Dani's Rants: How can I make my life more exciting?

I always thought that once I started working life would be a lot more fun and exciting...unfortunately, that is far from the truth. Sure working at least keeps me busy and occupied with something...but I think that's the only added Bonus to it. I still don't have a lot of friends so during the weekends I don't go anywhere or socialize...and even if I were to find someone to go on the occasional outing with, i'm always tired from work by the time weekends arrive! On top of that too you have Bills, bills, bills; i've already begun paying off my loans. So how do I even save up enough money to go out? I'm starting to feel that that's what life itself is; completely boring. People are so busy with obligations and personal matters, it's hard to find time for the more enjoyable things in life. Even when I do try to find ways to amuse myself, nothing seems to fulfill well enough. I feel like in order to fully enjoy life, one must have a job that requires them to travel a lot; at least you get to change settings and experience different worlds. I would love to do travel therapy...only problem though is i'm the type of person who has an attached type of personality...meaning once I grow used to a place I can never leave it. I hate that about me! For example, i've been in New York all my life and though I find San Francisco, California to be a lot more breath-taking and fun to live in, I STILL don't want to leave New York! I think apart of it is fear and being in a new setting all by myself. But i'm also the type of person who LOVES having something new and exciting to look forward to. That's why it has also been so hard trying to figure out my next vacation. One minute I want to go to Punta Cana, DR, next minute I want to visit Hollywood...then the next minute I want Mexico or Vegas...I want to be everywhere!haha But it is hard too to get to those places without money...and I haven't even started saving up to retake my Boards yet. But anyways, at the end of all of this is the question; why does life have to be so boring? Why can't simple things like waking to a beautiful day (which it really is) fulfill the soul enough? Or going to the Salon and getting a new hairdo? Why can't things like that keep me going for an entire day? Maybe i'm the only one that feels this way...but I doubt it.

Dani's Rants part 3: Jason

I have an imaginary boyfriend named Jason. He is 26, from a well-off family in an upscale suburban town. He is also a law student and former lifeguard with a bright future. His zodiac sign is Cancer. He treats me the way I deserve to be treated. He sends me flowers at work when he doesn't have to. He says "I love you" everytime we speak. He isn't ashamed to say that I am his. He posts countless photos of he and I together...a couple in which he is kissing me. He lets me fall asleep in his arms at night. He listens to the hip hop and r&b music that I like...but isn't afraid to throw in a little punk and alternative into the mix. He drives a stick shift and isn't afraid to take me anywhere I want. He takes me to his Cabin Upstate on some weekends so we may both escape from real life and just spend some quality time together. He has never once mentioned his ex-girlfriend eventhough they were together for a long time. He loves his family and will do anything for them...but will still stand up for me if they attempt to trample on my name. I practically live with him eventhough he technically lives with his childhood best friend and I still live at home with my parents. He hates to see me cry or upset. He knows when to be playful and when to be serious. He is not afrraid to think outside the box. He may be imaginary, but it is He that keeps me sane.