friday, apr. 10, 2009

currently: there's nothing to see here, people. keep moving on.

Wednesday, Apr. 8, 2009

Currently: It is the beginning of Easter Break...and I decided to stay here at school for it. BAD choice!!! It is so lonely and boring here right now. Who knew so many people would actually go home for this break??? Crazy. I guess i'm going to have to find ways to keep myself amused for the next week...once again, BAD choice. Oh well. Today went well, otherwise. Did my Assertiveness presentation earlier today and it went quite well. I also took my Research class exam this morning and don't really feel that I did too well on it...I just couldn't study all that much cause I put most of my time and energy on the Assertiveness presentation and my Activities File. Thankfully, i'm not the only person in the class who feels that my performance on this morning's exam wasn't really up to par, so maybe out professor will curve the exam?haha. Anyways, that is it for me, for now. See what happens. Bleh.

Mood: Bored.

Want of the day: To find something interesting to do...safely.

Tuesday, Apr. 7, 2009

Currently: These past few days have been quite busy for yours truly. Luckily, my Neurorehab professor decided to give me one last chance to pass my lab practical and I did it! *phew* He really had me. On the downside, it is snowing some over here. I swear, it's like the snow will never end. Anyways, I have to get to finishing my Activities File now. I just finished up my Assertiveness presentation, so i'm on the right track! I'm being productive for once, haha. I'll most likely be up all night studying for my Research test though. Boo, bummer.

Mood: Alright.

Want of the day: To continue being super productive!

Sunday, Apr. 5, 2009

Currently: I had a great time at formal last night, but reality has just hit me that the fun is over and that this week is going to suck ass royally. I have to meet up with my Neurorehab professor and department supervisor to discuss my status in the program. I also have a Research test, psych/soc. Assertiveness (ha!) presentation and my psych/soc Activities File is due on wednesday. I know one thing's for sure, tommorrow I will be working non-stop. For now though, i'm going to start studying for Research a little bit and then call it a night.

Mood: Crappy.

Want of the day: To at least start studying for Research.

Saturday, Apr. 4, 2009

Currently: Right now I feel like I am slowly dying inside.

Had some fun with my little last night.

Formal is this evening.

See what happens.

Thursday, Apr. 2, 2009

Currently: Still alive. Just took my big Neurorehab exam and feel that I did decently on it. Now the only thing i'm worried about is re-taking that lab practical and passing it. I saw my professor and he told me that he will let me know when I can come in tommorrow or today (I think) to re-take it. I actually didn't even hear him that well because there were still people taking the test and he was trying to whisper, so i'm not even all that sure of what he was trying to say. Crap. I guess i'll have to e-mail him and ask to clarify. I also have to e-mail my work supervisor to tell him that I won't be able to work on Saturday with that tea party and Formal going on. ...and then I have to go on my sorority's website to access officer resources so that I can send in the names and social security numbers of all our new initiates. Bleh. On the bright side, I do have a date to Formal. My sister Deanna (the same girl I went to homecoming with) is willing to be my companion. We both smoke, so it'll work out pretty well. My Big sister is also going to be at formal and i'm excited to see her again. Pretty much, i'm trying to lighten up for this weekend...it's going to be hard though, with all the stress that is taking over me. Anyways, in a few, i'm going to go get something to eat and then go get my hair and eyebrows done. After that i'm going to continue to run errands and hopefully squeeze in some practice time. I am so nervous. Tommorrow is going to either make or break me. Help.

Mood: Scared.

Want of the day: To pass my lab practical and be fine.

Wednesday, Apr. 1, 2009

Currently: It's a nice day today...but unfortunately, i'm spending it being miserable. I am extremely worried right now because yesterday, as noted in my short, pissed off entry, I failed my Neurorehab practical and have to retake it either tommorrow or friday. This wouldn't be that much of a problem, if my lab professor didn't install an only one second chance rule. So pretty much, if I fail again tommorrow or friday, that is it. No more chances of a re-take, no more practicing...I would completely fail the entire course and would have to take it over. And I really can't afford to be a year, or even a semester behind. Thus far, I already owe enough tuition money and having an extra year or semester would just add on to that. And what's even worse with this situation is that I have a HUGE neurorehab exam to study for tommorrow, and am thus putting all of my concentration on that instead of practicing. I really don't know what to do anymore. I mean, I practiced as many times as I could, and this still happens to me. It's not like I haven't tried, cause i am trying my hardest. It is just so hard juggling all of this school work plus sorority stuff and getting a little. All of this is taking a toll on me. And what's worse is the girl that took the practical along with me didn't even practice much but still passed...WTF? I guess some pepople just have it and I clearly don't. And I think my lab professor has had enough of me, cause last semester I also kept having to re-take Kinesiology practicals. He could only do so much and he probably feels that i'm the one whose slacking, when i'm not! Being depressed is also playing a role in this, as I haven't been very motivated to do anything lately. Maybe occupational therapy itself just isn't for me and I should try to switch majors?...but it's too late for THAT as well! Woe is me.

Mood: Very Sad.

Want of the day: To be productive and study well and pass my practical on my second try.