Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Tuesday, Apr. 20, 2010

Currently: Jenn definitely must have felt bad about Saturday night, cause she randomly called me last night to hang out.Haha And of course, I couldn't say no. I did finish my homework at that point, afterall...and why not? That was only my SECOND time ever going out on a Monday night, so I was up for trying something new.Haha The Bar we went to actually had quite a few people in it, which I wasn't expecting at all. But it was nice. Her friend Ashley(aka the girl in our sorority that I hate the most)tagged along...and surprisingly, we ended up chatting it up quite a bit last night. It was pretty...weird.Haha It all started when I felt comfortable enough to say one little thing to her. And before we knew it, we were joking about people and talking about practically anything. I even asked her about her true feelings about me...i'm sorry, I had to! And that rum and coke in my system pushed me towards it even more, haha. And I don't know if she bull-shitted because she felt uncomfortable, or if she was really genuine, but she then tells me that she never had anything against me and thinks that i'm a lot of fun to hang out with. She then apologized for ever making me feel uncomfortable...but you know that'll happen again anyways.Haha But hey, it was nice being buddies for at least one night...she even mentioned something about possibly hanging out over the summer...I REALLY chuckled at that.Haha. So needless to say, last night really made up for saturday, thank god. Anyways, I have a little bit of a dilemna tonight. See, my mother is currently in Haiti visiting her siblings, and the problem with that is that when she had told me that she was planning to do this months ago, I was STRONGLY against it, and pretty much gave her an ultimatum; them or me. So then she tells me that she'll "think about it," and let me know of her decision as soon as she figures it out. So months and months pass by, and she doesn't bring this up at all...and then all of a sudden, last week i'm speaking to her on the phone when she adds "oh yea, i'm leaving for Haiti on monday." WHAT THE FUCK???!!! It's pretty obvious that she went against her promise and DID NOT let me know of her plans as soon as she made them. I was so upset at her. I even temporarily un-invited her to my graduation. But then I felt bad and re-invited her. So she arrived over there yesterday, and before I could even have a real conversation with her, my father calls me to tell me that she has given my old laptop to her brother in law...WHAT THE FUCK...AGAIN???!!! See, over the summer, before embarking back to school, I asked her what she was planning on doing with my old laptop and she told me that she didn't know. Months go by again and she doesn't tell me a thing about her plans...and then I hear THIS! I am not upset about the fact that she let him have my old laptop, but at the fact that she pretty much decided to just give away something that once belonged to me without my permission. Once again, she went behind my back and did something against my will. You have no idea how upset that made me. So I was speaking to her today about how upset she has made me with this entire Haiti trip ordeal, and she doesn't really offer any kind of apology, but instead tried to make ME out to be the bad guy. She then has the nerve to ask me for my classmate Cara's number (Cara's a missionary to Haiti, what a fucking coincidence!) so that she could give it to her brother in law so he can have a contact person for some sort of charity that he's trying to start. But I just refused to do it, because I am still very upset at her and her relatives...mostly cause I feel she is choosing them over me at this point. So after I decline, she gets all weepy-voiced and starts begging me saying that he's trying to do something good with this, and blah blah blah...and I just wasn't having it because at this point I am tired of being nice and getting stepped on. The problem though is, now I kinda feel bad about rejecting her so aggressively. So here's my dilemna; be nice, and hand over my contacts, but continue to get stepped on, or be a bitch and continue to feel guilty about it. Only time shall tell on this one. Other than all that madness, life's been alright to me. It's almost graduation time and i'm really excited...but have a lot of work to finish before I could truly enjoy it.Haha After finals week, the girls in my class and the graduate class are having a Bar crawl and i'm planning on going to that. I also have a lot of finalizing and what not to do. And even after I graduate, I already have SO MUCH planned for the summer, including my Fieldwork II rotations. I guess that would be my welcome to the grown up world.

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