Wednesday, Dec. 15, 2010

Currently: My last day of pediatric fieldwork is 2 days away...it feels so close, yet so far away! Boy, friday's going to be so bittersweet! I mean, i'll be celebrating completion of a fieldwork for the first time, but at the same time i'll be thinking about how, unlike everyonelse in my class, I won't be able to completely exhale and kick back and celebrate my accomplishments. It is so frustrating and upsetting. I used to wake up at 4:30 in the fucking morning for my first rotation everyday, and from the time I stepped foot in that building to the time I walked out, I was on my feet. I didn't even have a complete lunch break at that place. YET I was completely screwed over and now have to do EXTRA work, instead of being able to celebrate my commitments and hard work. What the fuck? Everytime I think about this, it's even harder for me to celebrate being done with this fieldwork. It's like I had started all over again, when I think about it. And the end of this fieldwork is more like a stale accomplishment not even worth really celebrating. *sigh* And to be honest, i'm nervous altogether about friday because I never know what bullshit those occupational therapists will throw at me...though my supervisor has been great to me throughout my time there...but still, I don't know. I heard through the grapevine that the department is actually throwing me and the other student that has been there a pizza party on friday...well, at least i'll have that to look forward to!Haha Friday night I am most likely going out for a semi-celebration, and then on saturday I will be highlighting my hair and attending my mother's office christmas party...so the weekend should be good. Friday will still be bittersweet, though.