Sunday, May 30, 2010

Currently: Friday night I met a 38 year old Brazilian guy at the club. He found me very attractive so he had to come talk to me...he couldn't stop remarking at how pretty I am, and couldn't believe that I didn't have a boyfriend. We talked a bit and even danced a little, and he bought me a drink. He actually seemed pretty cool. Eventhough he is much older than me and has a 10 year old son, I figured I could give him a try. I mean, he was in the Navy and fixes planes for a living, which I think is pretty cool. He also seemed to be a level-headed guy. I don't know, I got a good vibe from him. So he gave me his number and I decided to text him yesterday. He called me almost soonafter, and the first thing he asks me is if I could hang out with him again that day. I told him that I couldn't...so then he asked if I could hang out with him today. Not that I mind, but I don't even have enough money to go back out in the city again. That, and I don't know, talking to him on the phone, I got a vibe that he was the type of guy that rushes into things, and i'm not like that at all. I like to take my time to get to know a guy first, then meet up with him and see where it goes...but I could just tell that he's not like that. So needless to say, I don't think i'm ever going to call him again. I really hope that i'm not being too picky, but I just feel like it's so hard to find a good quality guy these days. Every guy that I meet, if they don't have one bad fault, they have another. It is so frustrating. I really don't know how so many girls I know are able to find boyfriends so easily. It is literally taking me forever and a day just to find one quality person. One thing that i'm scared about is turning around and being 30 years old and still not having anybody. And it can happen. I am 22 now and time flies, and with the type of guys i've been meeting it could take awhile to find one that I could see myself with. And what's funny is, when I was a little girl I used to think that it was so easy to find a husband. I literally thought that as soon as a girl grew up she right away found her prince charming and married him and had children with him and lived happily ever after. But unfortunately, real life is not a Disney movie...I really wish it was though.