Currently: This weekend was beyond shitty for me. Friday night, first off, I went to the mall to buy some more things for my little and ended up standing outside for hours waiting for the damn bus to pick me up. That alone gave me a splitting headache. Later on that night, I found out that a guy that I thought was my friend really just wanted me for sex. Awesome, just awesome. But it doesn't end there. Saturday morning I had to be up bright and early to do some volunteer work for Habitat for Humanity. I was already grumpy that morning from the night before, so the fact that I hadn't gotten enough sleep and was up so early about to go do manual labor just made it worse. That entire morning I was shoveling gravel and did so much work that by the end of it my shoulders were (and still are ) burning the hell out of me. Once that was done and over with, I went back to the apartment, got ready and started off to work. That is when I get a call from one of my friends stating that my mother had called her crying and wondering where I was. Turns out, she had also called my job, my RD, my roomate and my other friend Cara. BEYOND humiliating. I was so upset at her for that. I mean seriously, how the fuck old am I? That's right, 21, not 1! Just because I don't call you on the dot doesn't mean i'm dead...I have a life too, but she doesn't seem to think that. No, I have to be nursing my cellphone all day, counting down to when I have to call her again. RIDICULOUS! I was doing communinty service with my sorority, I was BUSY, for once, what do you expect from me? Do you really want me to drop everything i'm doing just to call you and say (in 5 year old voice) "hey, mommy i'm fine!" NO! That combined with the festivities from the night before and that morning just made everything ten times worse for me. I literally just wanted to strangle somebody. Because I had been so upset all day, I decided to take a temporary trip to the Bar last night, though I was broke off my ass. I did manage to get one pitcher of long island with the little money that I had. I also saw my Bar friend last night and got to speak to her. That made me feel a little better. I woke up today feeling alright, but of course, went back to feeling like shit in no time...and then I went to open lab, where the cherry to the icing was added. I spoke to the girl who's supposed to be my companion to formal to let her know about ticket expenses, when she tells me that she can no longer go with me cause her mother will be over next weekend for some religious retreat...BULLSHIT! Wow, people, really? I am so upset right now. I feel like literally the entire world just collapsed on me. I don't even care what happens to me anymore. Fuck my life.
Mood: Shitty beyond belief.
Want of the day: I really don't care...
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