Sunday, December 18, 2011

Dani's Rants: How can I make my life more exciting?

I always thought that once I started working life would be a lot more fun and exciting...unfortunately, that is far from the truth. Sure working at least keeps me busy and occupied with something...but I think that's the only added Bonus to it. I still don't have a lot of friends so during the weekends I don't go anywhere or socialize...and even if I were to find someone to go on the occasional outing with, i'm always tired from work by the time weekends arrive! On top of that too you have Bills, bills, bills; i've already begun paying off my loans. So how do I even save up enough money to go out? I'm starting to feel that that's what life itself is; completely boring. People are so busy with obligations and personal matters, it's hard to find time for the more enjoyable things in life. Even when I do try to find ways to amuse myself, nothing seems to fulfill well enough. I feel like in order to fully enjoy life, one must have a job that requires them to travel a lot; at least you get to change settings and experience different worlds. I would love to do travel therapy...only problem though is i'm the type of person who has an attached type of personality...meaning once I grow used to a place I can never leave it. I hate that about me! For example, i've been in New York all my life and though I find San Francisco, California to be a lot more breath-taking and fun to live in, I STILL don't want to leave New York! I think apart of it is fear and being in a new setting all by myself. But i'm also the type of person who LOVES having something new and exciting to look forward to. That's why it has also been so hard trying to figure out my next vacation. One minute I want to go to Punta Cana, DR, next minute I want to visit Hollywood...then the next minute I want Mexico or Vegas...I want to be everywhere!haha But it is hard too to get to those places without money...and I haven't even started saving up to retake my Boards yet. But anyways, at the end of all of this is the question; why does life have to be so boring? Why can't simple things like waking to a beautiful day (which it really is) fulfill the soul enough? Or going to the Salon and getting a new hairdo? Why can't things like that keep me going for an entire day? Maybe i'm the only one that feels this way...but I doubt it.

2 comments:

MarkP said...

I'm probably not going to get time to comment again before Christmas, so just wanted to drop past and wish you a Merry Christmas and New Year. I hope you sort your exam stuff out soon, and I hope Santa brings you a little something, ( a good man maybe ?? LOL ). I know I'm not here that often, but I do read you, and I hope next year brings better things.

*CHRISTMAS HUG*

Sadly I don't have any mistletoe to hang on my trousers ( pants to you guys ) - I can see the relief on your face ROFL ;o)

Have a Great Christmas,
Maxxy.

RockstarDani said...

And a happy Holidays to you as well.