Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Currently: Failed my Neurorehab lab practical and am *nay* close to failing the course. Fuck my life.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Currently: Today has been a "whatever" day so far for me...which I guess is better than a completely shitty day. I'm still trying to recover from this past crappy weekend, but hey, i'll live. Had Research bright and early this morning. After that I had psych/soc lecture. Right now I am in the library procrastinating as usual. Once i'm done here, i'm going to study a little bit and then go to Counseling. After that, I am going to practice lab material for tommorrow's practical with my professor and another classmate of mine. I really hope that it goes well, cause after this weekend I need something to cheer me up some. After that, i'm going back to the apartment for a little bit, then i'm going to see if I could paint my little's letters at one of my other sisters' apartment. That may take me almost all night to do...boo! After that, you guessed it, it's back to studying! I'm just really hoping that my horrible procrastinating habit doesn't get the best of me as it usually does...I mean, I love getting things done...I just don't like what it takes to get things done. Bah! Help!

Mood: Calmly stressed.

Want of the day: To be productive.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Currently: This weekend was beyond shitty for me. Friday night, first off, I went to the mall to buy some more things for my little and ended up standing outside for hours waiting for the damn bus to pick me up. That alone gave me a splitting headache. Later on that night, I found out that a guy that I thought was my friend really just wanted me for sex. Awesome, just awesome. But it doesn't end there. Saturday morning I had to be up bright and early to do some volunteer work for Habitat for Humanity. I was already grumpy that morning from the night before, so the fact that I hadn't gotten enough sleep and was up so early about to go do manual labor just made it worse. That entire morning I was shoveling gravel and did so much work that by the end of it my shoulders were (and still are ) burning the hell out of me. Once that was done and over with, I went back to the apartment, got ready and started off to work. That is when I get a call from one of my friends stating that my mother had called her crying and wondering where I was. Turns out, she had also called my job, my RD, my roomate and my other friend Cara. BEYOND humiliating. I was so upset at her for that. I mean seriously, how the fuck old am I? That's right, 21, not 1! Just because I don't call you on the dot doesn't mean i'm dead...I have a life too, but she doesn't seem to think that. No, I have to be nursing my cellphone all day, counting down to when I have to call her again. RIDICULOUS! I was doing communinty service with my sorority, I was BUSY, for once, what do you expect from me? Do you really want me to drop everything i'm doing just to call you and say (in 5 year old voice) "hey, mommy i'm fine!" NO! That combined with the festivities from the night before and that morning just made everything ten times worse for me. I literally just wanted to strangle somebody. Because I had been so upset all day, I decided to take a temporary trip to the Bar last night, though I was broke off my ass. I did manage to get one pitcher of long island with the little money that I had. I also saw my Bar friend last night and got to speak to her. That made me feel a little better. I woke up today feeling alright, but of course, went back to feeling like shit in no time...and then I went to open lab, where the cherry to the icing was added. I spoke to the girl who's supposed to be my companion to formal to let her know about ticket expenses, when she tells me that she can no longer go with me cause her mother will be over next weekend for some religious retreat...BULLSHIT! Wow, people, really? I am so upset right now. I feel like literally the entire world just collapsed on me. I don't even care what happens to me anymore. Fuck my life.

Mood: Shitty beyond belief.

Want of the day: I really don't care...

Friday, March 27, 2009

Currently: Happy Friday! It is a beautiful day outside, and I must say, I don't feel so bad today. Had Research early this morning and after that, picked up my check and cashed it. After that, I went by that "Signs" store to put in the order for my little's shirt. I also got her a little plant. The total price ended up being over $35!!! Can you believe that?...for a shirt and a plant? AAARRRGGGHH! So needless to say, I already spent almost half of my pay check money. And it doesn't end there, either. I'm at work right now, but once I get out of here, I have to meet with my sister Kathleen at the house to go over Ritual proceedings for initiation night. After that, i'm stopping by the apartment for a little bit and then going to the mall to spend more money. Watching all this money disappear before my eyes is really making me sad...chronically sad. But oh well, I have to do what I have to do for my little. This is just the beginning of a chaotic weekend.

Mood: Okay.

Want of the day: To continue being productive.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Currently: I had a lot planned for today, but a lot of those plans went to hell...so here I am now. Bored, and not knowing what to do with myself. I really should begin studying for my Neurorehab test, but of course i'm procrastinating hardcore. On the bright side, I did start designing my little sister's letters for initiation night. Since she loves Batman, I decided to design all three letters in Batman symbols and then paint the background yellow. I really hope she likes it. I also did some facebook spying and studied the types of clothes she was wearing in every picture (I am not a creeper, I promise) to get an idea of her style and have an appropriate shirt made for her. I concluded from that that I should get her a purple shirt (since she seems to have a fondness for that color) and use fabric with lots of cherries on them to design the letters on the shirt with. I hope she likes that too. I'm going to a "Signs" store tommorrow to get the shirt made. I think it's a cute idea. I also sent my little a message on facebook about having a dinner and movie night in the near future. See what happens. I'm also planning on going to the mall tommorrow evening to purchase a good amount of what I will have to give my little on initiation night. So pretty much, I got a lot of sorority-related chores done, but not so much homework...well, besides doing my Activities File. I'm actually doing pretty well with that. I'm already on my fifth activity, so...only 25 more to go!haha. Oh boy. Anyways, I should get to studying and doing some homework now, so...

Mood: Bored and restless.

Want of the day: To stop procrastinating.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Currently: Last night was fun. My little finally found out that I was her Big. That was pretty exciting. After the big surprise, our entire sorority tree went out to eat. I only had a chesseburger and fries, but that was still enough to stuff me up.Haha. Afterwards, we went to one of the girls in my tree's apartment for a little after party/get together. The party was only meant for my tree, but soon enough other trees started rolling in to crash our party, and before we knew it, almost the entire sorority was partying with us!haha. Interesting, nevertheless. I had a few drinks and ended up being so full that after awhile I no longer wanted to have some of the cake that another one of the girls from my tree made especially for us...and that made me sad, because I was looking forward to that all night...and now i'm craving some allover again!haha. I love my little, I have to say. We are so much alike! Throughout the party last night while everyone was here, there and everywhere and were just mingling, we were the only two that just hung out in the corner together and observed. Some of the girls kept coming up to us too, and asking us why we were just hanging out in the corner. Like Big, like little.Haha. Anyways, today has been today, otherwise. It was Advising day, so I had no classes. After I got up this morning I met up with my Advisor first thing. I'm a little sad, cause I had thought that I only had to take 15 credits for the Fall, but turns out I have to take 18. It's going to be like last semester allover again!=( Oh well. After that, I went by the library to continue work on my Activities File and then met up with some of my Sisters to discuss Ritual proceedings for our Mother/Daughter tea party next weekend. I also stopped by the Chaplain's office to drop off some clothes for the Clothes Drive. After that, I got something to eat and then came right back to my apartment and napped. Other than all of that, I really haven't done much of anything today. I texted one of my friends from class to see if we could do some practicing for the Neurorehab Practical next week, but her fiance's over, so we will most likely have to do all of that tommorrow. *sigh* There's so much for me to do in so little time, it is ridiculous. But I will get through it.

Mood: Good.

Want of the day: To start being productive again.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Currently: Today has been okay thus far. Eventhough it's pretty cold out, it is sunny and the sky is quite blue, so that helped my mood some. Had Research bright and early this morning, followed by psych/soc. Both classes (though boring as heck) went well. I could say, the only time this morning that I was in a near-crappy mood was when I picked up my course Registration Form and saw (via the "Home Address" label at the top) that my mail is STILL being forwarded to my dumass aunt's PO Box. See, few months ago, the dumb bitch decided that it was a good idea to forward our entire family's mail to her PO Box, eventhough she doesn't even live with us. She did, at one time, used to have mail sent to our address, but that was it. She never did, nor does she currently, live at our house with us, but yet felt the need to get a private PO Box and have our entire family's mail sent to it as if it were her own or something. AAAAAAAAHHHH! Shit like that just pisses me off. And of course, I am paying for this. I haven't gotten invoices from my Bank in months because of this, and now she's also most likely getting all of my school info. as well. I can't believe i'm related to someone so stupid. And what's worse is I do not trust her with my mail at all. You'd think that since she's my aunt that I could trust her with anything...but lo and behold, she is not the trustworthy type. Here's one example why I don't trust her with any of my info: not too long ago, she was taking some bootleg LPN class and didn't like the teacher and tried to get ME to attend the class and complete it as her. Seriously? If you're going to commit fraud, at least be smart about it. And that is why I hate my father's side of the family so. Woe is me. But otherwise, I've been feeling fine...for now, at least. Once i'm done typing this up, i'm going to start work on my Activities File and Assertiveness Presentation for my psych/soc. class. After that, i'm getting something to eat and then going to Counseling. After that, I will probably go practice some with my Neurorehab teacher for our lab practical next week. Then after that, I will head back to the apartment and nap. After my temporary escape from this cum-stain of a life, i'm going to continue doing some homework. I may also wash some of the clothes that I plan on dropping off at the Clothing Drive. And that shall be it.

Mood: ??????

Want of the day: To continue getting things done.