Saturday, Feb. 28, 2009

Currently: Back in the homeland. Expectedly, all I did today was eat, nap and listen to music. I also took my car out of the driveway to use for the week. I was trying to see if my friend and I could hang out tommorrow, but she's working from 7 to 10, so i'm trying to think of a night during the week for us to hang out and for me to crash at her place...cause I have to!haha. Anyways, now i'm going to brush my teeth, shower and call it a night. I'm really looking forward to sleeping to some nice, soothing 90's and or salsa music. Good times.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To continue feeling better...and not let certain people get to me.

Friday, Feb. 27, 2009

Currently: Just got done taking my research test. Luckily, our professor was nice enough to leave out the answer key for us to look at once we were done. I got a lot of questions right, a few wrong and a few partially right, meaning I pretty much passed! Yay! I also turned in my article critique for that class...so pretty much all is good and set for that class, which makes me happy. Sitting at the library right now. I'll be here awhile (311! yea! haha.) Once i'm done screwing around here, i'm going to get something to eat and then go to work for two hours. After work, i'm going back to the apartment to do some last minute packing and then i'm going home for my one week spring break...15 hour greyhound trip, here I come!haha. I don't plan on really doing much while home. Hopefully, i'll get to hang out with my friend in the city for a day. I also plan on doing some shopping (I need new jeans, BAD!) and doing my hair and eyebrows, so that I can look nice and fresh once I get back. The following week I have Fieldwork 1 placements...it's a little nerve-racking, cause i'll be working at an all boys correctional-type school, and most of the boys i'll be working with are teenagers...yea, pretty intimidating. But i'm going to try to keep a positive mind-set about it all and just do what I have to do to get my credit...you never know, it may actually be a great experience for me. *fingers crossed* That same week will also be exciting, cause on that friday i'll be finding out who my little is!...or if I got one at all, haha. I'm looking forward to that. And, well, that's about all I have.

Mood: Alright...eventhough it's raining out.

Want of the day: To continue feeling better about myself.

Thursday, Feb. 26, 2009

Currently: I had fun last night. I went out with my friends Clarice and Sanami and their boyfriends (hah, what an irony, eh?) Of course, I ignored the fact that I was the only sinle gal in tow and had a good time. We went to three different Bars and Sanami's boyfriend was nice enough to buy us all drinks for the night. That made me happy.=) But anyways, that was last night and today was today...today wasn't so bad, actually. I went to my little Counseling session this afternoon, and turns out I may have Anxiety. For my next appointment, the counselor also wants to give me a little screen for depression just in case. It was a good session though. I was just so out of it all day today cause I barely got enough sleep last night and am on day three of my monthly...meaning I was in excruciating pain for like half the day. It eventually went away though, thankfully. I was also able to finish up my article critique which is due tommorrow for my research class. So tonight all I have to worry about is studying for the Research test which is also tommorrow...I heard from a girl that took it today that it was pretty difficult. That makes me a little nervous. But we have plenty of chances this semester to improve our grades in that class, and I did pretty well on the last exam, so even if I bomb this exam, I doubt that my chances of failing the course will be great. But anyways, before I handle that business, I must go take a nap. My eyes can barely stay open right now.

Mood: Okay...but tired.

Want of the day: To continue feeling better.

Tuesday, Feb. 24, 2009

Currently: Things haven't been any better for me. I have had a horrible cough for a few days now and have been feeling pretty shitty. This afternoon, after lab, I was so knocked out and out of it, that I took a nap that lasted well into the evening...well, I temporarily get up to go check my e-mail/facebook messages, and precisely at that time is when my fat fuck of a roomate comes in, clearly seeing that I am not feeling well at all, and says in a very rude tone "Did you know that you talk in your sleep?????...and your roomate doesn't like that!!!" Shocked at her blatant inconsideration, I reply "Well, I didn't know that...and even if I did, I really have no control over it." She then replies "Well, you either have to get some duct tape or do something about it!" That rude bitch! I never complain about the apnea-type noises she makes when she's asleep...or her extremely loud snoring...because I am more of a considerate person than she is, and know that she can't help what she does in her sleep! It's common fucking sense, dumass! You think, if i'm knocked out asleep, that i'm just going to "feel" that i'm talking and wake myself up to stop it?...NO! Cause that's fucking impossible, you fucking douchebag! I really don't know what has been up with this month, but it has been hell for myself. I get more and more depressed everyday, i'm more and more hopeless everyday and now I just HAVE to have random people giving me the worst attitudes and cold shoulders for no reason...and trust me, she hasn't been the only one. It's a shame. And last month was such a great one for me, too...can't I go at least two months straight without feeling like shit? Anyways, i'm going to the Counseling Center thursday at 1, so hopefully that can help me some...I really don't know what to do anymore. Now I see why the Earth is trying to slowly destroy itself, the fucking humans in it just ruin everything...even for decent folks like myself.

Mood: Sad.

Want of the day: To feel better.

Sunday, Feb. 22, 2009

Currently: Last night was actually fun. I was so desperate to get out and cleanse my depressed system with some liquor, and no one was really responding to any of my texts or caring for that matter that I was absolutely miserable and dying to just do something...that I decided to move to my last resort, which was begging my roomate to be my companion. Haha. Thankfully, she was in a good mood, and with a little of my desperation and begging, agreed to go with me. The Bar was pretty packed last night, with it being "Bar Stool/ Bar Crawl" weekend and all...it was a lot of fun. I got so drunk that I started talking to and making friends with complete strangers and was even flirted with...by a woman!haha. That was interesting. I also got a cute guy to dance with my roomate, which was cool, decided to voluntarily dance on a table top and was sort of "reunited" with cool, all-American guy that I was gawking over a few weeks ago. Sadly, my meeting with him this time wasn't as exciting as it was last time, as he merely asked to use my lighter, thanked me, and then went on his merry way. All in all, it was still a blast. After our Bar festivities, we stopped by McDonald's, where I picked up two double cheese burgers. Sadly, I didn't even get to eat them, as I began puking my ass off as soon as we got back to the apartment. I puked maybe four times and didn't black out on the bathroom floor this time, so I consider that a success! But of course, there is a downside to this story. I wake up this morning to discover that I had gone diarrhea allover my panties while I was knocked out asleep...sexy, I know. Haha. SO embarrassing! I quickly took everything I was wearing off and washed them...and cleaned the bathroom too, of course. Beyond gross, let me tell you. But today, in general has been very up and down for me. I woke up feeling fine (minus the little poo situation), but then out of nowhere, I was sad again. It was so weird...it was just like poof! out of nowhere, back to misery...and I don't understand it. I'm starting to think that something's seriously wrong with me, and as the years go by, my once sort of mild depression gets progressively worse. It's pretty scary, to be honest. These days, to tell you the truth, i'm only happy when i'm drunk...and that's a very dangerous sign. I really don't know what to do with myself at this point to make it all better. Now, i'm not religious or anything, but whoever's reading this entry right now, just pray for me please.

Mood: Sad.

Want of the day: To feel better.

Saturday, Feb. 21, 2009

Currently: So Operation: I-go-crazy '09 still continues. I am so pissed off today, it is not even funny...and the fact that I didn't go out at all last night, really isn't helping matters any. I tried and tried to find people to go out to the Bar or atleast a little ZBT party with...but no, everyone either had previous plans or didn't feel the need to respond to any of my texts. So I went to bed really upset...and woke up fine, but then got upset again. I know this is most likely not true, but I can't help but feel that everybody else has a comfortable life but me. Everyday I go on facebook and see someonelse starting a new realtionship...and me? Nowhere, absolutely nowhere. I'm sure there are people who are starting to wonder if i'm a lesbian...wouldn't be surprised. I have tried and tried again with people, especially men, but no one seems to want to give me a chance...which is beyond fucked up, cause i'm a good person and don't deserve this shit. It's been so bad, that my demeanor even has changed from the usual. I'm at work right now, and have been answering the phone in a more aggressive and abrupt tone of voice...that is how upset I am. I NEVER do that! Even when I had been upset in the past, I was always known to be the type that answers the phone in a very polite and friendly tone...not today, people. I know that i'm letting things bother me that I shouldn't at times, but I just can't help it! Something's got to give, already! Am I seriously bound to a life like this for good? FUCK MY LIFE!

Mood: Angry.

Want of the day: To feel better.

Friday, Feb. 20, 2009-The Airing of Grievances

Currently: This week (if you hadn't guessed already) has been pretty shitty for myself. I have just been thinking all week; what is the real point for my existence? I try and I try to be myself, and treat others well and get myself out there, but still I get criticism (via one of my professors) that I need assertiveness training, and that some of my ways aren't very "professional." Seriously, what do you want from me, people? I was also speaking with my mother last night and it turns out that my aunt is raising hell back at home...for what reason? I don't know. She's one of those selfish bitches who wants everything her way or the high way, and if she doesn't get her way, watch out! She will take her shit out on the nearest, most vulnerable, most convenient people...which in this case happens to be my family. GREAT! Just what I need as the special cherry topping to this shit week. I really don't understand people. I mean, I go through my shit, I NEVER get my way, but you don't see me taking it all out on others. That is not the way I am, and yet I am surrounded by people like that. Just leave me the fuck alone! How about that? I also hate people who take support systems and relationships for granted. Today my "friend" (I don't know if she's even that to me anymore) proclaimed to me pretty much that she refuses to go out if her boyfriend's not in town...ok little miss princess, how would you feel if you DIDN'T have someone and had to settle for just going out without a date? Would you survive? Would you try to kill yourself as you attempted to before? She is so ridiculous and dependednt on men to survive, it's fucking annoying...and yet she has the fucking nerve to tell ME who has been single all my life and has had to deal with TEN TIMES the pain of being lonely, to stop worrying about such thing! The girl couldn't even survive being single for a couple of months! Dumb christian hag. ....I'm sorry, i'm really getting ahead of myself. I just need a nap...or something. As soon as i'm done with work that's exactly what i'm going to do. And hopefully later on tonight I can cleanse my system with some alcohol. Sounds like a plan.

Mood: Bleh.

Want of the day: To have some fun tonight.

Wednesday, Feb. 18, 2009

Currently: I have come to a conclusion in the past few days...
I am slipping...slowly slipping away.
Ignored, unsure...but I still try to smile.
I've been through this before...
And i'm tired of writing about the same thing over and over again...
My repetitiveness is really boring me to death...
But what can I say?
That is my life.
A boring, "unchange-ing" (in my mind, at least...maybe I exaggerate?)
...piece of loserdome (I should copyright this word)
I thought I gave up a long time ago...
...but I was just growing weaker.
I have never been so confused in my life...
...never been so scared, either.
I feel like time is running out quickly, but where am I going?
...to a better place, I hope.

tuesday, feb. 17, 2009

currently: i don't want to speak for the rest of the week.

Sunday, Feb. 15, 2009

Currently: Last night was pretty cool and laid back. My friend Clarice was nice enough to accompany me to the Bar. I had quite a few to drink, but didn't get too drunk, which was good. I think the most interesting moment from last night was when some random guy sitting at the Bar decides to voluntarily and unexpectedly pay for one of my drinks. When I go up to get another drink, the same guy introduces himself to me and then asks if he can buy me another drink...no thanks, I said...I have more respect for myself than that. Another semi-interesting moment from last night was when I HAD to get up and dance to "Cupid Shuffle." I can't help it! When that song comes on, something happens to me...almost like another spirit takes over my body and I just want to shuffle my ass off!haha. After the Bar, we went by McDonalds, where I got two Double Cheese Burgers...yum! After that, we walked back to our respective apartments and well...that was it. A lot of people were being lame last night cause it was valentine's day...whoopteefrickindoo!haha. Anyways, today has been okay. Woke up pretty early, got ready, got something to eat, worked on my Oscars review article, did some research for my Thesis group, met with my Thesis group, went to the AST meeting...and here I am now. Right now i'm about to go do some laundry and look over some psych/soc. notes for the upcoming test. Fun stuff.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To be productive.

Saturday, Feb. 14, 2009

Currently: Valentine's Day can stick a stone hard dildo up its ass! I say this cause one, i've never had a valentine before and am always forced every year to spend it all by my lonesome, and 2, right before valentine's day this year, a so-called friend of mine felt the need to nab a guy that I liked. BEAUTIFUL! Let me explain...thursday night, as planned, I went out with my glorious stoner ex-roomie Jessie. We went to the Bar and met up with friends of her friend Cara. One of the guys, Mike, caught my eye right away, and I told both Jessie and Cara that i'm attracted to and would like to speak to him. So throughout the night I find creative ways to start conversations with him...and thankfully, he responds each time very well. He seems really cool and we actually have quite a bit in common. We eventually go back to him and his brothers apartment and stay there goofing off and talking the entire night. Finally, at almost five in the morning, we decide to go to sleep. The guys say it's okay for Jessie, Cara and I to sleep on their roll-out couch bed. So we roll out the couch bed and either Jessie or Cara asks Mike to get in bed with the three of us...and of course, he readily agrees. So here I am, all excited that i'm about to share a bed with a cute boy...I get even more excited when he crawls next to me. I purposely position myself extra close to him and he exclaims delightfully that he could feel my breasts up against his back. Haha. Hey, what can I say? But anyways, once 6 in the morning rolls by, we are awaken by Cara's noisy phone alarm...that is when I look over and see Jessie and Mike cuddling. WTF??? she knew damn well that I was interested in him, and she saw us talking all night, and she still had the nerve to do that? I was in horror and disbelief. I tried not to look over at them too much, but the fact that he was allover her and ignoring me was clearly obvious. I was crushed. Finally, Cara comes out and says that she will take me back to my apartment...and although Jessie was supposed to leave with me (we live in the same apartment bulding) she decided to stay with Mike...rub more salt on my wounds, why don't ya? He did give me a hug and tell me that he was glad to have met me...but that doesn't take away from the fact that he'd clearly rather fuck Jessie than me. They're even friends on facebook and he has already left her a message on her wall. And once again, i'm left hanging. I have been thinking about that ever since. I didn't even go out last night. I know that this is probably for the best, but can't I get someone I want at least once in my life? Maybe this is for the best, I don't know, but whatever the case, I feel like shit and WILL get some liqour in my system tonight. Jessie's a fucking bitch for what she did to me.

Mood: Blah.

Want of the day: To get some liquor in my system to numb the pain.

Thursday, Feb. 12, 2009

Currently: Today has been just so. Took my Neurorehab lecture test bright and early this morning after work...and I think I did decently on it. In a few hours i'm going out to the Bar with my friend/ex-roomie and her friends, and i'm very much looking forward to that. Let the weekend begin!

Mood: Pretty good.

Want of the day: To have mucho fun later on.

Tuesday, Feb. 10, 2009

Currently: Today has been today. Worked from 8 to 9 this morning then had Neurorehab lecture, then got something to eat, then had lab. Today in lab we worked on re-positioning in a wheelchair and transferring a person from a wheelchair back to the bed. After lab, I came straight back to the apartment and took a nap. After that, I got up and fooled around a little, then studied a little...and now this is what i'm doing. I'm so restless and bored...and I feel bad, cause I really should be studying...but I just can't really concentrate. *sigh* I'm going to try.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: None.

Monday, Feb. 9, 2009

Currently: Today was pretty boring. Had Research and then psych/soc. lecture. After that, I was so tired I went straight back to the apartment and napped for an hour or so. When I got back up I went back out to get something to eat, then came back. Ummmm...I also watched some DVD's and music videos, listened to some music and studied a little. All of the above pretty much sums up my day today. I'm pooped.

Mood:Sluggish.

Want of the day: None.

Sunday, Feb. 8, 2009

Currently: Last night was insane! I was supposed to go out with my roomate, but at the last minute she decided to be a noob and act as if she forgot we were supposed to hang out and settles for watching "The Notebook" instead...LAME! So realizing that she was up for absolutely nothing, I quickly texted my friends from the night before. They tell me to come over and meet them at Megan's place. So I do, and as soon as I get over there, she makes me a mixed rum and coke drink. It was good. After we sat around and talked and drank for a little, we headed out to a Sports Bar that actually used to be a club that I went to often as a Freshman. It was packed last night! It was hard just to get the Bartenders' attention cause they were so busy making drinks for so many people. I finally was able to get my jack and coke though. After another jack and coke, I was pretty comfortable with myself...meaning I started dancing my ass off to absolutely anything that came on.Haha. Of course, as i'm dancing i'm also taking sips of my friends' drinks. After that, we went out to a club. The club was also pretty packed. For some reason, by the time we got to the club I was GONE...like seriously, DONE with drinking for the night. I could barely see a thing, my body felt like it was being heavily compressed and my balance was comlpetely off...I also couldn't feel my entire body. That is how gone I was. But I still tried to dance a little...but I just felt myself getting more and more sick, so I whispered to one of my friends that I need to go to the bathroom, and as soon as I get into the stall I stick my fingers down my throat and cough to induce vomiting...and it worked. After throwing up some, I go back out onto the dance floor and start dancing like nothing happened. Haha. Of course, this led me to getting some attention. Some guy who was also mighty wasted, takes me aside and we dance...rather intimately. He then starts nibbling on my neck and we make out...a lot. What's horrible about this situation though is now that I think of it, I kissed the dude just moments after I was puking my ass off in the bathroom...sick. Good thing he wasn't aware of that. After awhile, my friends realized that I have disappeared from our little circle and come get me. That is when i'm informed that the dude I was making out with was a redneck...can I get a...ewwww? Yea. So we leave the club and are given a ride home by one of the girls' boyfriends. I got to ride all the way in the back of his Van where there were no seats...and of course, my drunk butt feels the need to continually compare that to "Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist." Haha. I am special. Once I arrive back at my apartment, I try to eat some of the fries that one of the girls had gotten me...but then I felt sick again. So I go in the bathroom and start throwing up again. After puking for awhile, I black out on the bathroom floor. I finally get back up and it's already six in the morning...yea. So I literally throw my clothes off, put some jammies on and go to sleep. I wake up this morning feeling much better but still kind of off. I brush my teeth, shower, get dressed and go get something to eat. I then went to the AST house to finish making ribbons as well as review procedures for the Ribboning ceremony. After that, me and my friend Kristin walk over to the meeting together. The meeting started much earlier today, I guess in lieu of our new Alpha Lambda class. The meeting lasted until around 8 pm. After the meeting, we all went straight back to the house for the Ribboning ceremony...it was very straight forward and short, sweet and to the point. Once the ceremony's over, one of my sisters, Lauren, who's very blunt, tells me that i'm doing a very good job as Ritual chair...and that made me happy. And here I am now. I'm debating whether I should look over Neurorehab notes or not. I'm just so tired and want to go to sleep...and I have been dehydrated all day, so that's really not helping much. I'll probably just look over some of the notes a little bit and call it a night.

Mood: Good...but sleepy.

Want of the day: None.

Saturday, Feb. 7, 2009

Currently: Last night was a lot of fun. I first went to my friend's dinner thingy for her Service trip to Guatemala. I didn't get anything to eat, but I did get a Mai Tai. Haha. FINALLY, I find a place around here that makes them! Anyways, while there, I also met up with some friends of mine from class. We hang around the restaurant for a little bit and then venture out to the Bar. Right away, I got a pint of jack and coke. At first, all we really did was talk, but as the night progressed and I took more and more shots, things got a little more interesting.Haha. For one, my friend Cara meets with us there and brings her boyfriend along and after she introduces me to him the first thing I ask (since he's a Marine) is "Is it true that you guys can break me in half with your bare hands??" Haha. What a horror I can be when i'm happy-drunk. I danced my ass off for the remainder of the time spent at that Bar. After Cara and her boyfriend leave, the girls and I decide to venture out to another Bar where our Neurorehab professor (supposedly) DJ's. It was a lot of fun. I kept stealing my poor friends' drinks, cause at that point I didn't feel like blowing away any more of my money on drinks. I continued to dance my ass off at that Bar as well, and FINALLY get a little bit of attention from a semi-attractive guy. As i'm dancing, he kind of dances by my side, sort of in a "I want to dance with you but am kind of hesitant" gesture. So I notice this, and since I was in a boldly drunk mood, I push my body up against his...and well, we dance! It was pretty cool. Once we were done dancing, I turn to him and say "can I have a hug?" Haha. I'm so needy. Fortunately, he smiles and hugs me. For some reason, he then tells me he has to be up early for practice...and I, the nosy child that I am, then ask him "what team do you play in?" WTF? Did I really have to go there? Haha. But he was nice enough to kindly answer "Baseball." He then tells me "Don't worry, i'll be back here tommorrow night." Hmmmmm...I wonder what subliminal message he was sending me? Anyways, I was driven home by my still pretty tipsy friend Meagan and crashed. Woke up moderately early this morning, got some brunch and went to work. Work was particularly unbearable today because the technicians were actually around, so I didn't have the freedom to be goofy and carry on the way I usually do during my Saturday work hours. But oh well,I got through it. And here I am now. Right now, i'm just waiting on some laundry. I also started making ribbons for the Ribboning ceremony tommorrow night. I still can't believe we actually have 12 GIRLS in the alpha lambda class! Crazy. Before you know it, our sorority will be as big as the Sigmas...and that makes me happy. But needless to say, making these ribbons has been a bitch because there's so much to make and I keep running out of ribbons! Thankfully, there are a few extra ribbons in the Rituals box at the House. Anyways, once I get my laundry, i'm going to fix myself up a little and then head out to the Bar with my roomate. I may meet up with the two girls I hung out with last night as well. Happy Saturday!

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To have some more fun!!!=)

Friday, Feb. 6, 2009

Currently: At the library right now. Had boring Research class from 8:00 to 9:50 this morning. Following that, I came straight here to the library and bumped into one of the new girls whom I really want to be my little (remember her?haha). We spoke for a good good while...I would say for about an hour. It was great. It was a very, as she would put it "Well-rounded conversation."Haha. I really like her. I'm really hoping that she becomes my little...if not, then I will be really sad. Anyways, i'll be here at the library until ten to, when I head out to work. I will be working today until 2 o'clock. After that, I am going back to the apartment and eat the rest of those left over BBQ chicken wings from last night. After that, I will probably continue on some Neurorehab lecture studying and then will possibly stop by the AST house to surprise some more girls that have been added to the alpha lambda class. After that,I am going back to the apartment to make ribbons for the ribboning ceremony on Sunday and then I may go to dinner with my friend in lieu of a fundraiser that she's doing for her Service trip to Guatemala. And then after that (if I go, that is) I may or may not go out to the Bar tonight. So pretty much, my plans are allover the frickin place. That is the craziness that is my life.=)

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To do something cool later on.=)

Thursday, Feb. 5, 2009

Currently: Today has been busy and...just today. Had work from 8 to 9 this morning, then Neurorehab lecture. After that, I picked up some money wired to me and made my Housing Deposit for next year. After that, I went and got something to eat and FINALLY sent out my sister info. to the new girls. After that, I came back to the apartment and crashed a little. I then got back up and ordered some BBQ wings...I also FINALLY got those ribbons from my sorority's former new members chair, so that I could make the ribboning pins for the ribboning ceremony on Sunday. After all of that, I studied a wee bit...I feel like I won't need to study too heavily to do moderately well on this exam...that is how easy I find the material...but that's just me. Anyways, about to crash. G'night.

Mood: Hmmmmmm...

Want of the day: None. Day is done.

Wednesday, Feb. 4, 2009

Currently: Today was busy and pretty darn stressful, which is why I didn't even have the time to update this thing. First had a boring one and a half hour Research lecture...then had a boring one and a half hour psych./soc. lecture...then had a pretty overbearing and boring psych/soc. lab. After all that was said and done, I went and got something to eat, then came back to the apartment and napped. After that, I got up, got ready and went to Game Night at the AST house...the girls decided to host this event so that we can attract and add more new girls to the Alpha Lambda roster. It was fun at times, but crazy. I am a pretty shy and quiet person and am very introverted in social situations, so being in a room with a crap-load of girls all at once, didn't make me feel very at ease. I tried to talk to some of the girls, but was very hesitant, for the most part. That made me feel bad, but what can I say? That's just the way I am. After playing games with the girls for seemingly a lifetime, we all sat and talked about them like we always do. It wasn't bad, but my sisters just wouldn't shut up!! I just wanted to go home, relax and go to bed, but nooooooooo they just had to keep chatting and chatting about pointless crap! Finally, me and my one sister Michelle just walked out. And here I am now. I'm also kind of upset that I missed tonight's episode of The Real World...nor did I get any time to start studying for my Neurorehab lecture test, which is next week.=( But what can I say? About to completely crash now...and that's it.

Mood: Tired and pretty Bleh.

Want of the day: None. Day is done.

Tuesday, Feb. 3, 2009

Currently: Last night wasn't too bad. Turns out, one of the girls that I had really liked from Recruitment weekend whom some of the girls weren't too crazy about, actually received a Bid from us! That came as a surprise to me, cause it seemed pretty unanimous that she wouldn't get a Bid...and that made me sad. But she is one of our newbies now and I am so happy about that. She's the one girl amongst the new girls that I see as my Little Sister material...I don't know, I just think we fit. I really like the other girls too...this bunch in general is a really good one, I feel. I'm going to sound like a little bit of an asshole right now, but I think I like this bunch a little better than the last bunch (or the Alpha Kappas). That's just the way it is. Anyways, today was today otherwise. Worked from 8 to 9 then had Neurorehab lecture. I then spent the remainder of the morning practicing my butt off for the Neurorehab lab practical. I finally took that at around 2-ish...and I was nervous. I started out making a few mistakes because of that...but then I caught myself and fixed each mistake...so I passed because of that. I have to learn though, not to let my nerves get the best of me. Hopefully, next practical won't be this way. Anyways, once that was done and over with I came back and took a nap. And now i'm just hanging out. I may step out for a brief smoke then do some studying. And that is all.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To study well.

Monday, Feb. 2, 2009

Currently: Last night I had so much fun! After doing the whole Pref. night thing with the sorority, I went back to my apartment, changed and went straight to the Bar where my roomate was waiting for me. I first had a pitcher of jack and coke and then another pitcher of long island iced tea and then three kamikaze shots and one tequila shot...all the while, watching the football game in a big screen. Haha. Of course at that point, the game was my last concern. I was beyond wasted. My eyes were doing crazy things, my entire body felt heavy, I couldn't see straight and I couldn't stop laughing!haha. What sucked though was when I broke the seal and ended up having to pee throughout the night...it did end up resulting in me making a little bathroom buddy though.haha. I just never thought that watching a football game wasted would be so much fun. I was even rooting for the teams! Usually I make my own determination that both teams suck and then don't bother watching at all...but last night was something. The walk home was fun as well. I couldn't walk straight at all and almost fell into a pile of snow. Haha. And of course, my roomate's like "If you fall, I swear..." Haha! I just love moments like these. Anyways, woke up bright and early this morning (not hungover. woo!) and went to my Research class. I kept having to hydrate myself cause I was feeling pretty dehydrated from last night. Didn't have psych/soc. lecture today cause my professor cancelled class. So I am in the library now. As soon as i'm done here, i'm going to go get something to eat and then go back to the apartment and crash. Later on, I have to go to Bid night for my sorority...and in between will be studying Neurorehab lecture notes, as well as trying to get in some more last minute practice for my Neurorehab lab practical tommorrow afternoon. Back to business all over again.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To use my time wisely later on.