Wednesday, Sept. 21, 2011

Currently: SO I went to go take my Boards exam yesterday and was NOT admitted to the site because I didn't have another form of identification with my signature on it...and no I am NOT making this shit up, unfortunately. I know that I was complaining before about not feeling prepared enough for the exam, but since that time I had been studying a lot and my confidence had increased...needless to say, yesterday morning I felt more than ready to take the exam and get it over with. So what's next now? Today I have to go to the Bank and apply for a Savings debit card that could serve as my second form of id with a signature, and Friday I have to apply for yet another Authorization letter. Again, it will take a week for me to receive the new letter, and then I can schedule another test. I couldn't believe it myself when the guy at the front desk said those words to me; "You are not allowed to test." According to him, it is an NBCOT (crooks) rule and not the Prometric site's rules. This is just beyond ridiculous to me. I have a fucking MASTER'S degree and yet I'm lucky if i'll have an actual paying job by my birthday...or by Christmas, even. In the meanwhile, I have to start paying off my loans in fucking November! How the fuck do these people expect me to pay for ANYTHING when I need the fucking exam to get a job in this State...and i'm having a hard time merely being ADMITTED to the fucking exam? And I love how yesterday when I spoke to a rep from NBCOT, the fucking bitch had the nerves to tell me (when I asked her how the hell they expect an unemployed person straight out of Grad School to pay an additional 175 dollars to "reactivate" an ATT letter) that I have to "find a way" to pay them...WHAT FUCKING WAY, LADY? Shit like this is why I never feel bad when the fucking terrorists crash planes through this country's most esteemed buildings, and murder the hell out of American soldiers. Fucking people expect the impossible from others. But this all makes me wonder; Is there something trying to hold me back from become an occupational therapist? I mean, one of my professors repeatedly gave me a hard time while I was a student, then I had a difficult first fieldwork and ended up having to repeat it, now THIS SHIT??? What the fuck is next? In the meanwhile, most of my classmates completed the program and took the Boards and passed it very smoothly...shit, half of them are already working. This is all disappointing to me...i'm a HARD working person, and this shouldn't be happening to me. But then again, when was life EVER fair to me? I think the only positive about this situation, is now I have more time to study...so I better pass this test.