Currently: Last night I did something that I never thought i'd do while in college...I deactivated my facebook account. Truth is, i'm tired of looking at other people's profiles and seeing how happy and satisfied with their lives they are and how my so-called "friends" would always write on the walls of everybody but myself. Call me childish, call me insecure, but it bothered me some, so I figured if I didn't have a facebook account at all, I wouldn't have to feel so bad about myself anymore. I have reached my limits in many ways. I'm even thinking of dropping out of my sorority. Yep, you heard it here. I don't like the fact that some of the girls have been really rude to me lately...and for no apparent reason. There's even one girl in particular, whom I used to consider a close friend of mine, who's been giving me the cold shoulder lately. And my question is; for what? I know that i'm a quiet person and some people don't like that, but that doesn't mean that when I do attempt to speak to you or get to know you, that you should just shun me away like i'm some sort of parasite that's getting in your way. I may speak to our president about this sometime...but not just yet. I'm actually waiting until sunday after elections to make my final decision. If I don't receive or am not voted into any position I may definitely drop out altogether. I'll be especially upset if one of the Alpha Kappas (or the newly initiated girls) get a position and I don't. It's not like I haven't been working my ass off, waking up at early hours some weekends to go do community service, as well as showing up to practically every recruitment event, just to get a slap in the face, or a "better luck next time" sort of deal. This is it. I'm tired of being stepped on. I've been too nice for too long, and it has gotten me nowhere. Anyways, i'm about to go do some studying for my Kinesiology lab practical which is in a few hours. After that, i'm going to cash my check and then get my eyebrows waxed (or the other way around, depending on how long it takes me to complete the exam) and maybe get something to eat in between. After that, of course, i'm going back to the apartment to nap and do whateverelse. I doubt very much so that i'm going to the Zeeb house tonight, since their "sweetheart" is one of the girls that's been rude to me lately. I know that I shouldn't be taking all of this out on the guys, but sometimes a little discrimination by association is necessary. I'm outie.
Mood: Blah.
Want of the day: That everything works out okay.
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