Saturday, March 13, 2010

Currently: I confess; I am a needy person, who loves attention and feeling loved (or liked, at least)and like I belong to something. Fortunately for me, tonight was one of those nights where I was definitely feeling the love from some of my acquaintances/sorority sisters. We had a gathering tonight for our new girls, and what was great was the fact that people seemed genuinely happy to see me. It wasn't one of those fake, phony moments, where it was just "oh, hey...so...um, how was your week?" People actually embraced me and I felt like I was actually apart of tonight's group dynamic. My sorority tree especially really made me feel like I was apart of them. I know I probably sound extremely cheesy right now, but having low self-esteem and mild depression issues all my life, nights like tonight really comfort my soul. Tonight, I literally would hang out at a corner and strike up a little conversation with one person, and then would have another one come right up to me and talk to/introduce themselves to me. I really like when that happens. I just wish that every night out was like this for me.Haha Funny moment of the night, one of my sisters in my tree actually dry-humped me upon seeing me at the ZBT house later on in the night...it was quite interesting and random, but certainly a rare occasion in my world.Haha So, as mentioned before, I was definitely feeling the love tonight...and I really hope that it can at least semi-continue until I graduate in May. Yea, that would definitely be a great send-off.= )

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Currently: So I am off all this week...and thus, ridiculously bored. So bored actually, that I took it upon myself to blow the little amount of cash I had left on goniometers, a stethscope, and a blood pressure cuff at the Bookstore...I mean, it wasn't a complete waste, as I will be needing those items to practice in preparation for my Fieldwork II rotation this summer...but really??? I don't think it was THAT urgent! Anyways, I digress. So I am counting down hardcore to friday. I am hanging out with my sorority tree for the first time in EONS (since I have been on professional status and all). We are first meeting up at the House to welcome the four new girls that will be joining our tree. Afterwards, we are going to a Diner to eat and then going to my friend Jenn's apartment for cupcakes and god knows what else!haha. I haven't been really out in so long too...I think that's reason numero uno as to why I want friday to come NOW!hehe. Otherwise, it has been a good week. I've been catching up on a lot of sleep and loving it...sleep just happens to be one of those things in life that I cherish deeply. And thankfully, I think I have regained my love of music! As a matter of fact, tonight I discovered an early 90's reggae group called the Born Jamericans and I really like their music! I will most definitely be checking out more of their material in the future! Also, the past few days have been really beautiful around here...but unfortunately, lord knows how much longer this great weather is going to last, as the weather is ALWAYS unpredictable here! We shall see, we shall see...for now, i'm about to screw around on facebook for a little bit, then go to bed. Wonder what beautiful dreams I shall have tonight???Haha

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Currently: Today's just one of those days that I feel Numb. And the saddest part is, lately I haven't been feeling the same towards music as I used to. I mean, when I listen these days, I don't get that same feeling of release, escape, and enjoyment as before...that is definitely not a good sign. They say that you know you are truly depressed when activities you once enjoyed doesn't have that same effect any longer. Music always provided enjoyment to me. I listened when I was feeling great, and I listened when I felt like crap, and I always had a song that matched my mood perfectly. But now...nothing. These days I practically listen just to listen...and pretty much, cause it had become such a routine for me. This really makes me sad. How could I possibly be losing interest in the one art form I feel understands me the most? Hopefully, my feelings towards music will pick up again next week or something...maybe this and last week are just one of "those" weeks? Who knows. Either way, I want to be able to listen to "Be quiet and Drive" by the Deftones and regain those old feelings of waking up on a beautiful Sunday morning and feeling alive again...please come back.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Currently: Completing my Fieldwork 1 rotations for Physical Disabilities this week, and it has been...well, boring. I was expecting for them to at least have a few chores and interesting activities for me to do, like maybe massaging a patient's hand, or assisting in evaluating a patient...but no, nothing. The people at this facility are so paranoid that they won't even let me do ultrasound massage on patients because of liability concerns. *sigh* So basically all i've been doing is standing around, observing and asking questions...as well as getting quizzed by some of the therapists. The questions were pretty easy at first, but are getting harder! Oh well. So that has been it lately. The rest of my school is out on their Spring Break, so no one's really around to keep me company. So what is in store for me tonight? Well, hopefully I can finally get started on my Pediatrics Fieldwork 1 papers...and besides that, I can't really think of anythingelse besides calling it a night and starting anew tommorrow. Yeehaw!Haha. Hey, at least i'll have bragging rights next week when everyonelse will be working their tails off!Ha!

Friday, Feb. 26, 2010

Currently: Holy crap, it's been so long!!! Truth is, I haven't been able to update because my laptop had a virus thingy for about a week. As a matter of fact, I tried to update last week and it shut down mid-sentence...needless to say, I was pissed.Haha. But oh, how I missed this blog so. SO much has happened since the last I updated. For one, I was deathly sick practically all last week, but was still able to get really good grades on TWO big exams AND complete my service learning assignments at the Nursing Home...I definitely gave myself three thumbs up for that. Also, all this week I was at a facility completing my Fieldwork level 1 rotations for Pediatrics. It was a really great experience. I am practically in love with those kids...even when they did throw temper tantrums.Haha One of the children in particular, a little boy with Mental Retardation/Nystagmus, really melted my heart. I swear, I almost wanted to take that little boy home with me. I really hope that his parents treat him well, otherwise i'm coming for their asses!Haha. Great week, nevertheless. Next week, i'm going on my rotation for Physical Disabilities at a Hand Center. I am really looking forward to it because, believe it or not, i'm actually pretty interested in maybe becoming a Hand Therapist someday. It should be a good way to introduce me to the field. Anyways, tonight i'm just going to let my hair down and have some fun! It has been a tough few weeks for me and I sucked it up, so I deserve it!Haha I am first going to pre-game at one of my friends' apartment. Afterwards, we are going to the karaoke Bar! I'm so excited!...but first, I need a shower...which I should be taking now, as my friend is coming to pick me up pretty soon...so, um, yea..Cheers!= )

Sunday, Feb. 7, 2010

Currently: My professional and personal life is not at as much of a stand still as it was when I last updated. For one, my Fieldwork coordinator was FINALLY able to get one of the facilities I was looking at to say 'yes' to letting me complete my rotation with them...and coincidentally, this facility happened to be the same school that my brother attended for many years. I guess he was my good luck charm, huh? My fieldwork coordinator is still trying to get a 'yes' from a physical disabilities facility, and even has enlisted the help of a fieldwork coordinator at a college close to where I live...so I hope this works out. If not, then I don't mind completing that rotation right here in town. Atleast I know that I could just spend the summer here but will still be able to go back home to complete my Fall rotation at the other facility...but anyways, enough with that. My friend Jenn and I were able to reconcile (well there was never really a 'fight' to begin with, so technically there's nothing to 'reconcile' over, but i'll just use that word anyway)last week and hung out practically the entire weekend. It was great getting to hang out with her again. She happens to be the one person at this school whom I could hang out with anytime and any place and still have fun. Friday night we went to the Bar and then to a club...that night, however did not end too spectacularly, as Jenn ran into some "issues" with another girl she's friends with. I didn't have a bad time though. And last night we first went to the karaoke Bar where we sang "Dreaming of you" by Selena. Afterwards, we went to the club and danced a little. The odd part about that portion of the night though, was when this random house wife-type lady comes up to me on the dancefloor, in awe, and asks if she could touch my breasts cause they were so beautiful. I was completely shocked at what I heard. I tried my best to hold my composure and not give her a complete "are you fucking kidding me?" look. When she asked me the first time, I replied "well, I don't know about that..." to which she then retorts "I am not a lesbian. I am married with two children." At that point, I just wanted to finish dancing the "Cupid Shuffle" and she was in my way, so then I reply "urrrr...okay?" and perk my breasts up for her and she touches them with this look of complete awe and admiration on her face...WOW! After she left me, Jenn, who saw everything, walked up to me and was like "what the hell was that?"...i'll never know. Anyways, after staying at the club for an hour and a half we went home. Next friday we are meeting up again for dinner at some Japanese joint...and she's also trying to get me to go skiing with her on Saturday...and...er...I don't know about that.Haha. I guess I shall wait and see. In the meanwhile, I am here at work really wishing (for once) that the time would go by quicker. I have about 23 minutes to go...arrrgggh! After I get out of here, i'm going to get dinner, then go right back to my apartment, where I will be doing a little bit of reading and studying for Pediatrics. And after that i'm off to bed! I have to be up early tommorrow for Gerontology lab at 8 am. I will then be going to the NICU for Pediatrics in the afternoon. All in all it'll be a busy day but not too bad.

Monday, Feb. 1, 2010

Currently: Wow, I can't believe we are already in February! Anyways, didn't do shit this weekend...mostly because some of my so-called friends weren't cooperating. But this weekend definitely showed me who my real friends are and I have dismissed quite a few people from my life. Some people are just a serious waste of time. Anyways, just got back from my Gerontology lecture class. I do not have Pediatrics lab today, so that gives me the entire day to study for my Physical Disabilities test which is on Thursday. In the meanwhile, i'm going to listen to a little bit of music and then step out to get some Chinese food. After that, you guessed it, I will be studying and studying and studying some more. I really wish I could just get my Masters degree already. As quickly as time is flying by, I feel like my personal life is just dragging and dragging. I guess I have to just continue being a patient little puppy. Oh, and...the other day I was talking to my mother and she was saying what a nice couple me and Jon would have made (she has seen his picture before). That really melted my cold black heart. Out of all the crushes I have had in the last 10 or so years, he's actually the one I would have made the nicest couple with. We completely match looks-wise, we're the same complexion, and although he is taller than me, he is not obnoxiously taller than me and it's a good balance. We definitely would have complemented each other. Oh well. And all of this emo remniscing right before Valentines Day. *sigh* By the way, is anyone going to see the movie "Valentines Day"? I sure as hell am not.