Currently: You know, I really don't understand people. I try to put myself out there and open myself to friendships, but still I get shooed away like some sort of invalid. Everyday I feel like i'm just trying too hard for nothing, and that I will be judged as the "awkward one" no matter what I do. I know in my heart that at the end of the day, this little facade will get me absolutely nowhere for the rest of my life but still I try...why? And for what? I guess i'm just that bored with life that I feel I need to do something stupid to keep me occupied. People. Who needs them? They cause all the world's problems anyway...and almost everyone on Earth (myself included) is shady in some way. I just wish that there were a way that I could live without people and still remain content and satisfied with myself. But they're everywhere so it's hard to just not be around them for too long. *sigh* What am I going to do with myself? What should I do with myself? I don't know. What I do know is that this is who I am and this is how i'll be for the rest of my life, until my body finally decides to quit this bitch and call it a day. Haha. Well, at least now i'm certain where I stand and what role I play in this Earth. At least I try, right? And that's all that matters in my book. I tried. It may have taken me nowhere...but I made many attempts and now I have plenty of proof to back up my theories. Go me! I feel much better now. Anyways, studying for Neurorehab for the remainder of this lovely evening. I finished my paper for that class earlier today so thank goodness I don't have that to worry about anymore. Man, I can't wait for Wednesday.
Mood: Alright.
Want of the day: To study well and continue to inspire myself.
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