Dani's Rant:A Rant on...that Time.

WARNING: The following passage contains subject matter of a sensitive female nature. If you are a male, I recommend you read no further than this paragraph. You have been warned.





I have been noticing a couple things about myself when I get my period lately. For one, before I get my period I am always hungry! And when I say hungry I mean hungry to an EXTREME! Like constantly craving a snack or a meal hungry. And I crave for things that are horrid for my body like Chinese food, pasta, chocolate, etc. And then a couple of days before my period, I find myself barely having the strength to get out of bed and literally FORCING myself. And then when I finally do get up, I feel like I was asleep under a boulder all night...in other words, I feel like complete garbage. And when my Period finally decides to show, I literally know when it's there...without even having to go to the bathroom to discover it. I know because I almost always have some sort of cramp underneath my belly...followed by a sensation of "something" flowing out of my vagina...and then I go to the bathroom and lo and behold! And the worst part of all is when i'm on my period i'm horny as all hell. Ironically, when i'm not on my period I do not think about sexual relations at all...like, never. But as soon as I get my period, I have these sexual urges and I lust like crazy over any guy I could think of, whether it be Michael B. Jordan, my imaginary boyfriend Jason, or some other guy I may find attractive. In the meanwhile, it is the most inappropriate time for me to be longing for sex...I mean, I am bleeding out of my vagina for chrissakes! I never used to get horny during my Period whatsoever. As a matter of fact, my period used to be merely an event full of pain, throwing up, and numbness. Basically, my period has always made me sick...ever since I was a teenager at least. But my menstrual symptoms were never this extreme! I am even PMSing now...that is also something I never used to do. The other day before my period decided to arrive for this month, I was very agitated and mean-spirited for no reason! And not only that, once I got to work I could just feel that something wasn't right so I decided to take my blood pressure and it was higher than usual. I then started feeling anxious and apprehensive for no apparent reason. I really don't understand any of these symptoms and why they are appearing at this time of my life, but for now i'm going to assume that it has to do with me getting older. They sure don't make it any easier for me to cope with that time of the month.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Currently: So i've decided to start working every other Saturday. I made this decision after accepting a little half-day saturday job yesterday and actually enjoying it. Also the extra money I earn from it is a plus. So that's that. I have also finally opened up a checking account in additon to my Savings account and am happy about that. I am still slowly but surely planning my vacation to...somewhere. I will probably end up taking my real vacation later in the year since a few things have come up, thus preventing me to have the means for vacation anytime soon. But in the meanwhile i'm going to take a a day off sometime this month and then 6 days off at the end of next month, because I REALLY need the rest. I mean, i've basically been working non-stop for the past four months. If i'm not working i'm either running errands, studying, taking a test, or contemplating. And that's about it, really. My mind has just been in business mode and hasn't been thinking much about having any type of fun...which I guess is better sometimes.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Currently: So I failed my second attempt at the NBCOT Boards...I was utterly shocked seeing the word "failed" next to the 2/14/12 date...but what could you do? The best thing for me is to shrug it off (as hard as that is) and move on. Like I said, i'm already making good money as an OTA so it's not a complete loss. I just can't help but wonder why this test is proving to be so difficult for myself and many others to pass! And then you have those who pass on their first try with HIGH marks, and even worse, you have those who swear to high heaven that they failed, and then guess what? They fucking passed! That's actually what happened to one of my classmates, lucky bitch. Anyways, i'm moving on from this. Right now my primary concern is vacation, which I plan to take in a few months. I'm going to need this vacation so bad, especially since as of late i've been pulling late over-time hours at work and have thus been coming Home a lot later than usual...and mind you, I get up at 5am every morning. So I am most definitely earning myself a good vacation.