Currently: So Operation: I-go-crazy '09 still continues. I am so pissed off today, it is not even funny...and the fact that I didn't go out at all last night, really isn't helping matters any. I tried and tried to find people to go out to the Bar or atleast a little ZBT party with...but no, everyone either had previous plans or didn't feel the need to respond to any of my texts. So I went to bed really upset...and woke up fine, but then got upset again. I know this is most likely not true, but I can't help but feel that everybody else has a comfortable life but me. Everyday I go on facebook and see someonelse starting a new realtionship...and me? Nowhere, absolutely nowhere. I'm sure there are people who are starting to wonder if i'm a lesbian...wouldn't be surprised. I have tried and tried again with people, especially men, but no one seems to want to give me a chance...which is beyond fucked up, cause i'm a good person and don't deserve this shit. It's been so bad, that my demeanor even has changed from the usual. I'm at work right now, and have been answering the phone in a more aggressive and abrupt tone of voice...that is how upset I am. I NEVER do that! Even when I had been upset in the past, I was always known to be the type that answers the phone in a very polite and friendly tone...not today, people. I know that i'm letting things bother me that I shouldn't at times, but I just can't help it! Something's got to give, already! Am I seriously bound to a life like this for good? FUCK MY LIFE!
Mood: Angry.
Want of the day: To feel better.
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