for me to get a C in the class, I need a 36% on the final...i'm really hoping I even got that. Like I said before, I atomically BOMBED that test. Hopefully, since she saw how worried and distressed I was over this final, she'll have mercy on me and grade my paper generously...but then again, I am expecting to do better than she estimated on our final review article (which was worth 40 points), so maybe that will carry me to a C? I don't know. You can only have so many chances in life and I may have just reached my limit. Nevertheless, my fingers will be crossed until final grades are posted. Anyways, sitting at the library now. I have work in an hour. After work i'm going to get something to eat and then i'm going to the payroll office to pick up my check and cash it. After that i'll be back in the apartment packing, as I leave for the mighty homeland tonight. I'm really really not in the mood for this 15 hour bus ride, but I guess I have to stop complaining and just get it over with. *sigh* Life.

Mood: Blah, anxious and nervous. I don't like it.

Want of the day: To not lose my mind...but it's slowly happening.

Tuesday, Dec. 16, 2008

Currently: Just got done taking my Kinesiology final. It was pretty easy. I also handed in my completed Kinesiology part 3 paper. So, with my little tally in mind, that means I have two more tests to take and one more paper to finish. I am really worried about the statistics final later on. I just spoke with my friend Katie who's in one of the other classes and she told me that the test was pretty hard. So needless to say, right now my stomach feels like it has just jumped into my throat. Yea, it's that bad. I'll try my best though. Right now I am sitting in the library working on my Neuroscience paper. After a few more paragraphs, i'm going to temporarily put the paper to the side to study for the statistics final from hell. In between I plan on getting something to eat and then I take the final at 4:30 this evening. Wish me luck on that. After i'm done with that mess, I plan on being back at the library finishing up whatever I have to finish up for the Neuroscience paper. After that's done i'm going straight back to the apartment to study for my neuroscience final tommorrow. Wish me luck on that too. It will be another long, tiring night of studying for myself. Last night I was up until 1 in the morning studying for Kinesiology. Break can't start any sooner. I leave tommorrow night, for chrissakes, and yet it seems ridiculously far away. All I can hope right now is that the next 24 hours go by fast so that my brain can finally respirate. I'm not going to lie though, I am a little apprehensive about going home. As recorded in this journal before, holidays never go right at my house...ever. And of course its all because fucking father dearest always feels the need to make holidays his bitch all day for no reason days. I hate that man, I swear. But I guess I have a game plan for this break; spend as much time in my car and outside of the house as possible. Haha. Let's hope that works out for me. Anyways, i'm outie.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That things go well...and that I don't bomb the statistics final later on.

Monday, Dec. 15, 2008

Currently: *sigh* I'm almost there! I finished up my psych/soc. final paper last night and turned that in this morning. I also just finished up my part 3 of the Kinesiology paper. Only ONE more paper to go for me!!! *taking deep breaths* The finish line is inches and inches away. Right now i'm sitting at work trying to gather enough energy to study, but of course that's not happening. I just get distracted too easily. I don't know, but once i'm done here at work i'm going to pick up my friend Cara's papers, get a snack at the dining hall and then drop the papers off to her at the library. While at the library, I also plan on typing up and printing the cover page and reference page for the Kinesiology paper and then i'm going back to the apartment and napping (you know the deal, haha). After I get up from hibernation, i'm then going to continue to study for my Statistics and Kinesiolgy finals which are both tommorrow. You have no idea how excited I am to be finally able to return that crappy "Elementary Statistics" textbook!Haha. It's all happening tommorrow.

Mood: Slightly anxious (should this call for a Ginuwine song?Haha)

Want of the day: To continue getting work done.

Sunday, Dec. 14, 2008

Currently: Did nothing last night but study and work on papers. I was invited to a small dinner party at my sister Tiffany's apartment, but I was so neck-deep in homework, I could not attend. I did try to squeeze in a little in-between, hour trip to the Bar though, but unfortunately for me, some people were being lame last night and didn't want to go with me. So I took an hour nap instead. That was actually the first time in my entire life that I took a nap at night. I woke back up at midnight to darkness in my room since my roomate had already gone to sleep at that point (cause she's that much of a lame bitch) and turned off all the lights. I turned the lights back on, cause, hey I had to. Didn't mean to be a bitch there. And then I continued studying Kinesiology and statistics notes. I then took a shower and officially went to sleep at 3 in the morning. I woke up today at 10 in the morning with a headache, got something to eat, and here I am now. I am finishing up my psych/soc. final paper and then i'm going to continue working on other papers and studying. In between I have our last AST business meeting of the semester to go to. After that the girls want to meet up again to go to our school's corny little late night pancake all you can eat thing, but I don't think i'm going. I have too much shit to do. And that shall be it.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To continue getting work done.

Saturday, Dec. 13, 2008

Currently: Still holding on for dear life. Just finished up my final statistics review article and sent that in to my professor. I'm just really proud of myself, cause I literally read this article and actually understood all the jargon and what the authors were trying to communicate with me! I understood the sample size processing and everything. I know, what a dork I am, but it's great cause once upon a time I would read these types of articles and have no idea what the hell the author was talking about and what all those numbers meant, and now I understand pretty well. Even in articles i've been reading for other classes I find myself recognizing words and saying "hey! I know what that means!" I guess those tuesday and thursday evening statistics classes were worthwhile afterall!Haha. Anyways, about to read a little hollywood gossip online for a little while and then back to work for me. I have to continue on my psych/soc. paper, as well as begin typing up my kinesiology and neuroscience papers. After that i'm going to continue studying for my neuroscience, statistics and kinesiology finals. Last night I actually stayed up until four in the morning studying and reading articles. So needless to say, i'm getting there. The finish line is oh so close!

Mood: Tired, but alright...I guess.

Want of the day: To continue getting work done.

Friday, Dec. 12, 2008

Currently: Blah, blah, blah. That is exactly how I feel right now. So much work for me to do in so little time. I haven't been feeling too hot either. My psych/soc. professor just approached me and feels that I need counseling, which I just refuse to settle for. I've tried counseling in the past and it had done absolutely nothing for m then, so I doubt that it would help any now. I think that i'm already too deep into my self-esteem/depression issues for counseling to pick up and help now. That's just the way it is. But i've learned that this is the way I am and always will be, so what's the point of abruptly trying to change myself yet again when I know that nothing's going to work no matter what I do? Anyways, i'm going to try to continue working on my psych/soc. paper (which I found out last night that I have to kind of start over) as well as my other two papers and studying. Last night I just couldn't do any of the latter. I just wasn't feeling well mentally and settled for just watching some tv and lying in bed...and listening to music, of course. But like I said, i'm going to try to make up for my laziness last night by putting myself to work today, but it's going to be hard.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To actually get work done.

Thursday, Dec. 11, 2008

Currently: Just took my Medical Science final and it was pretty easy. I say I got an A or a B on it. So I am officially done with that class!! Yes!! Three classes down and four more to go. Sitting in the library right now. After i'm done typing this up i'm going to work on my psych/soc. lecture final paper. After that, i'm going to get something to eat and then i'm going back to the apartment to study on a whole lot of crap. This afternoon I think i'm going to focus more on studying for our final statistics quiz today. I may decide to take a breather in between as well. I am so tired right now, you have no idea. I then have to go to statistics at 4:30. Today we are taking the quiz first thing and then the rest of the class will be dedicated to reviewing for our final which is next tuesday. I plan on really paying attention during this review session because there is so much for us to know for this test and I have really been slacking in that class. Anyways, after that I will be back at the library continuing work on the psych/soc. paper, as well as doing some more research for my other two papers. I'm then going back to the apartment to continue studying and continue working on my Kinesiology and Neuroscience papers. Oh, what a day I will be having. And it really doesn't help that this end of the semester is going ridiculously slow. It'll all end eventually though, and my poor brain can finally officially call a time out.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To get all that I want to done for the day.

Wednesday, Dec. 10, 2008

Currently: Re-took my Kinesiology final lab practical and passed, so i'm finally done with labs for this semester!! Yay! Now, I can concentrate more on other crap. Haha. Anyways, sitting at the library right now. I'll be here for another hour. After that I have work, where i'll be studying and officially starting my psych/soc. paper. I do have a rough draft of that written out, so i'm not that far behind. Haha. I really hope that I don't get distracted and find an excuse to not get work done. I have been doing that lately and it has been pretty bad. I don't know if it's cause I may have ADD or because it's the last week of the semester and my brain has officially called a "time out," but I must get my act together so I can get good grades put in my transcript. After work i'm getting something to eat, and depending on how much I get done at work I may or may not come back to the library. When I go back to my apartment later on, I plan on studying, studying and studying some more, too. And that is it. Very boring day for me. And it really doesn't help that it's starting to snow outside again. Sadness.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To get some work done and not be distracted.

Tuesday, Dec. 9, 2008

Currently: So my asshole lab professor approached me this morning asking when I can come to see him today. You know he loves that. We scheduled for 12:30 this afternoon. Blah! He's the last person I want to see right now, but oh well. I did my presentation this morning on sickle cell disease and I think it went great. So that's done and over with, at least. Right now I am sitting in the library. I figured I might as well pass some time around here until I meet up with asshole at 12:30. I'm just going to ask him to re-take the practical right then and there, cause i'm sick of this shit. After that, i'm not too sure what i'll be doing...most likely studying and continuing work on my million papers. At 1:45 i'm meeting with my group to go to Service Learning. Last time we worked with the kids again!!! That made me happy. So needless to say there is a 95% chance that we will be working with them again today. If we have to work with the adults today i'll be heartbroken. Anyways, after that i'll be back at the library doing the same old, and then I have statistics at 4:30. After statistics I have to go to the paper office to drop off that cd I used for my review that I have yet to return. And then after that i'll be at the library again and then back to the apartment. Tuesdays are never a doozy for me, so this was all expected. Oh well.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To pass my re-take and not have to strangle asshole professor to death. =)

Monday, Dec. 8, 2008

Currently: Didn't have such a great weekend. Failed my lab practical on friday again and my professor wants me to meet up with him sometime this week to practice and then to re-take the test. If this were one of those situations where I didn't study and fucked up everytime I practiced, I would understand, but this is just the opposite. I studied my ass off and practiced my ass off with him, my friend Hillary and my lab partners Kate and Kelly, and every practice session went just fine, and yet I take the lab practical and STILL fail????!!! This has all led me to believe that that bastard of a professor is doing this on purpose because he does not want me to succeed. No, he wants me to keep repeating labs and spend more and more of my tuition money until I decide to just give it up. I know people, I know what he's thinking and he's being really shady right now. Nevertheless, I was angry all weekend, but did a pretty good job of masking my anger. And it wasn't even just the lab-thing that got me all emotionally screwed up. I started thinking about other things in my life that was and still is going shitty, and i'm not going to lie, all of that put together really screwed up my mood. I don't know anymore. Life is just so cruel...and I know life is cruel to everybody, but sometimes I feel like it is most cruel to me. I could be wrong. Anyways, still at work. I did some studying for my Medical Science final which is on thursday. I also looked over my powerpoint presentation for tommorrow's Medical Science class. Right now i'm trying to get my psych/soc. final paper started...but I just can't. I don't know if it's because the damn thing is so long or that i'm still depressed, but right now I have no ambition. I'm going to try though to atleast start it. Once i'm done here i'm going straight to my apartment and crash for like an hour and then get back up and continue to study for finals as well as try to continue on my psych/soc. paper. My body hasn't been feeling too well lately. Sometimes when I walk I feel woozy and get the feeling that i'm going to collapse at any minute. This morning while walking over to work, in particular, I couldn't even look down the block without feeling nauseous. Needless to say, all of this stress is really killing me. I must keep pushing on. I have a week and a half of this semester to go.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To get work done and feel better.

sunday, dec. 7, 2008

currently: i don't know. i'm too upset to study.

Friday, Dec. 5, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library now. Just came from cashing my check and had to walk through the crappy snow. This all makes me regret that I didn't apply to go to school in Miami.=( But anyways, about to continue studying for my big final Kinesiology lab practical, which is in two hours. Last night I met up with my lab partners and went through everything and it was a successful meeting, so hopefully today I won't fuck this up like I did the last time. Anyways, after that one of my lab partners plans on treating me and our other lab partner to some Chinese, so i'm mucho excited about that. It is, afterall, amongst my all time favorite foods. After that, I guess i'll be back at the apartment crashing for a good while. I was invited to a ZBT party, so I may go tonight. Haha. Isn't it sad that i'm 21 years old and still am willing to go to frat parties? Haha. I guess i'll never get sick of them until I leave college...or until I start seeing way too many freshman who are seemingly decades younger than me and decide to call it a day. Haha. So yea, those are my plans for today. Wish me luck!

Mood: Tired...I could just feel my body giving up.

Want of the day: To do well on that lab practical and earn a Chinese lunch and a night of partying!Haha.

Thursday, Dec. 4, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library right now. I decided to skip out on a little review session that my Medical Science teacher is currently having for our final next week. I mean, to me it's pretty pointless because she already told us all that's going to be on the test, and I feel confident that i'll know all this material well enough to get a decent grade on the test. So, there you go. In a few i'm going to get something to eat and since we don't have any psych/soc. lectures from here on in, i'm going straight to my apartment afterwards. While there, I plan on studying and reviewing for my kinesiology practical as well as a statistics quiz that i'm having later on. Last night I was able to practice and go through all that will be on the practical tommorrow, so for now I think i'll be fine in that arena. Anyways, tonight I plan on getting together with one of my lab partners, who happens to live right in my apartment building (how convenient!)to do a last minute run-through of what we need to know. I plan to do that after statistics. So, other than all of that, there (thankfully) isn't much more planned for me for today. I'm winding down, ya'll!!! And thankfully, my stress level is decreasing more and more everyday.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: To get a good amount of studying done and be confident that I will do well tommorrow afternoon.

Wednesday, Dec. 3, 2008

Currently: So i'm sitting at work, minding my p's and q's when all of a sudden this ugly bitch with an accent walks in and demandingly asks me to drop a book off at some lady's office in the back. So I walk over to the back to see if the lady's there and lo and behold, her door is closed. I do not have the keys or the right to break into the woman's office, so I go back out and tell ugly bitch that the lady is not there and that there was no way I could drop the book in her office for her. As I say this, she gets this nasty look on her face and demands to speak to somebodyelse. So I go back and get one of our technicians out to talk to her and as soon as he appears ugly bitch is all of a sudden pleasant and politely asks him if he would be able to drop the book off at the lady's office. He says that he is able to, and after all is said and done she thanks him and says nothing to me. Discrimination, much? PEOPLE!!!! And all of this over a stupid book. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! But anyways, about to leave work soon. Getting something to eat and then crashing a little bit, then going over to my friend's apartment to do some practicing for the Kinesiology practical on friday. Gag me, please?

Mood: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Want of the day: To have a productive night.

Tuesday, Dec. 2, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library right now. Thankfully, I was able to finish up part 6 of the Medical Science paper and turn that in. But unfortunately, I now have a part 3 of the Kinesiology paper to worry about on top of all the other papers and studying. I'm going to have a busy weekend, needless to say. But anyways, after this i'm getting something to eat and then going to psych/soc. lecture for about 15 minutes. The only reason i'm required to be there today is because a girl from the other lab is doing her presentation and needs people there for it. After that I have Service Learning part 3. I'm not really in a social, be friendly sort of mood today, so i'm most likely going to sit back and observe for this one. To be honest with you, I really don't care and would rather be working with the children like we did last time. But oh well, can't always get what I want so I have to deal with it. After that i'll be back at the library typing up my Service Learning journal and then I have statistics to go to. After statistics i'm going to open lab. Hopefully this open lab session will be worthwhile, cause I really need to pass this practical on friday. After that, i'm going to the AST house for our Christmas dinner tonight, and then after that i'll be back at the apartment studying and doing whateverelse.

Mood: Whatever.

Want of the day: To get a lot of important things done...and have a successful Service Learning experience.

Monday, Dec. 1, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now. Trying oh so hard to work on my Medical Science paper, but i'm so easily amused that it is very hard to concentrate. Oh well. On the bright side, I did get an A on that Kinesiology paper that I did at the last minute. That made me happy. But I must finish this damn paper!! Haha. It is due tommorrow, afterall. Anyways, after work I am probably going to the library to complete the paper. Hopefully I won't be over there until well into the night, like I was practically every night two weeks ago. After that i'm going back to the apartment to study for the Kinesiology lab practical. And after that i'm just calling it a night. We are officially in the Christmas season!!! I'm not that big a fan of this holiday (or at least not as big a fan as I used to be), but I have the sudden urge to bust out some christmas music, namely the jingle bell dogs song! Haha. Music always brightens up my life.

Mood: Tired and distracted (not a good combination).

Want of the day: To get this paper over and done with and study well tonight.

Sunday, Nov. 30, 2008

Currently: Back at school. Doing some laundry. Same old shit. But good news; it's the final countdown!! Three more weeks until this hell of a semester is over. I know for sure that these upcoming weeks are going to be harsh on my body and my health, but as i've stated many times before, i'm going to try my best to bang the rest of those puny three weeks out. As a matter of fact, in a few i'm about to continue studying for my FINAL kinesiology lab practical which is this friday, as well as read an article that I have to write about for my psychosocial paper final. Tommorrow night is going to suck hardcore. I have to type up part 6 of my Medical Science sickle cell disease paper, and haven't even started writing a rough draft yet. On the bright side, I do have a strong thesis for the paper, and hopefully that can assist me in bull-shitting the rest of it. *sigh* Why?

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That I use my time wisely.

Saturday, Nov. 29, 2008

Currently: Leaving for school again today. Blah. I'm feeling lazy right now, but I really have to wake myself up to be ready for this 15 hour bus ride. In a few, after I eat something, i'm going to put some gas in my car, pick up some cigs and go do my eyebrows. After that i'm doing my hair. Once i'm done running those small errands, i'm just going to hang around until later on when I have to leave. Right now i'm listening to "Don't Cry" by Olivia Broadfield...I feel this song really sums up my life.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Friday, Nov. 28, 2008

Currently: I was a lazy bum today. Haha. Literally, all I did was eat, sleep, listen to music, smoke...and eat some more! But I did finally gather up enough strength to study a little bit. I'm glad that I was at least able to do that. I figure that i'll be doing most of my school work on sunday when I get back anyways. Last night I also was able to drink more than half of that Alize bottle that I had gotten on Wednesday.Haha. Unfortunately, since I don't know much about which drink has what amount of alcohol content (I just drink, I could care less about the details), the drink that I had gotten turned out to only be 16% alcohol...so needlesss to say, although I had drank half that bottle, it still did absolutely nothing for me but make me sleepy. It was tasty though...but still, what a waste of money! Haha. I'll know better next time. Anyways, about to continue being a bum until I brush my teeth, shower and call it a night. Toodles.

Mood: Bummy.

Want of the day: Ahhh...whatever.

Thursday, Nov. 27, 2008

Currently: What a crazy thanksgiving yours truly had. First, this morning father dearest starts getting on my ass about smoking. I got so upset at that point, that I decided to take a drive around town. I parked near this nice little park and hung out there long enough to put myself back together. But wait, there's more. I come back home and everything's fine at first, but then my aunt comes over and her and father dearest just go back and forth yelling at each other. Next thing you know, my grandmother's eating and her face starts to droop and she passes out. Father dearest throws a hissy fit and starts yelling in the old lady's ear as he's trying to move her towards the front door. So then my aunt tells me to call 911 and I do, but can barely hear the operator because my aunt and father dearest are STILL yelling at each other. The ambulance finally arrives and takes my grandmother to the hospital. Father dearest then takes my aunt to the hospital as well, all the while complaining about not wanting to go to the hospital everyday next week. *sigh* Drama queens. All in all, it has been (expectedly) a chaotic thanksgiving and i'm glad it's over. On the bright side, yesterday I was able to get some liquor for myself...haha. I'm sure that will be put to good use these upcoming weeks. Happy Thanksgiving!!

Mood: Wow.

Want of the day: That no more chaos ensues.

Tuesday, Nov. 25, 2008

Currently: Just hanging around the apartment until it's time for me to hop on the Greyhound bus to my homeland. Blah. I'd much rather be sleeping...or partying...right now. Anyways, i'm also about to check to see if statistics is cancelled for tonight. I mean, that would make sense, because half our class probably already left town! But if class isn't cancelled, I figured i'd go anyways, just to get my money's worth. I know, i'm cheap, get over it. So...that's about it. There's not really much more for me to say.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To eat something yummy later...and maybe not feel so blah.

Monday, Nov. 24, 2008

Currently: Last night was decent. I was transitioned into bylaws and Rituals chair, eventhough i'm on poor standing. Afterwards, I went out with some of my sisters to a Bar. Surprisingly, not that many people were out last night. The Bar in particular was half-empty. It was still fun enough though. I took over six shots of some mixed drink and had another round of Long Island iced tea...I think that's now becoming my second favorite cocktail besides mai tais. Haha. Anyways, sitting at work right now. After i'm done here, i'm going to go to the library and start research for my Neuroscience paper, Medical Science paper and Psych/soc. final. After that, i'm going back to the apartment and crashing. I really don't know what else i'll be doing for the remainder of this day. Tommorrow evening I am leaving for home.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: To take a nap.

Sunday, Nov. 23, 2008

Currently: I was finally able to celebrate my 21st the right way! Haha. Friday night was a blast. I first had a pint of long island iced tea at the Bar and then about ten shots of a different assortment of drinks at the club. After the last shot I was gone. I was bouncing up and down, dancing and laughing everywhere...oh, and I hugged and kissed quite a few people, too. Haha. I even hugged a girl in my class whom I don't even like. Haha. That just goes to show how lovable I get when i'm wasted. I was dancing like such a slut too...which of course led me to receiving some 1/2 wanted, 1/2 unwanted attention...to make a long story short, I ended up making out with a random guy named Phil (ha! I remembered his name!)right on the dance-floor...this is the second time I have ever done something like that. It was mucho fun though. I also remember after making out with him a few times, not wanting to let him go. Haha! WOW! My poor friend Cara had to pry me away from him so I wouldn't get raped. I had so much fun though...but needless to say, I get home at 2 in the morning and puke for God knows how long and then pass out on the bathroom floor for a good while and wake up to see it's already 7 in the morning! Now, is that rockstar status or what? I really do amaze myself sometimes. I spent all of yesterday recovering and all of today...just chilling out. I did complete my article review for the paper though, and turned that in. I also looked at my Kinesiology lab notes a little bit. In a few, i'm about to head out to my sorority meeting. Tonight some of my sisters may be going to the Bar to celebrate Transitions tonight...i'm kind of hoping that they do. Hey, another round at the Bar won't hurt...will it?

Mood: Splendiferous!Haha.

Want of the day: To perhaps go to a nifty Bar tonight for some drinks?

Friday, Nov. 21, 2008

Currently: Wow. I haven't been able to update in a few days because that frickin Psych/soc. Activities File has been my life for the past few days. Thankfully, I have completed it and turned it in. I also managed to pull a C+ on that statistics test that I was oh so worried about. So yay for me this week. Anyways, sitting in the library for now. In a few, i'm about to go get something to eat and then go to Kinesiology lab. After that, i'm hanging around campus for a little bit until 4:00 pm when I have to go do my hair. After that, i'm going back to the apartment and crashing for awhile. It's been a tough and crazy week and I really need this nap. I haven't even been able to properly celebrate my 21st...so i'm doing that tonight. My friend Cara and I plan to go to a club and drink, drink, drink the night away! Haha. I will so need and deserve this, so i'm looking forward to that. I was asked today if i'll be at our little social mixer tonight with the ZBT's, but I can't go to that, as I am on poor standing and can't attend any socials, so going to the club instead will definitely make up for that. I have also been thinking about whether or not I should go home for thanksgiving. I mean, I kind of want to, but at the same time, i'm not really in the mood for a 15 hour Greyhound ride...I don't know, I may go anyways, just to put more stress on my body. We all know how much I love doing that! Haha. So that should be it, for now. Toodles.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That I have fun tonight.

Tuesday, Nov. 18, 2008

Currently: Happy birthday to me!!! Oficially 21 today. Unfortunately, it has been a very shitty birthday for myself. Took my statistics test yesterday and probably bombed it. Yea, it was that bad. See, I studied for an hour before I took the test, and thought to myself "hmph, this all seems easy enough for me," but then I get the test and am like "WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!" So needless to say, that put me in a pretty bad mood for the remainder of last night. Anyways, right now I am in the library. I'm about to continue working on my pscyh/soc. Activities File. I'm not even sure if i'm going to get much to eat, as I have absolutely no appetite for some reason today. I couldn't even finish my muffin this morning. That made me sad. Anyways, after psych/soc lecture, I have Service Learning pt. 2!!! YAY!!! NOT! Immediately following that, i'll be back at the library typing up my Service Learning journal for today. In between I may also stop by the newspaper office to pick up a cake that my friend Sara is making for me. Thanks, Sara.=) At least someone cares. After that, i'll be back at the library, continuing work on the Activities File. After that, i'm going back to the apartment to work on part of my Kinesiology paper and then...i'm probably going to call it a night. Some 21st that is, huh? *sigh*

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay, and that I continue being productive.

Monday, Nov. 17, 2008

Currently: So it is my birthday-eve. *faded, unenthusiastic "yay"* Yea. Right now I am sitting at work and working on my psyc/soc. activity file. I should be going out to get something to eat soon...it snowed by the way, so walking to work this morning was quite shitty. I plan to work on the activity file for a few more hours and then continue studying for my statistics test which i'm taking immediately after work. After that i'm going to continue work on the Activities File and then go to "Greek 200" for the sorority. After that mess, I guess I could work on the Activities File for a little while longer (I really need as much time as I could get on this one)and then go back to the apartment and do whatever else until I go to bed. I'm a little excited that i'll finally be 21 tommorrow, but at the same time, it feels like it's going to be very anti-climactic. We'll see, I guess.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay and that I do well on that statistics test.

Sunday, Nov. 16, 2008

Currently: So I have been put on poor standing in my sorority. This all happened over the fact that I missed this afternoon's meeting...which I thought was actually going to be at 5:00 pm...so yea, once again my stupidity has gotten me into trouble. So now I owe the sorority $5 for being "unexcused" and won't be able to transition into my duties as bylaws and rituals chair until December 14...I also am not allowed to attend our formal on Saturday, or the ZBT mixer the night before. This really sucks. You know, I never thought that I would take any of this sorority stuff seriously, but surely it has gotten to me. I will get over this though, as I do everything else. Needless to say, i'm going to have a shitty 21st birthday. I have so much work to do this week. Tommorrow I am taking my statistics test at 4:00, tuesday (my brithday) I have to do Service Learning right after psych/soc. lecture, and then I have an Activities File due for that class thursday afternoon, as well as part 2 of my Kinesiology paper due on friday. Ahhhh, I love my life. Not. I'm listening to the Cure right now. And that's it.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: I don't care.

Saturday, Nov. 15, 2008

Currently: Today was once again rainy and yucky...but a very productive one for myself. I first had an interview with our District President and it went well, overall. I just wish our DP wasn't so damn weird! I swear, she's one strange person. She's the type that says something to you one minute and then pauses and gives you blank stares the next. There was also a point during the interview when she asked me a yes or no question and I didn't really answer with a yes or no and she retorted "You either have to give me a yes or a no!!"...so yea, talk about anal. But anyways, after that fiasco I came back to the apartment and took an hour nap. After that I went back to the house to meet up for one of our sisters Indian New Year's celebration. It was a nice event...I just wished that some of the people who attended didn't have sticks up their asses...but again, I ignored them and made the best of it. Indian food is very...interesting tasting. For one, i'm not really feeling the sweet and savory combination that they tend to integrate into the foods...but that's just me. Anyways, right now i'm having a beer (I know it's no booze or boys weekend, but i'm drinking by myself, so it doesn't count!) and listening to the Deftones. Good times.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: Aaaah, that's pointless right now.

Friday, Nov. 14, 2008

Currently: Just came from taking my Neuroscience test. It was a very difficult test, but since I stayed up last night until 2:00 in the morning studying, I feel like I got a little bit of an upper hand on it. Pretty much, I think I did decently on it...not saying I got an A or anything, but i'm predicting maybe a C+ to a B. We'll see about that. Anyways, hanging in the library for now. In like an hour and a half or so, i'm going to get something to eat, and then I have Kinesiology lab to go to. In between, i'm going to stop by the bookstore to get a binder that I will need to complete my "Activities File" for psych/soc. And then after lab, i'm stopping by the Dollar Store to get a few things that I need. After that, i'm heading back to the apartment, and will most likely take a nap as soon as I get there. After that, i'm going to study a little bit for statistics, and then I have to go to a DVD-watching thingy for my sorority, because our District President is visiting this weekend. And expectedly, because of her visit, we are also having a "no booze or boys" weekend, which is good for me, cause I really need to study for statistics, as well as work on my Activities File for psyc/soc., which is in itself a whole lot of work. After the DVD viewing, i'll be back at the apartment again, studying, working on things and overall being a good student. I also have to register for Spring classes tonight, which hopefully won't take up too much time. *sigh* And that is it.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Thursday, Nov. 13, 2008

Currently: Today has been okay, I guess. It rained this morning and has been cloudy all day, which made for a pretty sloppy day...but for me personally, it's been productive. I re-took my lab practical today and pretty much, my professor thinks that i'm getting all the material down pretty well, but still need practice on measuring the joints of the hand. He figures that my problem stems from not getting to practice on people that much, which is absolutely true. He also wants me to continue meeting with him on a weekly basis like I have been doing, which i'm totally okay with. As said before, i'm going to do whatever it takes at this point to bang the rest of this semester out...it has been a very tough one and i'm hoping that I can finish it fine and do better next semester. Anyways, right now i'm sitting in the library and waiting to meet up with the former bylaws chair to discuss my responsibilities. I met with the former rituals chair last night and it went pretty well, so i'm hoping that this meeting goes well too. Only problem though is i'm not really a big fan of this girl. She seemed nice when I first met her last semester, but ever since she broke up with her ex-boyfriend (who is oh so coincidentally our sweetheart) and he began dating another girl in our sorority right after, she has become a total bitch. *sigh* But like I said, I just want to get it over with and be good. ***Update: Sorry for ending this entry so abruptly before. Turns out, as I was typing about how much I can't stand this girl, she shows up out of nowhere! Haha. So I had to quickly close the page and act as if nothing happened. All's good though...whew! Close call there!















Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: BLAH!!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!*Update:...which explains the "help me" haha.

Wednesday, Nov. 12, 2008

Currently: Didn't update yesterday for no reason whatsoever. Nothing really interesting happened though. It was advising day, so I had no classes. I met with my advisor and organized my schedule for next semester. I then went back to my apartment and napped for seemingly forever and finally got up and studied for the rest of the night. I met with my professor after Neuroscience today to go over the lab practical that i'm re-taking tommorrow...he said that I did much better today. So tonight he wants me to focus more on the hands, because that will most likely be the area that i'll be tested on the most. *sigh* This semester is just so crazy altogether. Anyways, i'm at work right now, trying to study a little bit. I can't wait to get out of here. I mean, I like having a job, but this one is beyond monotone...but hey, atleast it pays. After work, i'm going to get something to eat then go back to the apartment and take an hour nap. After that i'm going to study a little, and then in between, go over to the AST house to meet up with one of my sisters, Jenn, to discuss my new duties as Rituals chair. After that, i'm going back to my apartment again to continue studying and then call it a night.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That things continue to work out okay.

Monday, Nov. 10, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now, studying Neuroscience. My weekend was very productive. Not only did I get a lot of studying done, but I was also able to land not one, but two positions at yesterday's elections. I am now bylaws and ritual chair, which are both very important positions. Bylaws, specifically, is darn close to being an executive board position. Aaaah, it's good to feel important. Haha. Anyways, after work i'm meeting with my statistics professor to try and catch up in that class. I also have to go to the library and print the recent updated bylaws document and read it tonight. And other than all of that, i'm just going to continue studying and reviewing for my two big tests this week...oh, and I almost forgot, I also have to make my schedule for next semester tonight, as tommorrow is advising day. And that is it.

Mood: Okay.

want of the day: To continue being productive.

Saturday, Nov. 8, 2008

Currently: Yesterday was crazy for me. Long story short, I ended up being ridiculously depressed the entire day and staying in bed for the rest of the day and well into the night. I felt better today though. One thing I like with myself, is that i'm really good at picking myself back up whenever i'm down...oh, and I reactivated my facebook account. I couldn't even stay an entire day without it!Haha. Isn't that sad? Anyways, so I just realized that my apartment is fucking filthy and is in desperate need of some vaccuming and sweeping. I know that my lazy ass roomate is going to do nothing about it, so when I have the time, i'm going to try to find a way to do it myself. Meh, I digress. Spent all of today studying, cause now i'm oficially behind in ALL of my classes. Great. I really hope that I can get my shit together and bang out the rest of this semester. Thankfully and expectedly, no one has been seeking me out for any parties or outings this weekend, which is good, as I have been planning to have my own no "booze or boys" weekend in order to get all of this studying done. On a side-note, i'm also pretty bummed right now that I just got my eyebrows waxed yesterday and they are already growing back! Why did I have to be born with manly-thick hair? Why couldn't I have been born with naturally beautiful lady features and beautiful, straight hair, as well as a banging thin body? If all of the aforementioned were so, i'd be able to roll out of bed everyday, throw some junk on and still find a date, without feeling insecure about myself or feeling obligated to fix every little thing about me...sorry, i'm getting emo again. Anyways, back to studying!

Mood: Better.

Want of the day: To continue studying like a good student should.

Friday, Nov. 7, 2008

Currently: Last night I did something that I never thought i'd do while in college...I deactivated my facebook account. Truth is, i'm tired of looking at other people's profiles and seeing how happy and satisfied with their lives they are and how my so-called "friends" would always write on the walls of everybody but myself. Call me childish, call me insecure, but it bothered me some, so I figured if I didn't have a facebook account at all, I wouldn't have to feel so bad about myself anymore. I have reached my limits in many ways. I'm even thinking of dropping out of my sorority. Yep, you heard it here. I don't like the fact that some of the girls have been really rude to me lately...and for no apparent reason. There's even one girl in particular, whom I used to consider a close friend of mine, who's been giving me the cold shoulder lately. And my question is; for what? I know that i'm a quiet person and some people don't like that, but that doesn't mean that when I do attempt to speak to you or get to know you, that you should just shun me away like i'm some sort of parasite that's getting in your way. I may speak to our president about this sometime...but not just yet. I'm actually waiting until sunday after elections to make my final decision. If I don't receive or am not voted into any position I may definitely drop out altogether. I'll be especially upset if one of the Alpha Kappas (or the newly initiated girls) get a position and I don't. It's not like I haven't been working my ass off, waking up at early hours some weekends to go do community service, as well as showing up to practically every recruitment event, just to get a slap in the face, or a "better luck next time" sort of deal. This is it. I'm tired of being stepped on. I've been too nice for too long, and it has gotten me nowhere. Anyways, i'm about to go do some studying for my Kinesiology lab practical which is in a few hours. After that, i'm going to cash my check and then get my eyebrows waxed (or the other way around, depending on how long it takes me to complete the exam) and maybe get something to eat in between. After that, of course, i'm going back to the apartment to nap and do whateverelse. I doubt very much so that i'm going to the Zeeb house tonight, since their "sweetheart" is one of the girls that's been rude to me lately. I know that I shouldn't be taking all of this out on the guys, but sometimes a little discrimination by association is necessary. I'm outie.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Thursday, Nov. 6, 2008

Currently: Still sick. Throughout the day yesterday, I was actually starting to feel better until the night time, when my throat began to hurt again and I started feeling a little weak and woozy...again. I'm shocked that I was even able to stay at least a little concentrated enough to study...but I did it. Sleeping was pretty bad though, as I had to sleep on my back all night, since sleeping on my side or on my belly for some reason causes more mucus to develop around the back of my throat and near my sinuses. Yea. So needless to say, I may be making a little trip over to the Health Center today, which is not a lot of fun, but is something I have to do at this point. For now i'm assuming that my sickness is stress-induced. Anyways, got my Kinesiology test back today and expectedly got a C on it. I guess that's good considering I swore up and down that I was going to bomb that test. After that, had Medical Science, where conincidentally we learned today about the effects of stress on the body. Haha. I can definitely relate to that right now. Anyways, sitting in the library right now. After i'm done typing this entry, i'm going to continue to study for my Kinesiology lab practical, which i'll be taking tommorrow. After that, i'm getting something to eat, then going to psych/soc. lecture. After that, i'll possibly be stopping by the Health Center, then back to the apartment, where i'll be studying statistics for my quiz today. After that I have statistics. Hopefully, i'll do better on today's quiz than I have been doing on the last few quizzes. Immediately after that I have salsa dancing lessons, then have to go back to the apartment, change quickly, and then go to the AST house for initiation of the Alpha Kappas tonight. Once that's done and over with (i'm hoping it won't take that long), i'm going back to the apartment to continue studying Kinesiology. And that is my day/night. Blah.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Wednesday, Nov. 5, 2008

Currently: Last night wasn't the best for myself. Out of nowhere, I was running a pretty high fever and felt really weak and nauseous. Despite that, I still went to open lab for Kinesiology, studied some and did some laundry. Now, is that a trooper or what? It wasn't much fun though, as I struggled to walk all the way back to my apartment, and at one point, started having blurry vision and seeing some dark spots. Not good at all. Once I finally got back to the apartment, I tried to stay concentrated enough to start studying, but then began to lie down and ended up falling a sleep for a good hour, until my phone woke me back up. It's a good thing that it did too, as I still had to go pick up my laundry and start studying...and thankfully I was able to do so. I woke up feeling a little better though. I still feel a little weak and disoriented. So as one can tell, stress has taken a toll on me. I will get through it though, I know it. Anyways, sitting in the library for now. In a few, i'm heading out to work, and then getting something to eat. After that, i'm going back to the apartment, where i'll be taking yet another nap and then studying. That shall be it for today.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That I feel better and get some studying done.

Tuesday, Nov. 4, 2008

Currently: It's election day! Who are you voting for? Unfortunately, I could not gather the time to vote for my man Obama, so i'm skipping out on that...and trust me, I feel mighty guilty about it. To make up for my mounting guilt, last night I let my voice be heard in a different way...by voting for Brooke Burke and Derek Hough to stay on "Dancing with the Stars"! I think i'm starting to grow a slight crush on Derek...I mean, he's cute in his own way, and seems super sweet. I wish I had a boyfriend like that.=( And the fact that he's a professional dancer is a big plus! Meh, I digress. I'm going to be honest, i'm falling behind on most of my classes and it's not making me happy...at all. Truth is, AST is running my life right now, which has been compromising my study time. I'm going to speak with my Neuroscience teacher/Advisor on wednesday though, and hopefully he'll have a good solution as to what I should do. This really sucks, and I do blame myself for this, cause first of all, i'm not even supposed to be partying all that much, but have been doing so almost every single weekend. Very bad choice. And second of all, i've been balancing a shit load of crap all at once. *sigh* My stupid decisions are really getting the best of me. I need to think of something, and fast. As for the rest of today, I have statistics in an hour and then i'm going straight to open lab to practice Kinesiology. After that, i'm going back to the apartment, where i'll be doing more Kinesiology studying, as well as some laundry.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Monday, Nov. 3, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now, trying to study Kinesiology for tommorrow's test. I'm so tired right now, which is why as soon as I get back to the apartment, i'm taking a moderately long nap. After that, i'll be up again, studying some more. I'll probably be studying into tonight. And that is it. Sorry this was one of those really boring entries.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: That I get some good studying done.

Sunday, Nov. 2, 2008

Currently: This weekend was pretty decent for myself. I stayed up practically all night on Friday for the final rehearsal. Saturday morning, bright and early, we then did another run-through of the dance and then finally got to perform it at the Homecoming parade. I think we did well considering the fact that we did everything at the last minute. But of course, we couldn't stand a chance against some of the more competitive sororities and fraternities on campus. The Sigmas and APD's, for one, KILLED IT. I will give them the benefit of the doubt, they were, hands down, the BEST performance of that morning...but unfortunately, and questioningly, they did not win first place. The Pikes and AGD's won first place, which I personally think is a rip-off to the Sigmas and APD's, not only cause their's was the best, but also because they worked so hard on it, and were practicing before any other group. But that's just me. Anyways, after the parade, I went back to the apartment and took a pretty long nap. After that, I got something to eat and then went to the AST house to put my dress on. I had to because my apartment doesn't have any long mirrors, and who wants to get dressed for a dance and not even know what you look like? I put the dress on in my sister Cathy's room (she has a beautiful room, by the way) and then waited for my sister Deanna (who was also my "date" for last night, haha)to be ready. Once she was ready, we picked up some cigs and went to the dance. The dance was fun, but not as fun as last year, which is mostly because I wasn't drunk this time. Haha. I did dance a little, though, but sat by the tables for most of it. It was a decent time, though. After the dance, Deanna dropped me off at the ZBT house, where I hung out at for awhile. Finally, I got tired of staying at the house and was dropped off at my apartment by my sister Cathy. Today has been today. I didn't really want to get out of bed, but since I have a lot of shit to do, did so reluctantly. I brushed my teeth, showered and then got something to eat. After that, I sent in my article for the paper...and now, here I am. Haha. Pretty soon, i'm about to go back to my apartment to study for Kinesiology, and then i'm going to get ready and go to the AST meeting much later on. After the meeting, I think we're all going back to the house for some sort of rededication ceremony. See how that goes. Anyways, i'm out. Peace.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Friday, Oct. 31, 2008

Currently: It's Halloween ya'll!!! What are you posing as tonight? Haha. Sadly, I don't even have a halloween costume, but we'll get to that later. Last night was a lot of fun. My first salsa dancing class was pretty awesome. We didn't get too much into the hard/faster dance moves, but we were able to do "partner" dances. What was awkward about that though, was the fact that I didn't bring a male partner to dance with, and as a result had to partner up with my roomate. It was pretty awkward dancing with her, i'm not going to lie. Because I felt so weird dancing with her at first, I was real shaky and made a few mistakes in the beginning...but as soon as I got comfortable enough, I just imagined that she was McDreamy (which was odd within itself, cause they look NOTHING alike!!) haha...and believe it or not, it worked out well. By the end of this session, I was loosening up and shaking my booty and moving my hips like a pro. Haha. Much fun. After that, was the dance practice. Last night's dance practice was a big hit for us tribal dancers, but sadly not as much of a hit for the hip hop dancers, which is ironic, cause I expected it to be the other way around, especially since our tribal group has more of the "non-dancer" people in it...but I guess anything's possible in this case, so BOOYAH! to the hip hop dancers! Haha. I'm bad. But anyways, sitting in the library now. In about an hour, i'm going to get something to eat and then go to Kinesiology lab. After that, i'm going to try and buy some tickets to the homecoming dance and then maybe study. At 5:00 I have to be back at the ZBT house for our final rehearsal. After that, I have no idea what i'm doing. I can always stay at the ZBT house and party with them, but I think i've had too much of a ZBT overload for this week...but then again, I do not even have a halloween costume and wasn't really invited to any other halloween parties, so trying to find one to go to would be quite a stretch. We'll see, but for now, I have no idea.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Thursday, Oct. 30, 2008

Currently: Happy Halloween Eve!! Last night was pure drama in the Homecoming parade dance peanut gallery...and this time, instead of it being the girls against the guys, it was the girls against eachother! Yea. A few of the girls I guess decided that one of the girls who choreographed the "hip hop" portion of the dance, was integrating too much ballet (she happens to be a ballet dancer) into it. Well, to make a long story short, she gets called out on this and throws a fit at our Homecoming Director. Of course, this leads to a lot of yelling and screaming from a lot of people...at a fucking fraternity house, mind you. And of course, the guys aren't making this any better. I mean, I know you're all drunk (why the fuck would you even drink during you own dance practice?), but seriously, why grope eachother exstensively throughout the night? Seriously, the guys seemed more into eachother than us, which is a little frightening, i'm not going to lie. It actually all led me to questioning the sexualities of the ZBT brothers...i'm seroiously starting to think that they're gay...but that's just me. Perhaps, if the girls in our sorority looked more like Barbie dolls, they wouldn't be doing all of that to "distract" themselves? Just saying. But anyways, sitting in the library right now. After i'm done typing this up and messing around online, i'm going to briefly review for my statistics quiz, which should be easy enough, I guess. After that, i'm going to get something to eat, then go to psych/soc. lecture, and then back to the apartment to continue looking over statistics and whateverelse. After that, i'm heading out to statistics, then to my first ever salsa dancing class. I'm pretty excited about that. After that, i'm going to hang around campus, I guess, until 9:00 pm, when I have to walk over to the ZBT house for more dance practice. I'm telling you, i'll be getting some workout tonight...twice the dancing! But i'm really stoked about it and looking forward to it.

Mood: Overwhelmed.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Wednesday, Oct. 29, 2008

Currently: Just came from Neuroscience and am sitting in the library. My legs are frickin soar as hell from all the dancing i've been doing for the past two nights. I struggle just to sit down and even to go up and down stairs. It's bad. But yea, that's what happens when you don't involve yourself in a decent workout for years (and yes, I haven't really worked out in YEARS...since High School, actually...and walking to and from a bunch of places everyday unfortunately does not count) and then are all of a sudden dancing and jumping everywhere. I'm a trooper though, so I know i'll get through it. Anyways, in a few i'm going to head out to work, where I will actually be staying until 3:30. This is so because I skipped out on an hour and a half's worth of work so that I could catch a ride to my Fieldwork I site. While at work, i'm going to study and catch up on some work that i've been slacking on. After work, I have to go to the dollar store to buy "slashed" (wtf's that?) white beaters and a "colorful" sports bra for my homecoming dance performance, as well as some toilet paper and hand soap for the apartment. After that, i'm going back to the apartment to crash a little bit, then i'm going to the Pep Rally at 8:30pm to pick up my Sorority's official '08 Homecoming tee. After that, we're all going straight to dance practice at the ZBT house, and I probably won't get back to the apartment until midnight-ish. Fun stuff, heh?

Mood: Tired and soar...but excited.


Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2008

Currently: Last night was an utter frickin mess. The ZBT boys (and I use this term literally) were not cooperating with us at all. For one, they were refusing to come to our apartment building to practice with us. We had to literally pull teeth to get them to even come here...and then when they finally did come, they were being really sarcastic and "I don't give a fuck" about everything. That just really annoyed me. That, and the fact that they are HORRID dancers. Now atleast I know not to try too hard to dance well, cause we're probably not going to get first place anyway, judging from how horribly they dance alone. I did have fun learning our dance routine, though. Today was pretty busy for me, as every tuesdays are. I do think I did okay on my psych/soc. lecture test though...I don't know, we'll see. Right now, i'm sitting in my room, trying to relax a little bit until I have statistics at 4:30. After that, i'm coming back and doing some schoolwork/studying and then i'm going to dance practice. I don't even know if we're still doing practice tonight at our apartment building or at the Zeeb house (since they were being whiny assholes last night over not doing it at their house), so I will most likely have to text someone to find out. BLAH!

Mood: BLAH!!

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Monday, Oct. 27, 2008

Currently: At work right now, stressing the fuck out. I have a test AND part 4 of the paper due tommorrow. My dumb ass realized just now that that portion of the paper is due tommorrow, and I haven't even started writing it yet!!! So today, after i'm done with that Fieldwork I rotation, I have to rush like mad to write the paper, type up the References page and e-mail it all to my partner. And to add to my grey hairs, dance practice for homecoming starts tonight at 9:00 and we'll most likely be up until 2 in the morning learning these dance routines. So right now i'm trying to study as much as I can for the psych/soc. lecture test, cause I know I won't have any time at all to do it later. As previously said, if I make it through this semester, it will be a miracle.

Mood: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Sunday, Oct. 26, 2008

Currently: Last night was cool. Went down to the Zeeb house and had some fun, as usual...most notable was when I tried to "sabotage" the brother's circle by constantly sticking my arms in between people. Haha. I'm horrible. One of the brothers noticed me doing it and kind of gave me a "what the fuck are you doing???" kind of look. Haha. Mission accomplished. Anyways, today has been today. I've been really tired and weak all day...which is understandable, as I did go out two nights in a row and was doing philanthrophy stuff all Saturday morning. I did get some work done, though. I finally sent out my "Rise Against" article and worked a little on part 4 of my Medical Science paper. Right now, i'm going to try to study for my psych/soc. test on tuesday...i'm also going to try to get a ride to my Fieldwork I site for tommorrow. I'm pretty stressed about that, i'm not going to lie. It's bad enough, I have to leave work an hour and a half early to go to the place, and now it seems that it will be a hassle just to get a ride over there. Jesus! There's always something to worry about every week, I swear. But anyways, I hope it all pans out for me...cause lord knows what I will do if it doesn't.

Mood: Weak, stressed, anxious and whateverelse.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Saturday, Oct. 25, 2008

Currently: Last night was a lot of fun. I first went to that corny OcSOBERfest thingy that my school was doing...expectedly, it was pretty lame, so afterwards, I met up with some of my sisters and hung out at one of their apartments. We played a drinking game called Kings and it was a riot!!! Haha. After that, we headed down to the ZBT house. The house was really packed last night for some reason, but it was really cool. The brothers were in a better mood than from the last time I was there, so they were a lot more pleasant to be around...they were also pretty drunk, so that probably added to it. I had a great time, though. I danced and chilled the night away. Unfortunately though, the fact that I had stayed up so late, led me to almost being late for Golden Harvest (a yearly charity event held by my school) this morning. So needless to say, I jumped out of bed this morning, threw my clothes on and ran over to meet my sisters at the main lobby that everyone was meeting at. Thankfully, I did arrive there on time, and got to go door to door at some random neighborhood asking people to "please donate cans and unperishable items to Golden Harvest." Haha. So that was my morning. As soon as I got back to the apartment I crashed for three hours. After that, I got up, put my outside clothes back on and got something to eat. After that, I came back to the apartment, watched Rent, listened to some music and finished up my review for the "Rise Against" cd. Other than that, i've been just chilling the entire day. Right now i'm trying to get out of my apartment. I was invited to another ZBT party tonight and I just spoke to Justine and she said she might be going, so she'll message me on facebook, letting me know if she actually goes or not. I really hope that she does. I'm sorry, but I can't just stay in this apartment all night. No frickin way. Haha. See what happens!

Mood: Okay...but anxious, and wanting to get out of here!!!

Want of the day: Well, technically want of the night: That I get out and have some more fun!!!Haha.

Friday, Oct. 24, 2008

Currently: I am so tired right now. I almost fell asleep in Neuroscience this morning...not a good sign. But anyways, sitting in the library right now. I'll be here for awhile, and then i'm going to pick up my check, get something to eat and then go to Kinesiology lab. Since I did really well on the last practical, i'm no longer in a tizzy over that class...it doesn't make it any less frustrating though. After that, i'm going to the bank to cash my check. Once i'm done with that, i'm probably going back to my apartment to take a nap and then work on psych/soc., Medical Science, Neuroscience and Kinesiology assignments. I then have to get ready and go to Big/Little night. This is the event where the Alpha Kappas find out who their Bigs are. It's a little fun. For one, I get to ask the girls questions about myself based on what I wrote on my "Sister Info" sheet. Anyways, after that, I may go to a little event that my school's holding called "OcSOBERfest." After that, I may go to my friend Justine's 21st birthday party at the ZBT house...but I really don't know yet. I'm just a little discouraged cause it looks like our homecoming commitee is still pretty disorganized with our dance routine...and of course the ZBT boys are contributing absolutely nothing to it, which just adds to the stress of it all. And what sucks is, homecoming is practically next week,which means that the girls are most likely going to cram everything in at the very last minute, and that's no fun at all. Because of that alone, I may not even end up doing the dance for homecoming anymore. I don't know, we'll see.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: That everything works out okay.

Thursday, Oct. 23, 2008

Currently: Just took my Medical Science test, and thankfully it was pretty easy and I think I did well on it. So yippee for me! Haha. Sitting in the library now. I don't have psych/soc. lecture for awhile, so i'll be here for a pretty long time. Oh well. I guess i'll pass time by web surfing and then getting something to eat. I do not have psych/soc. lab today, so after lecture I can atleast go back to my apartment and work on my cd review for "Rise Against." After that, I have statistics and then I can fully exhale...for today, that is. I'm just excited because yesterday I signed up for Salsa Dancing lessons and i've always wanted to learn some sort of Latin dance, whether it be Tango or Salsa. Only problem though is, right now I am the only person signed up for classes and the first lesson is supposed to be next Thursday, and if more people don't sign up by then, they will cancel the classes altogether. I really don't want that to happen, so I told my friend Justine about it, and she told me that she'll think about it and will even try to get my other friend/sister Cara to do it with her. I even begged my roomate to sign up for it too. Hey, desperate times call for desperate measures!Haha. Cause think about it, how fun would it be for me to learn something that I had always dreamed of, and get a great workout and lose even more weight with it as well? Hello! Opportunity knocking at my door right there! I don't even care if i'm the only person in the "20's" age-group taking lessons, I just wanna dance! Haha. I've really lost it, haven't I? So needless to say, my fingers are crossed tightly for this one.

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: To continue being a good/active student. =)

Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library in some pain right now. I'm trying not to think about it, cause I learned from Neuroscience that when you distract yourself from pain, the body is conditioned to not pay attention to it, and you kind of don't feel it anymore. I know I sound like a total dork, but I have actually done it in the past and it has worked...but i'm not too sure if i'll be able to not focus on it today. Anyways, I have work in about an hour. After that, i'm coming back to the library to continue working on part 4 of my Medical Science paper and then i'm going back to the apartment to study. After that, I have a Greek 200 thingy to go to at 7:00. After that, i'll be heading back to the apartment again to study and do whateverelse. I was once again pissed off this morning about having to wake up. Haha. It's been happening a lot to me lately. I don't know why, but it seems as if during the week days, time goes a lot faster in the morning than weekends. I swear, sometimes I look at my phone and it's only 5:30 am, but then I lay down for seemingly a couple of minutes and then look again and it's already 7:15 am. What the heck? But anyways, yea, so that is today...for now.

Mood: Ew.

Want of the day: To feel better and get things done.

Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2008

Currently: Sitting in the library now. Today hasn't been so bad. Had Kinesiology lecture this morning, then Medical Science, where my teacher wasn't in today because she had to be rushed to the ER because she had some sort of "reaction" to Flu Shots. So for that class another teacher from the department filled in for her today. After that, I went to a Phi Eta Sigma meeting, picked up the T-shirt that I ordered, then got something to eat. After that, I went to Psych/soc. lecture and then lab immediately following. Lab was pretty fun today. For one, I got to make and decorate a transvestite pumpkin. Haha. Isn't my major fun? But seriously, my major's actually not all fun and games, as one can tell by my stress-ridden entries everyday. In a few, i'm going to statistics, then i'm going over to the newspaper office to pick up a cd that I will be doing a review on...it's by the band "Rise Against." I've been hearing good things about the cd from my editor, so hopefully i'll have fun with this one. After that, i'm going back to the apartment to study for my Medical Science test that I have on Thursday as well as begin work on Part 4 of the paper. I also have to continue looking over my Neuroscience notes, cause frankly I don't have a frickin clue as to what's going on. And that shall be it.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: That I get a good amount of work done (unlike last night).

Monday, Oct. 20, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now. I'm really sluggish today, primarily because my peaceful sleep was disrupted this morning, and i'm on my monthly. But anyways, i've been trying to review my Neuroscience notes and I am just realizing that there are a few puzzling features about the current chapter that we're on...in other words, the Pathways to the Brain confuse the hell out of me. Great. I'll try and see if I could continue to look over the notes and eventually understand what is being told to me...but it may take awhile. After work i'm getting something to eat, then going to the dollar store to buy some pads and body wash. After that, i'm going back to the apartment and taking a nap, then waking up and studying some more. Back to the grind, my friends.

Mood: Sluggish.

Want of the day: That I understand the gibberish that is Neuroscience.

Sunday, Oct. 19, 2008

Currently: Last night was obviously a long one for myself. Spent 15 whole hours on the road and arrived here at school at 1:00 pm. I immediately took a nap, then got up and finally completed my long overdue article for the paper. After that, I took a 30 minute break then went down to the library and typed my service learning journal, which is due tommorrow morning. I'm just glad that I finally got those two things over and done with. So for now, i'm going to finish unpacking and then brush my teeth, shower and call it a night.

Mood: Tired.

Want of the day: None.

Saturday, Oct. 18, 2008

Currently: So I am leaving today for school again. Last night was fun (though it was a pain in the ass at times). My friend and I pretty much walked all around the city and I enjoyed seeing a lot of crazy people and feeling alive, for once. And i'm not going to lie, this is the first time I ever really got to experience city life at night...but it surely is a lot of fun and I look forward to doing it again. Another interesting little event from last night was getting to meet my friend's roomate's hott boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, I would NEVER hit on a guy who's in a relationship, but all I have to say is...she's pretty lucky. I just wish that I could find somebody like that. =( Hah, if I had someone like that, i'd probably spend all day and night in bed with him as well. They did get into a fight last night though, which was pretty sad...but i'm sure the make-up sex was good. Haha. Anyways, we also met up with my friend's gay male friend, Romer. He seemed really nice...too nice, actually. It was cool though. I slept over there last night and left first thing this morning. So right now i'm doing some last minute chilling out and then i'm going to get ready and leave. When I get back to school I (as usual) have a lot to do, but the upcoming weeks are looking to be a lot of fun.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To have a safe trip to school.

Friday, Oct. 17, 2008

Currently: Last night I was actually able to get an eensy bit of studying done. I pretty much just flipped through my class notes to make sure I recall everything that was said. Haha. I'm bad. So starts my crazy Friday. Haha. I'm not too sure what time i'll be leaving, though. I'm going to call my friend soon and hopefully if she's awake, she'll be able to tell me what time would be good to come over. I want to leave as early as possible. I hope I have a really good time though...and sure that I will. All I know for sure right now is that we're going to some Bar that her friend took her to for some drinks...and I think we're going somewherelse after that. I personally think that we should go back to that little restaurant that doesn't card, just to bring back those crazy 'ole memories from the summer. Haha. Yea, so we shall see.

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: To have a good time while i'm still home.

Thursday, Oct. 16, 2008

Currently: My fall break has been pretty good thus far. Arrived at home yesterday and headed out to the DMV to renew my license first thing. Today I went shopping and got a beautiful (and of course unique) dress for homecoming and formal and some new thigh high fish nets and of course some new oh so stylish shoes. Oh, and I also did my hair. I'm not going to lie, I look pretty adorable right now. Haha. But yea, that has been it so far. Later on i'm going to try to study, work on my article and work on my service learning journal. And speaking of service learning, I guess it went okay. We worked with some refugees from the International Institute, and i'm not going to lie, it was pretty hard. For one, my group wasn't really prepared for it cause our teacher just kinda threw us head first into it. It was also hard trying to communicate with a lot of the refugees. I did try my best though...I wrote on the board! Haha. But anyways, I guess i'm going to try my hardest tonight to atleast do some work, but when my mind's on break it pretty much stays there. I don't know, we'll see. I'm pretty excited for tommorrow though. I'm meeting up with my friend in the city and we're going to a few bars to drink and be crazy. Haha. I will also be sleeping over there, so yay I get a break from my house! Haha. But yea, those are my plans so far. I will be leaving again Saturday night, so I might as well take advantage of what is there to offer.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: That I get the balls to study tonight.

Tuesday, Oct. 14, 2008

Currently: Just got out of Medical Science. Thankfully, Kinesiology lecture was cancelled today, so I got to sleep-in a little. I'm just glad that my partner and I did really well on parts 1 and 2 of our paper. We had amongst the highest scores in the entire class. So yay, I feel special. Anyways, so i'm in the library right now. In a few, i'm about to go get something to eat and then go to psych/soc. lecture. After that, i'm getting a ride over to our Service Learning site. I really don't know what we're going to be doing for that, to be honest, but I did speak to one of my classmates a few minutes ago and he said that we're probably going to make stuff up as we go along. I plan to compensate for this by being really friendly and talking to the people. Haha. But anyways, after that's over with, i'm going back to the apartment to pack. My bus leaves at around 7:30, so i'll have plenty of time. Can't you tell i'm just excited for this 15 hour ride? Haha. I mean don't get me wrong, I love road trips, I just don't like when I have to sit in a stupid bus station for hours. But all in all, I am looking forward to this break and getting myself into some more madness while at home. Haha. The things i'm most looking forward to are shopping and hanging out with my friend...and sleeping over, of course. Woot! Let the madness begin!

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: That things continue to work out as planned.

Monday, Oct. 13, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now. Once i'm done at 3 o'clock, i'm going to get something to eat, study for statistics for an additional hour, then go and take the test. I took a practice test this morning and got some of the questions right, but some partially wrong as well...so the conclusion that I have drawn from this is that most of my points on this test will probably come from partial credit. I really don't care though, as long as I get a C. Anyways, after I take the test, it's back to the apartment for some more studying, movie watching and whatever else. Tommorrow evening I am leaving for home...and i'm actually looking forward to it. I guess i'm just ready for a little change in environment...as well as a little city fun with my best friend on friday...oh, and shopping too!Haha. I was actually planning on going shopping specifically for a dress to wear for homecoming and formal, which are both coming up pretty soon. And speaking of homecoming, I am so excited that I will be participating in our dance with the ZBT brothers. We plan on doing an "urban jungle" theme and having a "city" background on our stage and then dancing to some urban/hip hop music, which sounds like so much fun. I just like the idea of performing, dancing, acting out and making a butt out of myself in front of our entire student body. Haha. So yea, the future right now is looking like mucho fun...and since I am on the topic of my idea of fun, let's not forget that my 21st birthday is almost exactly a month away! I don't think I can take all this excitement at once!

Mood: There.

Want of the day: That I do well on my statistics test.

Sunday, Oct. 12, 2008

Currently: As probably guessed, I was pretty busy this weekend. We did our Phillipians thing on Friday and then I went out of town immediately following and stayed at one of my sister's houses. Next day, we went to the leadership seminar. It was five hours long and not really eventful for myself. Anyways, after that we had dinner with one of our alumn sisters...I expected the food to be better. I didn't get back to my apartment on campus until the night time, and at that point I was so tired I just went straight to bed. I then woke up early this morning to clean up the highway...I actually collected a lot of trash and am proud of myself. Also today I have been studying a lot for my statistics test that i'm taking tommorrow after work. In a few, i'm about to get ready and go to the weekly AST meeting. After that, we're all going straight to the house to pin the new girls, who actually now have Bigs. Hopefully that won't take too long, as I have to come back to the apartment to do laundry and continue studying for statistics, as well as try to start working on my Activity File for psych/soc, which is due Nov. 21. We shall see.

Mood: There.

Want of the day: That I get some things done.

Friday, Oct. 10, 2008

Currently: Just got out of Neuroscience. In a few, i'm about to continue to study like mad for my lab practical that I have in like two hours...Yea. I feel pretty confident about it, though. After I take the practical, i'm going to pick up my check and cash it...I will also finally try to cash that check that one of the Zeeb brothers gave me. After that, I guess it's back to the apartment to relax a little. I also have to work on my article for the paper. Later on, I have to do a Phillipians thing for my sorority. Immediately following that, i'm going out of town for a leadership seminar thing that i'm doing with some of the other sisters. We shall see how that pans out. I don't know, lately i've been re-thinking a lot of things. I'm fine overall though, it's just that sometimes...I don't know.

Mood: Alright.

Want of the day: Just to do well on my lab practical and allow my brain to breathe a little bit.

Thursday, Oct. 9, 2008

Currently:Last night was pretty cool. I was so on edge from being so busy and having so much to do, that when I got a text. from my friend asking to come drink at our other friend's apartment, I just couldn't say no! Haha. So I went over there and had some Southern Comfort for the first time. I will say now that that's my new favorite drink. Haha. It made me feel so good and not sickly at the same time, and i've honestly never had a drink that served me with as much duel satisfaction as this one. Haha. I did feel a little guilty about not getting to study as much as I had liked to, but hey, when I need a drink, I NEED a frikin drink, and last night was just one of those nights. And ironically enough, I woke up this morning feeling much better than I have been these past few weeks. It was really weird, that's all I have to say. But anyways, today was pretty good. I did a Kinesiology practice session with my teacher and he said that I did really well...now all I have to worry about is memorizing origin and insertion and memorizing how to conduct tests in gravity minimized position...and that shouldn't be that bad. So needless to say, I feel a bit better about that test. For now though, i'm just sitting in the apartment. In a few, i'm about to study for my statistics quiz and then go to statistics, then come back, probably take an hour nap, and study for the rest of the night. I was actually invited to the ZBT party tonight by one of the brothers (the one that usually invites me to those things) and I don't know if i'm going or not. My friend said that I should go, but I'm thinking that I should devote this night solely to studying...but you never know with me! Haha.

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: That I study well and continue being a good Occupational Therapy student. =)

Wednesday, Oct. 8, 2008

Currently: Blah. That's pretty much what sums me up right now. I have so much shit to do in so little time, it's amazing how my teachers could even think that I can pull an A average by the end of this semester. Tommorrow alone I have two quizzes, one being a big review quiz for Medical Science. I also have to continue studying oh so mercilessly for my lab practical on Friday. I seriously don't understand how one person can memorize movement, resistance, palpation and origin and insertion of about 15 muscles!!! This is seriously ridiculous. And to add to all this foolery, I will be spending all of this weekend doing sorority crap, which includes going out of town for a "leadership seminar" and doing trash pick up in the highway the next morning. With all this, i'll barely have time to do any studying this weekend. And my Big sister is coming to town this weekend, and I won't even be able to see her that much because of all this! I also have to work on an article for the paper. This is all getting to me really bad. I have even been feeling quite sickly lately because of all of this. This morning in Neuroscience I could barely even keep my eyes open. *sigh* And in the meanwhile, you have all these celebrities down in Hollywood having sex and getting knocked up one by one...what people do when they have too much time on their hands. I'm not going to lie though, right now I'm wishing that I can briefly switch places with one of them. I need a clear mind right now, which I pretty much won't have for awhile.

Mood: Very Blah.

Want of the day: To study and do whatever I can do to do well this semester.

Tuesday, Oct. 7, 2008

Currently: Today hasn't been too bad. First had Kinesiology and got my lecture test back...I got a B on it. After that, I had a boring hour and a half of Medical Science. Our teacher actually thought that she could keep us awake today by showing You Tube videos...that didn't really work very well for myself. It did nothing but increase my ADD. Not good. But anyways, i'm about to go eat soon (though i'm not really hungry). After that, i'm going to psych/soc. lecture and then lab immediately following. Then after that I have statistics, then it's back to the apartment to continue studying for my Kinesiology practical on Friday. That shall be it.

Mood: *blech*

Want of the day: That I get everything done.

Monday, Oct. 6, 2008

Currently: Sitting at work right now and studying for my Medical Science quiz on thursday at the same time. After work (I get out at 3), i'm going to meet up with my Kinesiology professor to discuss some concerns I have for the practical on friday. After that, i'm going to the Math center to get some help on one of the chapters in statistics that I don't undestand too well. And then after that it's back to the apartment to continue working on Kinesiology things. This week is going to be pretty busy for myself. I have one thing on top of the next to do, and it's crazy!!! But i'll be fine, i'm sure. Next week is fall break, and i'm happy only because I get to see my car.=) But unfotunately, the break won't be that long...it is only about four days, so i'll be back here in school again right away. That makes me sad. Anyways, that is all I have for today.

Mood: Okay...not as tired.

Want of the day: That I get everything done and feel more confident.

Sunday, Oct. 5, 2008

Currently: Last night was not that exciting...but good enough, I guess. I did go to see "I Love You Because" and it was really good! I liked it a lot. The storyline was pretty predictable, but it still came together well and the people who acted in it did a good job. After that, I just settled back in the apartment and listened to music and watched Rent for the remainder of the night, so no, I did not go out to any parties last night. What really sucks too is that a lot of people had gone to the Zeeb house ALL WEEKEND, meaning friday night AND last night. Wtf? When I have my "mandatory dry weekend" is when people decide to show up at the ZBT house in masses? That is so not fair. Oh well. Right now i'm watching Food Network. Haha. As soon as i'm done typing this up, i'm going to brush my teeth and take a shower. After that i'm going to get ready and go get something to eat, then meet up with my former lab partner to practice Kinesiology. Yesterday I wasn't able to practice with her because she wouldn't answer her goddamn phone for some reason, and thus I couldn't get a hold of her...so needless to say, she has a lot of explaining to do! Haha. She did call me a few minutes ago though, so we'll definitely be practicing today. Anyways, after that, I plan on coming back to the apartment to continue studying as well as continue working on my Kinesiology lecture paper. I also have the AST meeting to go to at 7:00 and I may stop by the paper office. And that shall be today. Thankfully, it is the end of this dry weekend.

Mood: Whatever...sort of...I don't know, actually.

Want of the day: To get things done and not be a wreck.