Wednesday, Sept. 23, 2009

Currently: I've been busy, busy, busy as usual. Took my first Pediatrics test of the semester yesterday...and didn't do so well on it. That ruined my entire day. I was so upset and hopeless...I even briefly thought about dropping out of school. It was that bad. But i'm feeling slightly better today. Took my first Ethics test of the semester and thankfully I have a good feeling that my grade on that test will be WAY better than my grade on my Pediatrics test. For now i'm passing a little time and then I have a sorority executive commitee meeting to attend to. I am meeting with the commitee to finish updating our chapter Bylaws. Blah. Dry material altogether. Once that's done and over with, i'm coming back to the apartment and Physical Disabilities will own my life. Since I didn't do so well in Pediatrics, i'm going to try to compensate for that by kicking Physical Disabilities' ass!Haha I take that test on Monday. This weekend, in the meanwhile, will probably be my last hurrah for hard Bar visits and drinking. And I say this because...let's just say last weekend after attending my sorority sister Kate's bachelorette party, I had a near-death experience. Not only did I puke my brains out, but at one point, I swear I was completely disoriented and could barely answer my friend Jenn when she was speaking to me. That gave me a wake up call. A wake up call that I need to stop using alcohol as a coping mechanism and that I need to learn to correctly pace myself when drinking...before it's too late. So I pretty much have vowed to myself that during the weekends I will try to find other alternative ways to pass time and have "fun"...like maybe stepping out to the mall, or movies, or dinner, or something.Lol I even fogot what doing that sort of stuff for leisure was like, since i've been practically living for Bars and parties since I entered college.Haha But something's got to give. And even if I do go out, i'm going to try to pace myself a lot slower and NOT chugg liquor as I foolishly did Saturday night...I actually chugged a long island iced tea AND an "irish car bomb," which was pure whiskey. Yea, beyond dumb. So i'm really hoping right now that I don't break this promise to myself and that after this weekend (since i'll be attending a 21st party and a wedding) i'll be able to follow up on my plan. We shall see.