Currently: Didn't have such a great weekend. Failed my lab practical on friday again and my professor wants me to meet up with him sometime this week to practice and then to re-take the test. If this were one of those situations where I didn't study and fucked up everytime I practiced, I would understand, but this is just the opposite. I studied my ass off and practiced my ass off with him, my friend Hillary and my lab partners Kate and Kelly, and every practice session went just fine, and yet I take the lab practical and STILL fail????!!! This has all led me to believe that that bastard of a professor is doing this on purpose because he does not want me to succeed. No, he wants me to keep repeating labs and spend more and more of my tuition money until I decide to just give it up. I know people, I know what he's thinking and he's being really shady right now. Nevertheless, I was angry all weekend, but did a pretty good job of masking my anger. And it wasn't even just the lab-thing that got me all emotionally screwed up. I started thinking about other things in my life that was and still is going shitty, and i'm not going to lie, all of that put together really screwed up my mood. I don't know anymore. Life is just so cruel...and I know life is cruel to everybody, but sometimes I feel like it is most cruel to me. I could be wrong. Anyways, still at work. I did some studying for my Medical Science final which is on thursday. I also looked over my powerpoint presentation for tommorrow's Medical Science class. Right now i'm trying to get my psych/soc. final paper started...but I just can't. I don't know if it's because the damn thing is so long or that i'm still depressed, but right now I have no ambition. I'm going to try though to atleast start it. Once i'm done here i'm going straight to my apartment and crash for like an hour and then get back up and continue to study for finals as well as try to continue on my psych/soc. paper. My body hasn't been feeling too well lately. Sometimes when I walk I feel woozy and get the feeling that i'm going to collapse at any minute. This morning while walking over to work, in particular, I couldn't even look down the block without feeling nauseous. Needless to say, all of this stress is really killing me. I must keep pushing on. I have a week and a half of this semester to go.
Mood: Blah.
Want of the day: To get work done and feel better.
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