Currently: Just took my Neuroscience test and it was pretty easy...so my brain can breathe...for now, that is. Last night wasn't exactly a good one for myself. I just felt really shitty and depressed for no completely identifiable reason. I called my friend on the phone and started crying my eyes out outside in front of my apartment. I'm still trying to get to the bottom of what may be wrong with me, but it's really hard. I'm figuring it has to do with my feelings of "loneliness" and inadequance and low self-esteem. *sigh* I thought that I was over that stuff for awhile, but I guess i'm really not. But am I going to get help for this? No. Cause in reality, what will therapy really do for me? Half of those so-called "caring" therapists don't even really look out for their patients...it's all about the money, especially in today's economy. I wouldn't even be able to get service if I didn't have an insurance or health care plan. So, again, my question is: What's the point? Anyways, i'm in the library now. For now i'm feeling better, but i'm pretty sure i'll be back to feeling like shit after I have Kinesiology lab. Just thinking about that class saddens me. But before I go to lab, I will be stopping by the payroll office to try to solve my little "issue" from yesterday. After that, i'm getting something to eat...and then the sadness begins. After i'm done with lab, i'm definitely going back to the apartment to take a long ass nap. This week has been beyond stressful and crappy and i'm glad that it's over...but unfortunately for me, next week may bring even more stress and depression.
Mood: Contemplative.
Want of the day: That everything works out okay.
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