Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Currently: Today's just one of those days that I feel Numb. And the saddest part is, lately I haven't been feeling the same towards music as I used to. I mean, when I listen these days, I don't get that same feeling of release, escape, and enjoyment as before...that is definitely not a good sign. They say that you know you are truly depressed when activities you once enjoyed doesn't have that same effect any longer. Music always provided enjoyment to me. I listened when I was feeling great, and I listened when I felt like crap, and I always had a song that matched my mood perfectly. But now...nothing. These days I practically listen just to listen...and pretty much, cause it had become such a routine for me. This really makes me sad. How could I possibly be losing interest in the one art form I feel understands me the most? Hopefully, my feelings towards music will pick up again next week or something...maybe this and last week are just one of "those" weeks? Who knows. Either way, I want to be able to listen to "Be quiet and Drive" by the Deftones and regain those old feelings of waking up on a beautiful Sunday morning and feeling alive again...please come back.